uh I think starting to meditate makes a difference but it makes me hallucinate slightly sometimes idk if the brain is like “oh are u going to sleep faggot ??? Unrecognisable voices having an argument over something in ur skull be upon ye Worlds most boring visions be upon ye ohhhh watch the cube rotate oh wowwwwwwwwwww DRIVE TO BOSTON DRIVE YO BOSTON HOGOGO GO GO GO NOW THERES SO MUCH TO SEE” mf I am trying to be the ground. Full of mind or some shit I don’t want to g
To cut it short, I'm asking for donations...I'm sorry I haven't been active let alone posting any new art, but I've not been in the mental space to do so and I don't really have the time for it right now. I want to, but, mentally, I've been in a daily nightmare. I'm currently receiving treatment for my issues for the first time in 6 years but that's sort of risking being pushed to the side.
I'm about to be extremely tight on money, as in risking missing important payments on debt & other basic necessities tight. I still have my main job, but surprise surprise -- having two major surgeries and moving in a single year has left me absolutely strapped for cash and deeper in debt than I'd like to admit since I missed more work that I would've liked because of those things. I've applied to over 30 jobs, had several interviews, with no luck actually landing a second job and every day I've spent working hours while barely managing my mental health and it's led me to procrastinating things I should've had done by now.
I'm extremely embarrassed, and honestly ashamed, but I've wrung my options dry, I have no one to turn to for support financially as I basically have no family now, and I genuinely don't know what to do other than panic, and panic. So here I am, unfortunately asking for any generosity people can give so I can dig myself out of this hole. I want to go back to Morgott posting and being silly, but the past 2 years has basically rocket thrusted me into new lows despite being in a better place.
All in all, I have to take $2,000 of my earnings from work and put it into paying off taxes, which is way more than I had calculated I'd owe, and I'll be honest, that is well over what I make in a month sometimes. I only have like $200 in savings and that's just enough to cover internet & electric bills. I'm pushing to work as many hours as possible, and I'm still job hunting with very little luck but it's coming down to the wire for when its due and I feel like I'm going to pull my hair out.
So uh, if you wanna help a trans fella out, a few dollars is appreciated. I'm going to try and at least make some new content soon if anxiety doesn't get to me to make up for my absence.
Thank you, for any and all help, even if I don't make it anywhere close to that amount, even if I have to put all my income into it, even just a few donations would be enough to cover smaller bills to get me through this.
Uhh hhh long awaited update hello gamers! Ughhhh hhhhh i gotta go into 2 hr meditation again or there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth again pray for ya boy he’s doing ‘is best !! Eats a hydroxyzine ahhhh much better oh how I love being medicated and on the ball. Well and truly on top of it. Ciao!!!
New eyes for Ludwig ! I remade his eyes twice and it seems like the third time’s the charm. I’m a lot happier with this third attempt.
These took a billion years and I don’t have a pressure system but despite that there are only a few bubbles that aren’t really gonna be that visible from a distance