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Sickening Satisfaction || 14dwyOneshot

crazy(?)!Mc, Gn!Mc, cw!child abuse, cw!gore (I dont go too much into detail, tried to leave it vague and up to the readers' interpretation), cw!sadism, may be ooc! All characters, except a few nameless ones, and Rowan, are @cutiesigh's

"Hah..." A tired sigh escapes your lips.

Another day is over... agh.. i could really go for a latte right now.

Stepping out of the library, you tie your hoodie around your waist, the humid, salty air enveloping your body, as the cool feeling of the ac from inside, fades.

As you near your favorite cafe, you see a tall, brown-haired man, yelling at who you think are his two kids. Right outside the cafe.

You glance around confusedly, wondering what happened, and why no one seems to be intervening, or caring about the full blown, one-sided screaming match going on.

The two girls look only about 11 and 8, respectively. Both their expressions mixed.

The older of the two defiantly glaring into the eyes of the man. Their eyes filled with annoyance and anger.

The younger simply staring dazedly at their feet, their hands fiddling nervously behind their back.

You quickly walk over, maybe it's stupid, and none of your business, but something just felt off about the whole thing.

The man notices you walking over to them, and his expression seems to relax.

The older sibling flinches, stepping back to hold the hand of the younger.

"Sorry, if I disturbed you." He smiled calmly, "My kids were just acting up."

"I don't know what they did, sir, but yelling at them like that-" You start, concern in your voice.

"Look, they were being bratty in the cafe, I'm just being a good parent." The man cuts you off sharply, smile wavering, "I'm sure you'd understand if you had kids of your own."

The last sentence came off a bit... condescending. Am I being too sensitive?

A mocking snort comes form the older sibling, as they start walking off, their sibling in tow. The smaller one giving a frightened glance back at their father.

The brown-haired man shakes his head, "Kids are a hassle, haha", he joked, as if he hadn't yelled and screamed at his kids so openly, and instead had teased them and watched them get childishly offended.

Is... Is it normal to brush something like that as a joke?

You mused, weirded out by the encounter.

You stared at the cafe for a few seconds, before realizing your now lack of appetite.

Dismayed, you decided to walk back to your apartment, mulling over what happened along the way.

"It was just.. weird." You trailed off, finishing your story of the whole encounter, "I just feel like.. something was wrong? It that invasive? Am I being nosy or something?" Your voice added quickly, trying to explain the unease you felt.

"N-no! What?" Ren said, reassurance in his voice, "That's a pretty strange way to react after yelling at your kids like that..." he looked off into the distance a bit, as if remembering something, but quickly looked back at you, smiling warmly as they drowned you (ⱠØVł₦₲ⱠɎ) with attention.

You gave them a skeptic look, your thoughts of him having a bias on you written clearly on your face.

"R-really! I-I'm sure if you noticed something was off, y-you're right!" He exclaimed, giving you a shy, but serious, smile.

"Thank you, Ren. Really..." You mumbled, finally believing him, "It means a lot having a friend like you by my side"

"A-anytime, Angel."

His voice echos in your ear, the genuine emotion in those two words, succeeding in making your heart skip a beat.

Quickly excusing yourself for the night, and ending the call, you sigh, hoping they didn't notice your blushing mess of a face before you managed to hang up.

Maybe... he's more than just a friend...

Tapping away on the old, clacky Microsoft Dell keyboard all libraries seem to have, you hear a small *ding*, from the 'Help' desk beside you.

"Oh! Hi, I'm Y/n, how can I assist- " Your voice pauses in shock as you see the same 11-year-old from yesterday, standing before you.

Are they here alone? An 11-year-old? Not even their sister is here...

They seem to notice your weird look, and grip their arm uncomfortably. It's.. much different from the tough persona you saw them take on yesterday.

"...I just needed some help looking for a book, s-sorry." They quickly blurt out. They didn't seem to recognize you from the day before.

"Ah.. sure! And you don't need to apologize, I'm always here to help!" You say with a gentle smile.

They nod, their expression relaxing, giving you an awkward but comfortable smile.

"So what kind of book are you looking for... uh.. sorry, can I get your name?" You asked.

"Oh, it's Rowan, and uh.. maybe a book on...herbs?" Rowans' eyes darted to the left, trying to remember what they needed, "M-More specifically the kind for wounds, broken bones, stuff like that??"

Wounds? Broken bones?

It was concerning for a 11-year-old to be thinking about stuff like this...right?

