i have a degree in hanging out wdym i need to join the workforce 😦

mark?!?!?!?

giggling 🫵 that’s babygirl

omg if you wanna see the rest you should check neocatharsis on here ^^ jaemin posted on ig today too and ooouuu… fine as hell…

wait lemme follow them on ig myself 🫶 god he’s fine

i hope he’s grown to love himself a lot :(

you’re kidding…

giggling i still look at him with heart eyes

i don’t have twitter anymore can someone send me what all the dreamies look like now (jisung specifically😭) i can’t find them on this godless app

i don’t have twitter anymore can someone send me what all the dreamies look like now (jisung specifically😭) i can’t find them on this godless app

who would u write for?

gonna be honest no fucking idea i have no major interests 😭

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME WHY DO I WANT TO WRITE FANFICTION

the 2024 jisung tag is haunting… why do you all wanna fuck him so bad now 😦

tried to read fanfiction and i think im too old for most of it now bcs wtf are you sayingggg😭😭😭

kinda curious to know if your stan list has changed or anything, idk i was just looking at your theme and the thought came up in my head lol hope you’ve been alrifht ^^

surprisingly not much, although i don’t stan nct anymore but i think it’d still jeno jisung and mark easily. my loona changed a bit it would be yves, yeojin, and hyeju

i’d also prob remove twice and add izone just so i could add yena, chaewon, and jo yuri

read the plot you planned for pnp and i was literally awestruck at how much detail you put into it all and how you paid attention to every small detail omg 😭😭 like i knew you probably had some deep lore to it but not THIS deep and i’m saying this in a positive way because its not usual that people put so much thought into their plot and make it complex while also connecting it all to each other, the way you had a detailed background for every character and had a plan of what would happen with each of them overtime and what lead to it had me GAGGED.. you made sure almost all of them would have an ending or a story to tell which is CRAZYYY like you’re actually too good 😭😭 that took me like 12 minutes to read and the whole time i was just like 😮😮😮 but it also made me realise why you probably haven’t continued pnp because that’s a LOT.. like a lot of plot to put out which again isn’t a negative thing but i totally get why you’d not feel motivated to write all that.. still thank you for at least letting us know how it was meant to go i’ve been soo curious for ages now i feel like i can breathe again (i’m being dramatic)

SORRY FOR THIS LONG MESSAGE i was too impressed 😭

ty😭 the fic was honestly kind of a vent thing for me and i feel like i’ve moved on to a different part of my life with worse depression but a better understanding of myself that didn’t coincide with what i was writing

i just wanna say thank you for giving us the plot of PNP because i’ve been dying to know what happens 😭 i kinda love that it’s not a traditional happy ending for everyone and i love how you went into depth for each character and their own little plot lines !! this was so well planned it could be a show lmaoaoaoa.

also i hope you’ve been doing well !! you’ve always been one of my favorite blogs :)

tyyyyyyyyy i wish i could have written it but i know i never will 😞

oooooo u wna come back and continue pushin pullin dooooo bad oooooo

😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬

i’ll let you know how it was supposed to go

renjuns interlude was about when he was with his emotionally abusive ex boyfriend who socially isolated him and kept trying to seperate him from chenle, who had recently been kicked out by his parents after he came out as gay and had been struggling to make money for rent and food. his ex basically gaslights him and it’s a complete shit head but renjun loves him so he stays. overtime his ex becomes more distant and barely even talks to him, he says he’s busy with work but he’s always on his phone or out with “friends”, renjun starts to suspect he’s being cheated on but his ex denies it and says that he never gets upset by his friendship with chenle (which he does). eventually renjun catches him cheating and finally leaves him. after this he of course develops trust issues and is only ever interested in guys be knows will never like him back because he thinks he doesn’t deserve love because his ex made him feel worthless. chenles story is cute overall though very sad, he compulsively lies about his life to try to make it seem better than it seems, only renjun really knows him. him and rj were friends in high school and went to the same uni, chenle was homeless for a while and would couch surf until he found a place he could afford and renjun keeps offering to help but chenle feels so guilty especially with rjs ex criticizing everything he does. chenles story and plot is about looking for acceptance and friendship which he further develops with rj and those around him <3

