Here is the final series of last year's convention with my beautiful friend Olivia who made by hand her dress as Sophie from Howl's Moving Castle. And myself as Wizard Howl. Still such an incredible year. Going to these events represents heaven to me. Where everyone can see you for your soul, and no one is really a stranger when your heart is truly gold.

Another fun photo of me and Olivia celebrating our win in the TnT cosplay competition for 2016. This is part of my memory reel from last year as a placer for my being able to attend this year. Honestly it seems prefect since I forgot to upload these to instagram last year due to not having a phone with instagram installed. I edited this one, hope you enjoy the old cosplay I made!

A Cosplay photo of myself and my perfect friend, Olivia who paired with me last year at Tnt to participate in a cosplay competition for 2016. I am sad to say this year I will not be attending due to financial setbacks. But I know in my heart, I can travel back to that magical year with my friendships. I hope next year I will come back to life.

Here is my makeup test for tomorrow's Pride parade! I chose to represent the ancient Egyptian theme for this event knowing that in their culture, both men and women were seen as one body. That there is no separation of the two by status. The other accessories on me also represent a symbol of civilizations which developed concepts of theory and Philosophy. Such a the grape vines for Greece, and my carpentry mirror vest from Afghanistan used in festivities. I felt this would be an interesting theme to bare at the Pride parade. Another fun aspect of this is my travelling to Chicago on the train in full body paint like this. I will feel many eyes and pull questions from people as I go there. Biking 1.5 hours, 22 miles in length. Then sitting on a train for another 2 hours. All decorated in full gold and wearing multi cultural clothing. I will learn the same external experience many people go through who are judged indifferently on the outside. I am exposing an "foreign" side to me that others see. Yey if we ever tried to look harder.. We'd see the soul instead. It will certainly be an awesome experiment for me to reflect on. Full pictures of my outfit will come soon tomorrow when I finally reach the event! The lighting is not doing this justice, my apartment has low lights. But my face is entirely gold! So will the other exposed parts of my body.

His name is Drew. A Beautiful show horse owned and family to my friend Cassy. Who brought me to her barn that day to show me everything she does to care for him and prepare him for shows. They display his skill, agility, personality, and intelligence. I love him so much and this memory will always stay with me. I was so appreciative that she allowed me to ride him for a little while. Thank you my friend!

An adventure began for me Wednesday June 22nd, where I biked a total of 50 miles from sunset through night. On the silent, empty trails of Wisconsin. Toward the middle of my journey, I faced odds with a huge dirt mountain where my path unexpectedly cut off. Instead of turning around, I wanted to continue to travel down it. It appeared to be under construction, creating mounds so steep and high, as much as 50 feet inclined. My direction home was through this rout, so I encouraged myself to get over it by any means. I took my belt and wrapped it around the bars of my bike. Proceeding to carry up and over the giant mound. Where I stood, I could see so much of path I've travelled, and the next stages of my journey ahead. The night got darker, lessening the ease of site. But was still safe, trusting my eyes walking the white path. I wish I could have captured photos of those moments, but it would not render the real vision of it. I was so at peace letting myself go through this test of faith in myself. The trees covered the sky, and the path lead me through the way back home. It was as if I didn't need to think about where I was heading, I just knew. I then start another hour made it safely back home. A journey I'll be making again, going down the other direction of the path where there is light. (at White River State Bike Trail)

Forgive me for long being away. Allow me to explain why. It had been quite a while that I was without a phone. Normally I use a program on my computer to contact phones. Now I am excited to announce that I do have an excellent phone! And will be posting much more of my life documentary and art. Isn't the camera quality great? I thank all of you for your patience and support.

Between the lines of what is right and wrong to feel and do, Guide your mind to where your heart remembered what was true. Maybe then we all will find the better way to judge our lives. So go forth and learn each day how there's something new, Memories that shape who we are remain the savior when you fall. And I'll be there if logic no longer is the voice inside your mind. Battling each thought when dark infinity becomes the lie. Like a sphere called earth moving perfectly in a space Filled with lonely stars.

The Final Statement on Today’s Election.

Words to make you feel less stressed about whatever outcome comes to be.

*The photo is funny, just sit between both sides of today. Enjoy the rest of it no matter what happens.*

On today's election, think of this.

Believe strongly that all that should happen and needs to happen, will. We will adapt to whatever changes are made. At the end of reading this, what I mean may become very clear. Any application is a form of learning and discipline. If we are truly exposed to the corruption foreseen in the Republican party, should it be revealed if Trump wins, we will be able to enact justice by becoming properly aware of that truth. When the action is visible to us. If those plans happen to do something for us, our previous notions are relieved and we continue to investigate, and challenge, wrongful decisions by proving their inefficiency. If Democrats win, we will be able to continue the same path we are set on now, in terms of having tax money spent based on the public agenda, rather than the conservative one. Conservative means, in this way, in the interest of the government. That encompasses an overview of what is being fought for right now.