Something is definitely up, I don't think I can ignore this.

Still, even though you're 100% sure something is up, you lead them to the correct aisle and point out a few on topic books that an 11-year-old could handle.

You hate to remind them of something that might make them uncomfortable, but the question in your head kept rebounding anytime you tried to push it back.

You sigh, mentally preparing yourself for the poor kid to run off or to glare coldly at you, refusing to say anything.

"Rowan... I was there yesterday, at the cafe." You tell them, calmly and gently, desperately trying to not make them defensive.

Sadly, your approach doesn't seem to work completely, as their eyes immediately glaze over with a critical look.

"That was you?" Rowan's hands were shoved inside their hoodie pockets, as they bit the corner of their lips in embarrassment. Their face a humiliated and distrustful mix of emotion.

"Ah...yes, it was." You hesitate to talk about it more, but realize that what Rowan is going through... could be serious.

"Rowan, are you okay?" You ask, gently, but seriously.

"I..." They start aggressively, before pausing, their guard against you melting away.

The tough exterior they put up disappeared again, and you saw Rowan for what they truly were, a kid, hurting and in need of help.

"I'm.. not okay." Rowan admitted, their eyes glossing over with unspilt tears, "I.. I hate him. He isn't my dad. He's a monster."

Each word that came out of their mouth stung your heart. You continued to listen, your hate for the brown-haired man growing by the second.

"We stopped by the cafe because he wanted coffee." Rowan said, shakily, wiping away their tears, "We were just hungry and wanted a snack to eat. He didn't have to.. why did he.." Rowan huffed, holding back an angered sob.

"Why don't we go back to my desk and talk about it? I.. could give you some tissues." You suggested.

Rowan nodded, smiling gratefully.

"So that's what happened." You finished, once again telling Ren what happened, biting down angrily on a chocolate croissant (or whatever pastry you prefer).

Ren had a sympathetic look in his eyes, and an un-characteristicly dark frown.

"I-it was kind of you to help them, Angel.", He said, softly, looking at you with affection, "You should definitely report this to Social Services."

You frown, gently disagreeing, "Rowan's mom is too scared to leave him, and I'm sure he could pressure her into lying about how Rowan's sibling got a fractured wrist."

"Their mom would be powerless in a divorce, or a custody battle..." You add, feeling immense helplessness.

You hated to admit it... but you felt like Rowans' father... shouldn't live. It scared you, but you just couldn't see Rowans' father as a thinking, conscious, human being.

What kind of person would break their kids' wrist over asking for a snack?

The dark emotions stirred inside you, refusing to die down.

"Rowan doesn't deserve this, their mom and sibling don't, either." You hissed, "Rowans' father should die.", You say, complete and open, as your feelings of disgust and frustration, mount.

It takes a second for the weight of your words to hit you, and you look up awkwardly at Ren, not knowing what to say, or if you came off a bit too strong.

So you just stuff your mouth with the rest of the croissant, hoping you can both agree to ignore that comment.

Ren looks at you, wide eyed, before breaking the silence, "A-are you.. sure?"

"A- about him deserving to die?", You almost choke, swallowing your food before continuing, "If so.. then yea. I full-heartedly believe that thing... doesn't deserve to live after all the emotional and physical damage he's caused."

Ren looked off the the side, "You're really an angel, aren't you? How could someone as selfless as you exist..", before turning back to smile at you.

"I.. I know s-some people on the d-dark..w-web." He said, sheepishly, before quickly stuttering out a string of apologies, "A-a-a-a... s-sorry! P-please don't ask.. "

"It's fine! I.. I'll do anything to help out that kid. People like that... absolutely disgust me." You mutter with an infuriated tone.

"I..I s-see." Ren, perked up a bit, smiling at you, "I'll p-pick you u-up tomorrow..i-if that works-"

You nod your head, helping Ren clean the table at the cafe you were sitting down at, before leaving the cafe together, and Ren walking you to your apartment.

Closing the door behind you.. you can't help but feel eager.

Eager to rid the world of one less abusive psycho

(ɎØɄ ₵Ø₦Vł₦₵Ɇ ɎØɄⱤ₴ɆⱠ₣)

Waves of anticipation flow through your hands as you imagine cutting that piece of shit open. Making him feel 10 times the pain he caused to those around him.

The look of despair his pathetic face will have, and how Rowan and their family will be free from that things' clutches, will make everything worth it.

