i have learned harmonica

fuck it time to learn harmonica

ive been enrolled in this shit for over half a year and im not even a quarter of the way through KILL ME I HATE SCHOOL I HATE ‘LEARNING’ INSTITUTIONS AND I HATE HOW YOU NEED AN EDUCATION TO GET A JOB JUST LET ME DO THE FUCKING JOBBBBBBB and fuck texas too

okay i just counted and theres 72 units and obviously 72 more exams i have to take yayyyy i love school yayyyyy im going to fucking kill myself

eating lunch and then i think ill do a class for the first time in like forever….ive been stuck on civics which is annoying but ill finish it and maybe get back in the rhythm of doing a class a day … maybe even two cause i have 13 and a little more to finish (each with at least 4 units and a graded test at the end of each unit) and i leave for texas on the 6th hmmmm < hubris will be my downfall

anyway all that to say that if you’re a dropout if you have shit grades if you go to an alt school and are looked down on for it if you’re in your 5th or 6th or whatever year of high school if you’re still getting your GED if you’re taking night classes if you missed out on “universal” high school experiences if you were abused by your peers (because make no mistake, that’s what bullying is) if you were expelled if you were truant every single year if you were homeschooled and got sick of the jokes if you never attended a full week if the whole world treats you like the scum of the earth all because of your high school experience or lackthereof you’re not alone. there’s so many of us that have been beaten down and broken by the school systems we’re subject to and the hostility they breed and the abusive environments they foster. some day we won’t have to be treated like objects of pity or contempt to be swept aside but until then we have each other

if you're cringing at the genre conventions of the genre you are writing in then why the hell are you writing in it. either have something substantial to say about those conventions or shut the hell up! i will not cringe alongside you at superhero powers and spaceship battles and big eldritch worms and bone magic. i came to this story to SEE that shit and I don't appreciate it when an author tries to pretend they're above the very things they're selling themselves on

I don't think it's a radical ideal for the want of Hawai'i to become their own independent country. It should have never been taken over by the US in the first place. For a country whose entire foundation is based upon "separation from a colonial country" it's laughable that they made an entire population that was self governed into a state. It's insulting. It's already blatantly obvious that this whole country was based on lies and blood, and it only continues to perpetuate that. I'm shocked that the Hawai'ian sovereignty movement isn't mainstream even though they have been fighting for it since 1997. Fuck the American government.

lesbianism is literally so important to me it’s not just a sexuality it’s a gender it’s a worldview it’s a state of mind + a state of being

the fact that there are white people going "omg they're just like us" about people in south, south east, south west asia and africa and south america like it's some huge revelation that we're all human is so fucking dismal to me. what do you mean you never considered the personhood of the people who don't look like you or don't have your culture? why do you think that you're unique in your suffering? why do you think you deserve praise for realizing that we're all human?

actually i lied mochi supremacy but esp the ones you get in hawaii nothing will top that fr like hawaiian mochi pancakes omg you know nothing

that being said i hate too much australian soft licorice and now inhave a stomach ache but its so goodddddd

my biggest flaw is that i dont like hawaiian candy that much IM SORRY !!!!! but its all li hing flavored gummies or macadamia nuts (dont like nuts) or pineapple (dont like pineapple) . i mean the pastries are delicious malasadas reign supreme but also its portuguese but also all hawaiian food is a mishmash of various cultures and fhats beautiful but yea no i dont like the candy

i need to try more candy from around the world . i am so curious and also cause from the three countries i can confidently say that ive tried a wide variety from (usa , japan , australia) australia reigns supreme by a wide mark and it needs to be taken down a peg

so that was a bit of a hashtag failure…. might have a bath and see if anything comes to me or else i might be done for the day :p

ok i went home eventually but ill go back to the park soon for now however i am going to drink beer and attempt to bang out some lyrics or at least get a few ideas down lol

Françoise Hardy by Jean-Marie Périer, 1964