i got my lumheng selfship comm back :’)

is it bold of me to say we're dabi and hawks coded 🤨

is it smart of me to say i have no clue what dabi & hawks are like bc i lowkey dropped bnha

misgendering me and talking shit about me as a grown adult isn’t fucking cute

thinking about ranpo <3

luma rizz that’s why /j

i wanna go into my mutuals ask boxes but im scared considering the drama they don’t wanna hear from me </3

lost lyney to jean, guaranteed for zhongli

journaling is so healing

sobs im not gonna pull for lyney i have 13 wishes so i might save for zhongli

when im 18 i might do selfship writing commissions

woke up to the sketches for my lumheng and osaluma comms, im so so excited for them they look absolutely stunning <3

i wanna write a new selfship series but i dunno which selfship to do

i need someone to freak out over ‘once upon a broken heart’ with me

luma !! how are yousss ??!?! m’ so sorry for all of this stuff you’re goin’ through T^T i just wanna come into ur askbox and show u some pretty pictures of your hubby, wishin’ you all the best !!! <333

aww tysm for checking up on me <3 i appreciate it sm ! im doing a lil better, managed to get jingliu in honkai: star rail and won my first 50/50 in hsr. im just trying to focus on bettering myself and healing from this experience. also tysm for the pictures of dazai, he makes me feel sm better <3

it’s recently been brought to my attention that someone has made a callout post about me, so i wanted do discuss a few things, ive never gatekept a FICTIONAL character. they are FICTIONAL for a reason. anyone is allowed to enjoy them, sure i have an attachment to them but ill never bash someone for liking them like i do. the characters i selfship with i am uncomfy with sharing, but i never will ‘gatekeep’ them. that’s weird. as for nsfw, it is my blog. i now use this as a sfw blog but pls, leave me and my blog alone if ur uncomfy with a minor writing nsfw. it is how i cope with my trauma and you have no right to take that way from me. i never go into mdni spaces as im still 17. i only interact with people who allow me to interact with them.

also remember, im still learning and developing, im bound to make mistakes. but i will never gatekeep a character or intrude on a space where i am not wanted.

edit: i knew this person about a year ago before i cut ties with them and their friends, so im not sure why the person who came out with this post decided to post this now.

edit 2: ive said some things in the past that i am not proud of. i never intended on guilt tripping anyone, i was going through a vulnerable time and thought this outlet i used was a safe space. i am learning and evolving from my mistakes in the past and my past does not define me, especially with who i am now.

edit 2: i realized i might’ve been wrong about the date of when i last talked to these people, i believe it was around a year ago but i have such a poor memory and these months have been long and exhausting i cannot remember. it’s also part of my coping and PTSD that i try to erase bad memories from my mind. so they could be right about the timeline, but im honestly not sure. ive seen someone speaking out against the poster and i completely agree with them. i dont want to be consuming this content, but its how i cope and cannot control it. i take safety precautions when im online and only interact with nsfw content my mutuals around my age produce. because of this experience, ive been so distraught that i might end consuming this content altogether. but it also comes in phases for me so the thoughts might come back.

i also want to apologize for my actions about my attachment to fictional characters. im not going to apologize for being attached, but my behavior and expressing myself in that way. i never intended on guilt tripping or manipulating anyone, i was going through an emotional time and let my emotions get the best of me, and like i said, i thought the place i expressed those thoughts in were a safe place. i promise while i still might have those thoughts (that im unable to control), i now keep them to myself and am learning ways to cope with it.

omfg can u pls just leave me alone. im fuckin sorry i offended u but u don’t need to attack a 17 year old for trying to cope. if u don’t wanna see me in tags then fuckin block and move on. instead ur being incredibly immature and attacking me for no reason. i ended things with u and ur friend group about a year ago just leave me alone. i posted those things a year ago. i am not the same person i was a year ago. im also a human who makes fuckin mistakes im still growing and evolving, im trying to figure out who i am and u cannot dictate who i can be.

if u don’t wanna scroll through my blog anymore then don’t. i don’t fucking care what u do, bc the second i ended things with ur friend group i didn’t want u my life anymore. i don’t want to be associated with u, I don’t even know why u decided to bring this up a year later. just to hurt me? congratulations, u fucking hurt me. u got what u wanted. not to mention u guys are adults going after a 17 year old. if u don’t like me that’s fine idc, but u don’t need to bash me and keep talking about it. just leave me the fuck alone.

im going to be more inactive from now on, just trying to deal with this stressor and heal from it