Seems like I've learned a lot about Ren this week

You realized that, while hugging onto his waist, on his motorcycle. A motorcycle you didn't know he had until tonight.

And you didn't really hate having to hold onto his waist though.

He feels way more.. muscle-y than I thought... I mean- it's not like I think about touching him like that-

You snap out of you chain of thought, as Ren gently stops his motorcycle in front of a warehouse.

It's grey concrete walls, dancing with multi-colored graffiti art, seem to call out for you, in some sick, twisted way.

But following Rens' silent lead, you stop at the entrance.

"This...wouldn't be breaking and entering, right? Ironically.. I don't .. want to break the law," You chuckled, a bit nervously.

"Pfft- No.. D-don't worry.. I- M-my f-friend is letting us use this place." Ren said, giving you a reasuring smile, motioning for you to come inside.

The interior of the building was more organized than you imagined, On one side of the warehouse, were operating tables, separated by curtain. And some other medical equipment.

Was that a cell salvage machine??

On the other, was various equipment, some stuff you could recognize, like a tripod camera, and others that were unfamiliar to you. It seemed pretty high-tech , from the look of it all.

With a soft smile on his face, Ren pushed back the curtains in front of one of the operating tables, revealing the brown-haired man.

Rowans' father was gagged and strapped into place, his wide blue eyes staring at you in terror, as muffled pleads tried and failed to escape his mouth.

"There are...tools... on the left." Ren pointed out to you, before setting up a few expensive cameras at different angles, some audio equipment, and (₳₴ ₥Ʉ₵Ⱨ ₳₴ ⱧɆ Ⱨ₳₮ɆĐ ₮Ø) handed you a fox mask to keep your identity safe.

Giving them a dumbfounded glance, he smiled (ł₦ ₳₦ ₳Ⱡ₥Ø₴₮ ₳ⱤØɄ₴ɆĐ ₩₳Ɏ) excitedly.

Ren grinned, "I..-I had a great idea, w-while we were on our way here, why not..l-live stream this? A-any donations that come through c-could go to... Rowans' family.." (ⱧɆ ₴₳Ɏ₴ ₳Ⱡ₥Ø₴₮ ⱤɆⱠɄ₵₮₳₦₮ⱠɎ)

Your eyes lit up, and you nod in agreement, about to reply, when-

"MGHHMPPH"

Your captive makes itself known again.

"Livestream started." Ren says with a smile in their tone.

Back to the cameras, you lift the mask onto your face, everything but your (₵ØⱠĐ) eyes hidden from sight.

"Lets start with an eye~." You mumble, loud enough for the mics to pick up, as your oblivious prisoner stares helplessly as you pick up a pin...

3̳.̳.̳.̳

2҉...

1̷.̷.̷.̷

₲₳₥Ɇ ₴₮₳Ɽ₮!

<<The remains of an eye are thrown away into a bucket>>

<<Ren enthusiastically reads a few comments and conditions for donations>>

<<The gag comes off, pained swearing and desperate threats loudly echo in the room>>

<<You equip yourself with a scalpel>>

<<Cries and pleading fill the room>>

<<Ren tries and fails to stifle their laughter>>

<<More ₳₦Đ ₥ØⱤɆ blood fills the bucket>>

<<The chat goes wild>>

<<After 30 minutes, the only sounds in the room are Rens' encouragement and the ₴₵ⱤɆ₳₥ł₦₲ ₳₦Đ ₵ⱤɎł₦₲ Ø₣ ɎØɄⱤ Vł₵₮ł₥>>

<<After 60 minutes, the last ₴ØɄ₦Đ₴ Ø₣ ฿ⱤɆ₳₮Ⱨł₦₲ fade>>

₵Ø₦₲Ɽ₳₮₴!

ɎØɄ ₩ł₦!

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king of the night time world

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4/? “Led through the mist,

By the milk-light of moon,

All that was lost, is revealed.

Our long bygone burdens, mere echoes of the spring,

But where have we come, and where shall we end?

If dreams can't come true, then why not pretend?

How the gentle wind,

Beckons through the leaves,

As autumn colors falls

Somewhere lost in the clouded annals of history,

Lies a place that few have seen.

A mysterious place, called The Unknown.

Where long-forgotten stories are revealed to those who travel through the river.

