2x01: bobby's though process throughout the entire introduction of eddie diaz to the 118

You know what I think is absolutely precious about the kiss scene?

How when Tommy is opening up about being jealous, letting Buck into his insecurity, it’s the first time we’ve seen him falter since he came back. He scoffs and shakes his head when Buck tells him about how he was a part of the team, avoiding his eyes. He’s come so far, but there’ll always be that little part of him that wavers.

You know what it makes me think of?

Hen Begins.

And I’ll tell you why.

Remember asshole captain saying how Hen was a diversity hire?

Remember how Tommy had walked up to the railing with a big smile and it falling after the asshole spoke? Eyes going back and forth between them.

Remember him hugging himself during her speech?

In both cases, he was deeply unsure of his place. Hen was taking vitriol that could’ve been directed at him too and it wasn’t but he still felt its impact because it could’ve been. He was afraid and he was insecure.

In Buck’s loft, even though Tommy’s gotten a lot better and kinder with himself, he was openly admitting to feeling out of place and he’d never had someone accept him as easily into a family as Buck did in that moment.

Which makes his little surprised, “Yeah?” All that more special to me.

some bad kid tweets bc i’m bored and can’t help a modern au ✨⚔️

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Oh... So Fabian a half-elf is concerned about his full elf mother getting a full elf partner and having full elf children..,

Half elf lifespan:

Elf lifespan:

Hmm and you're saying he's having Feelings about them as a family unit and him being apart from all of them.

And didn't seem to get much joy from the jokes about how his mother might be gone a hundred years (over half his life). Haha I See. I See.

"We'd love to have you, Aelwyn :)" <- manipulative (affectionate)

torn between my hatred of the idea of hallariel having more children, being the mother to them that she never bothered to be to fabian, and my love of reluctant big brother fabian, who under the guise of dueling them on their 18th birthday cares very deeply about his new siblings

The tone shift between the still light and joyful "What?" and the concerned-aggressive "What do you mean she has five jobs?" is PEAK acting from Brennan everyone say thank you Mr Mulligan

evan buckley coming out as a bisexual at the age of 19 and getting kicked out. he finds his way to maddie and asks— begs— her to just come with him.

she can't, of course. but she gives him an old battered up postcard and the keys to her jeep.

buck trusts his sister more than anything. so he drives. he drives and drives.

until he stops. in a little town called hawkins, indiana. he finds the little yellow bungalow house, a porch wrapped around it, plants planted in the front yard. it's beautiful.

buck knocks and a man opens it. he completely forgets that its only seven in the morning. the man is wearing his glasses and his hair is tossed like he just woke up. buck has eyes, okay? and what a beautiful fucking man.

"uh, hey. i'm looking for robin. robin buckley."

the man squints at him, head tilting. his eyes fleet to buck's birthmark, pauses. before breaking into a smile.

"robin! evan is here!"

there's a crash and the sound of a plate breaking. then there's heavy footsteps running down the hall and it stops—

and she's right in front of him. she's older now than when buck last saw her. she's the same shape and form of his father, but softer, kinder.

"evan."

buck smiles, the first time he has smiled in days.

"hi, aunt robin."

merch i think fig and the cig figs would sell

riz and adaine are the brain: obviously. but also because they have both at some point been ruled by their neuroses, they live in their heads, have been told their entire lives that the thing they are good for is their intelligence. it is what they can give to other people.

fabian and fig are the body: in completely different ways. fabian thought he knew his body when he was just fighting with it but it failed him. he had to learn to trust it again - to trust his instincts as well as what he’d been told his entire life. his instincts told him to dance, and he weaved that in with his fighting skills for both more complete control over his body and trust in it when he isn’t in control. this leads us into fig - instincts. she’s never completely felt fused to her own body the way most people do. it’s hers to with what she wants, including making it other people completely. those other people are still her though. she never sits with one thing, but moves fluidly wherever her instincts tell her to whether it makes sense or not. one of the coolest things a body can do is called the flexor / withdrawal reflex. when you touch a hot stove and pull back your hand before you’ve even registered the pain. the only time (that i know of) that your sensory receptors tell your muscles to move instead of relaying information to the brain and letting it decide. you literally have no choice whether or not you pull your hand back. your body decides for you. this is fig’s entire life. people often think the strongest, healthiest bodies are the biggest, sturdiest ones. yet often it’s the annoying bitches that do the most yoga, strength in flexibility. something fig (and now also) fabian have in spades.

