This will sound silly or trivial to others under this tag and I don’t care. I accomplished something. I’ve surpassed my first GW and am quickly headed to my second. I’m under 200 lbs now. Today I was able to walk into a store (marketed to teens and tweens mostly) or standard body size and just buy a dress off the rack, not go to another store for plus size wear or shop online. I’m smaller than I’ve been in six years. I’m also happier than I’ve been in years. I know this counts as an illness and is my own personal fight but I AM HAPPY with myself and I haven’t had this level of confidence since I was in high school.

He would have picked you and loved you if you were Skinner and prettier

So I was at the doctor's office and I thought I weight 60kg (132lbs) at 5'9 but turns out I'm actually 50kg (110lbs)!!!

So reblog for suprise weight loss or something

I want to preface with mental and physical health matter! You need to take care of yourself. I may not be able to but I encourage others to.

Don’t know if I’ve said it before but my favorite thing about my psych meds is that they destroy my appetite. It’s just nausea all the time which makes avoiding food so much easier. Now that they’ve been increased due to this breakup, I haven’t eaten solid food in three days and feel so much better because of it. Food is becoming one less stressor in my life.

Well my boyfriend broke up with me to date someone thinner and hotter. Time to ⭐️ve until I feel lovable again. Maybe I’ll never eat again.

Well… I accidentally gave myself food poisoning by not cooking my food well enough. Have lost a kg in water weight alone but my stomach now hurts too much to even consider eating. Happy though to lose SOMETHING.

TMI-

Drinking electrolyte water and praying I leave the bathroom today at some point.

This is so ED-coded..

"⭐ving is so easy" tell me u don't live w ur family w/o telling me u don't live w ur family.

I know I’m super fat and ugly but I’m working on it. I just want to share one of my recent wins though. I went home for the holidays and it’s always been hard eating what I want in my parents’ home but I masked it as “healthy choices” in front of my mom who knows nothing about healthy eating and not only did I MAINTAIN my current weight loss through Christmas and New Year’s but I also LOST 2 pounds. It feels so good to know I have self control now. If I can do THAT, I can now do anything.

I 100% fell off the wagon but I’m back! I’m back to the weight pinned on my page. It’s still super huge but time and diligence will get me to my goals.

I finally feel serious. I meal prepped to avoid binging these last few days. Unfortunately a friend demanded I go to dinner with her today and I ate 1000 calories worth of food. But I was smart and only drank water. When I got home, I exercised off 1010 calories so it’s almost like I didn’t eat at all today. I’m so happy!

A little overwhelmed… I’ve finally gotten comfortable with this empty feeling and have started loving it. Today is a maintenance day though to keep my body from fighting back and IDK, I feel kind of miserable.

Just remembered my therapy session I had this week and my therapist said that if I couldn’t take care of myself my mom should probably come live with me for a while. I was furious but couldn’t let it show or she would would have called her as an emergency contact. I said I was just going through a rough patch and for now she believes me.

Clearly I’m taking care of myself just fine. I’ve never felt more in control.

SW: 112kg

CW: 87kg

GW1: 90kg

GW2: 75kg

GW3: 65kg

UGW:57kg

This is crazy! Had a psychotic break about 1 week ago and decided then to stop eating completely. Since then I have lost nearly 10lbs and it’s not water weight because I still drink plenty of water. I still have no urge to eat but somehow this makes me happier???