Dancing in a swirl,

Of golden memories,

The loveliest lies of all,

The loveliest, lies of all.” - Into the unknown (over the garden wall)

Lawrence reminds me of The Beast Ngl

Bonus:

#boyfriend to death #lawrence oleander #bftd2

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3/? “W-What is it sweet thing ? You wanna touch my bicep? Careful with the blood tho, w-wouldn’t want to dirty you with these swine’s blood”

#douglas #apples to ashes #apples to ashes game

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2/? “Fancy seeing you here Doe eyes, wanna have a taste?”

#my dear hatchet man game #my dear hatchet man #alan orion #mdhm game #mdhm fanart #mdhm alan

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1/? “Oh Angel~ you don’t know how long i have been waiting for this, for you…”

#ren 14 days with you #14 days with you #digital fanart #fanart #14dwy

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I am curious, what if y/n started a yandere competion with Ren/[REDACTED] and he finds a collections of cameras and bugs around his house?

✦゜ANSWERED: Ren wouldn't be weirded out at all, and would probably wave at you through the cameras from time to time ^^; He'll enter a room and stare straight into your soul for couple of seconds, before giving you a soft smile and going about his day. He might even start casually talking to you if he knew there were microphones as well (or if the cameras pick up audio)!

If y'all have previously woohooed, then Ren might start walking around his apartment shirtless or even sit/relax in provocative poses to get a rise out of you. You know those low-hanging, godsent grey sweatpants? He's now bought like 10 of them and actively wears them all in a weekly rotation. He knows what he's doing, and he lowkey wants you to call him up or show up at his doorstep. Ren misses you, after all :(

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Branching off from the fan fic ask (i kinda just wanna write something about this cuz i'm a sucker for crazy mcs) how would ren feel/react/help his Angel if he knew they wanted to kidnap and torture someone in an abandoned area and prob livestream it, too. But only because they felt disgusted with their actions, like Teo, or a person they met that they felt was a terrible human being.

✦゜ANSWERED: I'm living for all of this teo slander <3

So long as you've pushed him far enough and made sure that he's fully aware of your interest in violence, gore, and murder; then Ren would be perfectly happy with going along with your whims and exposing the darker side of him.

If it made you happy, he would gladly do all the dirty work and personally carry your victim to the abandoned area as well. He'd let you choose the items you'd like to use to torture them with, and would watch on with a loving gaze as you release your disgust and anger out onto the poor soul.

The only time Ren would look away is when he wants to make sure that his webcam is on and capturing everything. He might even read out a few of the comments with a cheerful tone ("Ooh, they want to see you carve out their eye!", "InsidesOut666 wants you to use the scalpel— Did we bring one?", "If that sad sack of shit screams any louder, they'll donate $100! Haha~ Can you make them do it? Please? Please please pleaseplea—").

The only time Ren would show genuine concern is when you get blood all over yourself (or if you get injured), in which he'll ask if you want him to take over instead while you go get changed into the spare clothes he brought earlier.

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My Oc, Justin The Hell Taker

#original art #original character #character design #illustration

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this got too real too fast

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now i’m thinking MC being rammed silly by rens pierced dick—

this lives rent free in my brain😩😩😩

✦゜ANSWERED: I wrote this with [REDACTED] in mind because it's the only time he'd leave his jacob's ladder piercings in fsdfsgd

He has you pressed against the mirror in the staff bathroom as one hand presses down on your backside to keep you in place while the other spreads your cheeks apart to expose your lower regions to his hungry stare.

You're already dripping from when he went down on you moments before, which reminded Ren about your offhanded comment about wanting to "feel his tongue piercing down there". But unbeknownst to you, that comment gave him other, far more wicked ideas while he was tongue-deep inside your needy hole.

Specifically, ideas that included your alluring voice and his pierced dick.

So now here you were, fogging up the mirror with your desperate panting while Ren guides the tip of his leaking cock towards your entrance.

"Count them," Is all he says before he slowly pushes himself into your tight heat — and it doesn't take long before you can feel the cold sensation of his Jacob's ladder piercing scrape against your velvety walls as he shallowly thrusts his hips. "Did you hear me?"

"O-One—!"

"Louder." He presses closer to you this time, until he's practically enveloping your body and leaving searing kisses behind your earlobe. You can barely form coherent thoughts once he pushes himself in deeper — but the moment his second piercing brushes against that particular spot inside you, you had to try and stop yourself from crying out and clutching the sink for support.

"Ngh- Two..."

The dark-haired hacker wanted nothing more than to just shove himself inside of your needy little hole and see just how far he could reach, but he knew you were enjoying the feeling of slowly being stuffed full with his length — if the blissed-out look on your face was anything to go by.

