I don't feel cute anymore

I'm transmasc and I've been using testosterone gel for about 2 and a half years and it's made my hair start thinning. I've been using something called rogaine to try to make it grow back but it feels like it's taking foreeeeeeeever. And I just don't feel cute anymore, so i don't know, but I just don't feel like I can go into little space at the moment.

I'm very confused rn, because I remember where agere was just beginning and the kids in it said that people from the bdsm community were disgusting and couldn't be apart of the community. But now it's like we've meshed and now there's an 18+ agere part and I don't know if it's okay for me to accept it because for years all I read was that people in the cgl community were disgusting and to not even interact with them, they even bragged about taking things that were taken from the cgl community. Can I just accept that it's a part of it,even after all the negative things that were said and done?

I feel like I'm betraying my little space because I want to big sub stuff, but when I'm little I think kissing is icky and I don't even think of the other stuff. Even though I haven't been able to get into little space because I'm too stressed, it still makes me feel bad wanting to do adult shtuff with other adults. Does anyone else know what I mean?

So, I have a mommy now. I'm scared of posting it anywhere because the "cg's" I had before ghosted me at the drop of a hat. So if she doesn't message me or something I get super scared that I got ghosted but she actually calms me down and says it okay and I wish she could be my mommy forever

I don't know why but robot toys, especially robot dogs make me feel small

I can't find my platypus stuffy 😱

I keep on thinking about something that's happened to me. Two of my neighbors were drunk and watching a can of beer on the mail box post thingy. I was walking my dog when I heard them talking about me and how I was a freak because sometimes when I walk my dog I don't wear socks while I'm wearing shoes. And I just keep on thinking ' That's the freakiest thing about me, nothing else?'

So I had to mentally grow up fast to take care of my family, but rn it's like my mind is stuck at the age where I was forced to grow up and now everyone expects to act like an adult when mentally I am a child an it's harddd to have to act like a grown up

I just wanna go to the beach and build sand castles 🏖️

I has 33 followers and I feels like I should do something ☺️. What I do not knows.

I can't talk right now, doing hot non-binary shtuff

Me: starts blocking all age-re and cglre accounts that I can find

Guess what this smarticles person just did. I filtered age regression and cglre so now I never have to see it. Mwahahaha.

I also filtered segs so now I don't have to see naked people that makes me feel really uncomfortable so yay

I've thought multiple times to just delete my account but then I think of how that basically means how I an adult would lose to children who tried to de-kink kink and let's just say THIS kink is gonna stay way longer than age-re and puppy play WAS never not kinky

Okay. I have something to say, all you age-re CHILDREN who put dni's for people in the cgl kink because you use it to cope; WE ALL USE LITTLE SPACE TO COPE. You may have really wanted to get into the community and saw that it was 18+ only so you copy and pasted the whole kink and felt ashamed about it so you dni us BUT HAVING A DADDY OR MOMMY IS A KINK AND YOU ALL NEED TO GET THAT THROUGH YOUR 12 YEAR OLD BRAINS. So either wait till your older and delete your accounts or live in ignorance. BECAUSE CHILDREN AREN'T ALLOWED IN KINK. Good day and good night to the actual adults in this kink and I hope you copy cats live in your supposed bliss

Vanilla people: *sees cgl post while about their mommy/daddy* Ewww gross that's messed up

Also vanilla people posting/irl: DADDY CHOKE ME

Tell me what's wrong with this and you'll get a virtual cookie 🍪

So be awemazed, after being a little for 3 or 4 years I finally have a CG whose the best mommy ever 😆

So I feel like I'm gonna cry, happy tears but still. I've been watching this little on YouTube and asked if they were going to do another diy. She asked me to be more specific and I replied by apologizing and saying that literally all I have I just paper and beads. She replied back and to see my name (I'm non-binary) , not my dead name which my family accidentally calls me on accident and other people call me on purpose just makes me want to cry. I know she doesn't know how happy she made me for no reason but I am 😊