being hopeful & excited & stuff does this to me when ever i'm looking forward to something good i start to get scared that Something Might Go Wrong. I'm not sure what, just Something

sorry i just got really overwhelmed for no good reason

avoiding caffeine tonight so that i can be totally prepared and well-rested for my outing tomorrow. as tempting as the thought of a cup of green tea is right now

i think i might try after finals i'm not sure if i really want to but the thought has been on my mind for various reasons

what if i tried to quit smoking

holds you gently. i mean whatever forget about it

i think my nerves are a bit on edge today

what if i tried to quit smoking

How can I be more disciplined? I can’t seem to make myself do the things I know i need to do in order to move forward and to be better

It goes like this: Caffeine, b12, omega 3, pomodoro, modafinil, racetams, bromantane, amphetamine, methamphetamine, psilocybin, intermittent fasting, infrared sauna, ketogenic diet, cold exposure, cbd, meditation, validation-seeking, artificial deadlines, thc, habit formation, dopamine detox, manifestation, variable interval reward, looksmaxxing, betrayal, disillusionment, poetry about death, sigil magic, learning the rules, embracing the pain, absence of fear, final boss, rewriting the rules, confession, submission, sublimation

people in high school used to call me "succulent tendril" due to my habit of sprouting rather succulent tendrils from my body that classmates could pick and consume, to their endless delight

so uhm.. one thing i like a lot is that 😳 so this guy

(Nagito Komaeda)

exists 😳 and you can like say hi to him etc. if you wanted

pocket creature

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