And so, Ren indulges your wishes, but not before cupping your flushed cheek and guiding you to kiss him over your shoulder. But he wasn't kind enough to allow you a moment's respite after it, though, because he was already going back to languidly thrusting in and out of you once more.

"P-Please— That's... That's three—"

Content with your words, Ren gives you no other warning before he slams himself the rest of the way in, causing you to bite down on your arm or risk alerting someone of your current activity.

God, you'd never be able to show your face at work again if Elanor ever found out about what you'd been up to with a library patron.

"Hah~ Good job... You did so well, Angel." His words seemed too honey-smooth for such a debauched scene, and the hand that moves to brush the hair from your face felt far more gentle and kind than it should've been. "You took me so well. 'Think you've earned your reward, yeah?"

Before you can respond, Ren grinds his hips against yours once more, making sure to angle his cock deep enough so that his piercings would rub against your soft insides. "How many was that again?"

"Ren, please! Just fuck me already—"

"How many was that?"

"Three!"

You can barely make out his sadistic smile in the reflection of the mirror before he's leaning close and whispering filth into your ear once more.

"Then I want you to cum three more times for me before I even consider filling you up."

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delusions of grandeur

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Boy it sure is hot out here, especially with two sunshines ;)

#somethings wrong with sunny day jack #sunny day jack

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This is too Dammnn cuteeee /// ////

5:13pm

DID SOMEONE ASK FOR MICAH YUJIN CONTENT??? I mean no not directly to me but I’m doing it anyway he’s hot leave me alone

Micah has always teetered between being flirtatious and easily getting flustered. Normally he manages to get the upper hand but there’s one instance where there was no winning and you never let him live it down.

It was about three months into your relationship and you hand came up to him randomly with a question he never thought you’d ask him.

“Hey is there a particular pet name you want me to use? You always call me angel it’s weird that we’ve been together this long and I either call you Micah or dumbass…”

If he was honest he low key thought dumbass was your pet name for him and he gladly accepted it because he knew it was purely out of love but he said he didn’t have one in mind and that you could choose whatever name you wanted for him. He didn’t realize how much danger that suggestion put him in until it was too late.

Every day you tried a different pet name for him. At first he didn’t think it would phase him too much but once you started doing it without warning his heart couldn’t take it. The first time you called him baby he swore his heart stopped. It didn’t help that you’d start playing coy when he’d ask you to take it easy on him.

“What? You said I can choose your pet name. i gotta test my options here.”

“Yeah but I don’t think my heart can take all these tests…”

In reality you were just trying to see which name would fluster him the most but it wouldn’t be any fun if he knew that.

After a few days you finally found the perfect name. It was mid day and you’d finally finished up your work for the day. When you got back to your home Micah was in the kitchen making something quick to snack on. He turned to look at you when you walked in and smiled.

“You’re home! I misses ya angel~”

You gently caressed his face and smiles before pecking his cheek.

“I missed you too my pretty boy.”

He froze in his spot. He wasn’t sure which part was making him short circuit more, the fact that you called him pretty or the fact that you’re so blatantly calling him yours. He face was burning as he was processing what you just called him and to make matters worse his brain decided the best course of action was to run and hide in the bathroom. He was even more embarrassed as he heard your cackling from behind him. He just couldn’t take it. The way you looked at him, the way it rolled off your tongue so sweetly, like that had always been his name. He was your pretty boy and he couldn’t take how much he liked it.

Of course you had to add salt to the wound by knocking on the door to tease him more.

“Whats wrong Micah? You don’t like the pet name? I happen to really like it! I mean, you’re very pretty, and definitely mine I don’t see the issue.”

He ended up darting out of the bathroom to pull you into a hug and bury you into his chest, anything to get you to stop making his heart race like it was. Before he’d have to fight you just to admit you thought he was cute or to tell him you like him. He doesn’t know when you started becoming this bold and open about how you feel about him but he isn’t sure if he can take it. Don’t get him wrong he loves it but he’s not sure his poor heart can take the heart attacks you’ve been giving him.

“Angel, you’re trying to kill me aren’t you? My poor heart is gonna give out with how much you’re making it race…”

Now a days you call him that name at random just to see him freeze and blush. He can’t help it, something about you claiming him like that just sends him reeling. And of course every time he does you take that chance to tease him, asking if he needs to go to the bathroom.

#micah yujin #error143

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