kristen is the soul: seemingly inconsistent and ever changing, the only way kristen changes is cosmetically. she struggles so hard to find a god that makes sense for her because she’s not just finding her god. she’s finding a god for all the bad kids. because at the core of her, she is trying to do what is right, what is kind, what is best for everyone else. she wants to help people, save people. even if she doesn’t go about it the right way (ie immediately trying to convert everyone to helio on her first day) she is just trying to help. no matter what god she has, or who she’s faced with - that’s never changed. the soul is forever, and despite all aesthetics, so is kristen.

gorgug is the heart. because of course he is. “it’s gorgug keep going.” bum bum “it’s gorgug. keep. going.” he keeps them there, all together, all in sync when their differences threaten to overrule their similarities. he pulls them back in with the gravity axe he made for love of his parents and the culture that raised him. with the courage he had to stand up and declare he would in fact do the impossible. bum bum.

“it’s gorgug keep going.”

hey. Hey guys do you remember. do you. do you remember when

another redraw! I’ve been wanting to do this one 🥰

louise is so adorable in this i love this video

SHE’S SO HAPPY WAAAH MY BABY

your honor, it's his song

Maybe the rage deal in the last episode wasn’t JUST “You live but have extreme amounts of rage.” What if they were offered their wildest dreams and the rage was a clause in like microfont bc to them the gifts of achieving their goals and living seems like a great deal especially for children. The rage pushes them to achieve a goal, the rat grinders are KIDS they arnt gonna have crazy outrageous dreams and ambition at 17 years old, I knew nothing when I was that age.

You have a crush on a girl for a couple years and want to catch her attention? Bam. Get more confidence, become buff, get noticed first the first time ever. Oisin was completely unrecognizable before but now after all this?

You hate another rogue so much you want to be better than him? Bam! Kipperlily finds the rogue teacher first AND signs up for the election assuming riz would be the one to do it bc why would Kristen Applebees want to be president? Which could be an event bigger fuel to KLCK’s fire.

You want to be a famous musician and you’re jealous of a bard in school who never goes to class but has what you don’t? Bam! Ruben copies her look and produce music when she’s on hiatus as well as getting signed by her label

Mary Anne’s is small and girly she was probably bullied and wanted to make it stop, so shes now indifferent, and strong enough to stand up for herself, she sees Gorgug on the first day of school get decked in the face jsut to grow into this strong guy and sees him as inspiration

Lucy was content with life, she loved her friends, loved her god and knew the rage wasn’t what she wanted to have to live with. The resurrection is supposed to help them feel fulfilled but she’d just be more unsatisfied with life if she took the offer. Lucy was happy with what she had, and had no further aspirations, she loved her god and 'stuck to her guns'

Buddy dawn a follower of helio, watches the chosen one of his church abandon everything, he’s sad and confused as to why she did what she did. He dies and is offered the chance to become the chosen one for an unnamed god, he’s scared, helio is missing, and if Kristin took an offer from a new god and was okay why wouldn’t he be?

The rat grinders were scared kids who needed a miracle, and one was offered CHILDREN WILL SCREAM FOR HELP UNTIL THEY ARE ARE OFFERED SANCTION, IT DOESN’T MATTER WHO THE SAVIOR IS

“With blood running down his face and into his silvery hair, dripping down into a puddle on the floor, and that is where you guys find Fabian.”

or

fabian and the terrible, horrible, no-good, very bad day