Ok wow so, it’s been a long time, and i doubt anyone will see this post or that most of my followers are active or remember me!

I realize I just sorta… disappeared off the face of the earth a little bit, which happens on the internet, i suppose. But I wanted to say an actual goodbye and give an actual explanation (sorta)

as most would guess, what happened to me is as simple as the fact that i fell out of the fandom. and i just sort of… left? i made a lot of friends on here, and i think back on this blog and the time when i was running it so so fondly.

unfortunately, i also look back and realized during my time on this blog i was far more lenient with certain information that i now am a bit nervous being out there.

so while I have a new tumblr blog, and am still somewhat active in discord (though i know a majority of my followers never interacted with me on there) I‘m not comfortable posting them. though there are a few old mutuals who i wouldn’t mind reconnecting with.

this was a long overdue goodbye, but i rewatched the show and realized i still love it just as much as a did back then. so who knows. maybe it’s not goodbye at all.

thank you to this fandom, it made such a huge impact on my life <3

moodboard: juke (julie x luke)

Ah yes, I love Julie and the Himbos:

Strong Afrolatina lead character and lead singer, amazing outfit game, sings SO GOOD, Distinguished Bisexual, makes me clutch my heart and go “Julie!!!” like all the time I love her sm, did I mention she can sing SO GOOD

Short Himbo with Troy Bolton Hair, also sings good, allergic to sleeves, definitely has ADHD, can literally see the hearts in his eyes when he looks at ANYONE, makes me cry a lot

Himboest Himbo who makes the edgy bisexual aesthetic actually look good, bonus superpower of being really cool to balance out how many layers he wears (it’s a lot), also also sings good, makes me go “Reggie,,,, ok,,” a lot

Pastel Himbo, pure of heart, also dumb and home of sexual, Fanny Pack, Queen of Sarcasm and Judgement, loves his friends but sometimes he’s like “,, ok”, living everyone’s dream with his sk8er bf, cries a lot (same), makes me go “oh BIG mood” like 20 times an episode

Sk8er Himbo, honorary member of the Scooby Gang, Rebellious TM but lowkey, was a sk8er boy, he said “omg this boy is cute” and held his hand so they could yell real loud (it’s complicated), h*ck the police, probably says Yeehaw sometimes when he’s excited

Fedora Fool, lowkey love interest highkey how does he keep his socks that clean, dumbest of the dumb, purest of the pure, knows what the word “no” means and the only white boy we stan, plays guitar real good but can’t dance for crap, needs to stop wearing fedoras but he’s ok I guess

Herbo, I said what I said, Barbie incarnate in pink sequins and determination, Can Dance, Yeah Like That, could probably drop into a split just to show off, thinks she’s better than everyone and for the most part she’s right so, get it powerpuff

Murder Herbo, fashion on point, hair on point, eyeliner on point, would stab someone for a lot of reasons, sarcasm queen, everyone’s first crush probably, plays trumpet for shock factor, could snap my neck and I’d thank her, drinks that many sodas not to challenge god but to remind that sucker of his place

Have I really been gone so long that alex and reggie have last names now!!!

Polyamory is safe for work. Polyamory is safe for kids. Polyamory is safe for day time tv. Polyamory isn’t more sexual than any other relationship and it can be just as romantic, sweet, and healthy.

— HEAD, HEART AND HANDS

Julie and the Phantoms - Phantoms Dance Practice

random jatp clips stored in my phone:

1. alex and carrie dancing together in all eyes on me while carrie says "-ceited they"

this was…. a warm up….. at first……..expressions practice?? anyways-

if you follow me on instagram then maybe you’ve seen this already, but i spent far too long on it and am waaay too proud of it to not share!!

Twist the knife in my heart, why don’t you...

// This scene (slowed down to help see things easier) and Reggie & Luke’s reactions to Julie screaming, the 2nd time, are really getting to me only now after watching the show so many times.

Compare that to Alex reacting in this scene:

Alex’s reaction isn’t as visceral and he recovers more quickly to tell Julie to stop all the screaming.

Meanwhile, Reggie and Luke both move away from the screaming, either flinching (Reggie) or taking a whole step back (Luke). Like I know people will say that it’s because ‘girls screaming, in general, is scary and loud enough to cause the 2 boy’s reactions’, see Luke’s comments about girls crying at the start of the Bright ep, and “not every reaction of theirs connects to their past/trauma”, but it seems to be something different in this situation to me.

Let’s start with Reggie! His face first shows normal shock, expected in such a situation, but as he flinches he closes his eyes momentarily and his hands go out in what can be seen as a defensive stance. Given the info we know about his parents failing marriage and likely loud fighting he had to endure at home, this reaction seems quite in line with Reggie reacting to Julie yelling as though he thinks she’s going to turn on him or that she’s directing the anger at him because he did something wrong. I’m not saying he was ever physically abused, rather ‘turn on him’ in terms of where the anger and yelling is directed as it moves from its original recipient. Of course he doesn’t mean to react that way, seeing as they’ve only just met and her reaction makes sense given their current situation, but he’s hyper-vigilant and it’s a gut reaction likely resulting from that trauma in his past home life.

Now Luke moves the most away from the screaming and the joy or excitement on his face after he tells Julie “well, we’re all a little crazy” instantly disappears. His breath seems to hitch/halt, his face drops, and his eyes are casted downward before eventually come back up to Julie’s face. He bounces/jolts back a whole step during all this from how much the scream packs a punch and how jarring/abrupt it is when they all thought they’d gotten the screaming out of the way already.

The reaction is less hyper-vigilant than Reggie’s, but it’s still a gut reaction not only to something as scary as a girl screaming, but also to the act of screaming overall. I think, given the loud, heated arguments Luke and his mom had about his music and future, his whole gut reaction and movements are maybe reflective of Julie’s reaction bringing back memories of those not so happy times at home. The downward glance his way of pulling back from the situation and avoiding eye contact with the other person in the ‘fight’/argument. He’s taken back to the loud fighting with his mom and, unlike back then when he was more active in the fight and fired up, now he is more passive in reacting to the sudden screaming and shrinking away from it as to not make things worse. By not moving towards Julie to try to control the situation and get an upper hand, as he would have 25 yrs ago, he is avoiding more conflict, though not real in this instance.

BOTH Reggie’s and Luke’s reactions are so sad and I just want to reach through the screen and hug them. The fact that their first time seeing someone other than each other (and Alex) involves so much screaming and brings back certain memories/causes such reactions for 2 of them is heart wrenching. This could all be me seeing things that aren’t there, but after noticing their reactions in that scene I had to make a post to see if I wasn’t completely crazy and imagining things I wanted to see in the scene. I’m probably reading too much into it and unlike the other signs of their trauma, like Reggie playing with his hands when Caleb confronts them in 1x09, this is just pure and simple their reaction to a girl screaming very loudly. I just hope it’s not and other people might see it too and agree with my conclusions in some way. 😏😏 Let me know what y’all think!

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luke’s suit appreciation post

So I am 100% aboard the Juke ship, but can we take a moment to appreciate this scene right here:

Nick is such a good, sweet guy. He likes Julie so much that regardless of her saying that she liked someone more than him, he goes out on a limb and brings her flowers. Be it him trying to “woo” her or to congratulate her on her amazing preformance - not that we’ll ever know thanks to Caleb - he takes the risk and brings her flowers because he thinks she’s that special. 

Also, look how nervos he is. This guy is popular and well known at his school but instead of being all cocky and stuff he gets a little nervous and needs to hype himself up before ringing the doorbell. He’s a sweet kid and you can just tell how much he likes Julie.

“What is lost can be found, it’s obvious.”