Public interest versus conservative. The conservative one, really wants to build a wall, challenge immigration, invest more in fossil fuels, and build larger businesses. Which is utterly terrifying because it is an extreme measure, and has not been a primary focus but instead a hidden one. Due to the presence of Democrats in the White House over the last 8 years. Democrats want to invest our tax money in things like making college free, and invest in renewable energy. All are also challenged by the presence of people who doubt that they are easily possible and affordable. However, they are comfortable, and generally moral decisions, made on behalf of an idea that the public should support public interests. These ideas were also already our primary focus in the last 8 years, and throughout that time it proves how long some ideas take to become enacted. These ideas are concerns that was influenced by the public. Therefore making us feel that we have the ability to have our voices valued. Keeping it this way is the very reason why most people, who want problems solved within the social society, support Democracy. Democracy literally means, in the interest of people.

If there is a concern that this election may be "rigged" (which I have seen a lot of commentary on) it is only rigged, in the sense, BOTH Republic and Democratic plans are already being acted on. They vary in how much of their affects are both expressed to the public, or easily carried out because of how they are voted on in the government. Making the election seem like an interval of time that the public receives updates and news of various goals we all want and need. Either way we are still doing what both presidents are representing, in the business or in society. It is rather silly to be too concerned on who wins. They simply become the one who is held responsible for keeping those plans an ideal, and trying to somehow manage to create plans that actually work to enact them. Until eventually, we run out of time and realize we need to modify them, or choose a different path the next election (The switch from social-heavy Democracy or government-heavy Republic.).

I remind you, no matter what happens, it is the people who make the world. And in every choice you make, day by day, on what you choose to do with your time. Whether you will believe morality resides in actions committed for or against the rest of the world. We ultimately ensure what needs to happen. And deny corruption when we see it. 

I met a woman this day who looked at me, spoke to me as though she knew deeply who I was. Briefly my eyes caught site of an ancient tablet made of clay, worn as a totem necklace. Telling me if it's history and meaning to her, she said to me, "This it's yours, take it." I felt her honor for me as much as the symbolic nature of this carving represented to me in life. I see this, and empty into it the mediation of all the company of life which is a temple to my mind and soul. It is what I consider deeply as I walk my path of life, which brings into light many who are the same. I will wear this to embody my self each day. And practice the same witness to others, for that is the reflection of our world. This image represents Siddhartha, the Buddha and understanding of the Bodhisattva. This is attributed to the discipline of offering your life's pursuits for helping others, loving humanity, and sharing responsible actions for the worldly good; preserving the consciousness of moral and intellectual prosperity. Committing all thought and deeds to embody and share love to all you see and meet. Do this in your thoughts, and you will see the true witness which holds you honor. All that surrounds you looking deeply within to show you your individual signigigance. As all should live to see without any doubt that there is meaning to your life.

"Believe it not, everything on the outside does reflect what we need on the inside. The world is a certain way because of how many people there are wanting the same thing. All we do is do what we feel is right for ourselves. It will always be good if we decide on those actions with the right state of mind."

- Leustante

My only thoughts, are the thoughts beyond my self. Yet my self, is part of the creation of that reality, and through me my only peace is whether others are also at peace. I cannot live in a world without my devoted love towards every single person. I think only what they are, and that honor will always be through my actions. It kills me, when I see any selfish act or thought within me. Even if I may be forced into a selfish existence to survive. 

When you start caring for someone else besides you for the first time in your life and you don’t know what the hell is that feeling

An artistic render for my costume work as Howl, presented with my good friend who worked hard sewing her Sophie outfit and offering a very realistic Sophie to the convention. The photograph was taken by my friend at Chris Corley Stuios www.facebook.com/CCStudios2K13

This is inspired by the film and book Howl's Moving Castle

This is how I catch Pokemon. I've been trying to capture this hummingbird on my phone for a good while, he finally showed at the perfect time.

It is impossible to not see the truth of why we exist. You discover this by first knowing the rest of the world needs you to.

I dwell long within my thoughts become the poetic narration of a painting formed from the life interacting around me. I listen within my thoughts as though a teacher to calm me, and take each moment as a message to a complex within me. I was told the water of our universal existence is that which manifests from the spaces between life. The forms that exists purely in their way of being is the nature of thought that can be loose, unknown, formless as if needed to question. But to observe too much, we form shapes of it ourselves to create any form based on our own perception. This form can be anything based on the lack of structure, and the desire to create structure. But from a formless clay, we must know what truth of our thoughts we hold on to that we do not create symbols that remind us of suffering selves. From which the yang in life, the structures based on the system of the world we are bound by, is the explainable nature given to us in life that we may adhere to thoughts of reassurance. There is an explanation of all matters that resides in thoughts that are comforted by elements we can explain, analyse, and recieve proof from. This is the structure of rocks and geometry of life to support the balance of consciousness and subconscious being. We too are a result of the same measurement of time and system, walking reflections of a conscious sphere on it's own, breaking free from a singular being and unique in the spirit of individual thought.

As you walk, the perfection of time and the nature of symbolism is where you will find where you stand within yourself and the world. Let that experience be inspiration to you live the greatest gift of experience ever given. To exist to know the consciousness at all is the timeless meaning of life.