jaemins interlude (i’m kind of combining his and jeno’s) was next and it talked about a retrospective of his preteen/teen years, he talks about how he didn’t fully understand how he was different from other people because he didn’t feel like he loved any less than anyone else but as he engages in a relationship with a girl who he loves to talk to and be comfortable with he realizes he doesn’t love her romantically and he doesn’t enjoy physical affection but does it because he thinks he has to. when they were 15 jeno told jaemin that he likes boys, and jaemin of course accepts. later in highschool jaemin kind of separates himself from jeno because he’s not exactly “cool” to be around but he hears a rumor about jeno kissing a guy (he later finds out that the guy found out jeno was gay and kissed him because he was closeted and then told people jeno had kissed HIM) this causes jeno to get severely bullied and harassed by his classmates and jaemin would only hang out with them if he needed something. jeno’s parents ask him about jaemin all the time because they’ve been bestfriends their entire life and jeno lies to them and says jaemins just too busy to come over because he doesn’t want to tell them they’re not really friends anymore. jeno starts to act out in order to try to fit in and his “friends” basically just keep him around to humiliate him. he’s out with them one night and they ditch him so he calls his dad to pick him up in tears, he’s sobbing as his dad drives him home and his dad is devastated and trying to comfort him but while he’s distracted they’re hit by another car and jeno’s dad dies. this gives jeno survivors guilt as well as depression and ptsd, jeno is obviously extremely distraught he barely goes to school, his grades slip, he stops taking care of himself, etc. his depression gets to the point where he’s institutionalized for a few days. after jaemin hears about this he starts to talk to jeno again and apologizes for ignoring him and being a little dickhead and they end up attached at the hip and jaemin helps him graduate. jaemin tries to hard to help jeno but he’s never felt the kind of sad that jeno has, the kind that keeps you up at night, the kind that makes you give up on yourself, so he struggles but tries. jaemin loves jeno so much he considers him his soulmate but he feels so guilty he’s practically incapable of saying no to him now because he thinks he owes him.

jaemins interlude also focuses on when he first moves in with mark and jisung and they form pnp!! jeno is just starting to date mark and knows that they need another roommate to afford rent so he asks jaemin and since jaemin can’t say no to him he ends up moving in. jisung is so bratty and fake tough but he’s a bit more immature and childlike because he’s freshly 18, he annoys the hell out of jaemin but jaemin ends up really adoring him. eventually jaemin thinks jisung is such a cutie pie who just wants to be loved but doesn’t have the vulnerability to express it, jisung gets more comfortable with him and shows him the music he’s made. it sucks. jisung gets jeno to listen to him and jeno pretends to like it and convinces jaemin to help him out because he played the drums when he was like 12. with enough convincing from jeno, mark and jaemin end up joining jisungs “band” and they start making shitty music together <3

BACK TO MAIN PLOT. jisung keeps offering a music lesson and mc finally agrees, it’s kind of established that she doesn’t know much about rj and js’s fight and that she’s not super close to rj in general they’re just roommates with mutual friends. at first jisung tries to teach her how to play the guitar but she puppy dog eyes him into playing the drums with her instead (an instrument he can’t play and that jaemin will kill him for using) , she tries to play but sucks so bad and jisungs like dw i’ll help you and stands behind her and holds her hands to help her play but it still is so shit so they’re just laughing and being cute idk, they make eye contact and jisung tries to kiss her and she almost seems like she’s gonna return the energy but then she’s like nope no hell no no no NO. and he laughs and is like okay fine and goes back to watching her play the drums. he ends up convincing her to let him walk her home despite her living a meter away and when they get to her place they talk more and she ends up kissing him against the apartment door and jisung looks so fucking happy which causing mc an internal conflict. after this jisung gets cuter but also flirtier because now he knows he has a chance. he’s a cutie pie but also occasionally switches back to his gross fuckboy form. mc tells dh about her bad jisung and they’re like wtf😭 karma baby, they debate if she should tell renjun.

slightly off topic jeno is talking to donghyuck and they end up talking about crushes, jeno keeps insisting dh should go for the guy he likes (even though jeno knows he likes mark, he’s trying to set them up so he can leave mark and mark won’t be lonely 😭) dh flirts with mark and mark doesn’t flirt back but honestly he’s suspicious.

mc goes on a kind of date with js and they end up back at his place to watch pokemon but they end up kissing and then kind of sort of sleeping together. mc decides that she has to tell rj at this point and he of course is pissed the fuck off. he’s like “you slept with my ex” and she’s like “you never actually dated him” and renjuns like “we’re fighting over a boy who will never ever love either of us, he’s an asshole, he’s a prick, he has no direction, he used me, he’s using you, you told me yourself, you hate him don’t you hate him why do you suddenly not hate him? why are you doing this?” mc apologizes but renjun snaps and is like “you’re not fucking sorry, i hope he breaks your heart, i’m not going to fight with you but i’m not going to be there when he hurts you because i don’t care about you. i don’t care what happens to you you’re a fucking snake” <3 rj ignores mc intensely from then on, they never make up. mc tells ji that they can’t do what they’re going anymore because it hurt rj more than she realized it would, jisung is fully just like “but what about you? don’t you want this to keep going?” but eventually agrees to call it off though you decide to stay friends. mc goesover to his place and hang out but they keep catching each others eyes and getting closer and eventually they sleep together again😭 mc tells jisung never again and he’s likes sure i definitely believe that

overtime they become closer and closer and mc starts to realize she likes ji and that makes her want to die😭 they still argue a lot but it has a different kind of tension and they’re much cuter. from an outside perspective it looks like they’re dating because they literally go on dates, not that they would ever call them that. honestly they’re really cute and i had so many little cute things planned but that’s not plot important!!! they argue about their relationship status a lot where mc wants more but jisung doesn’t he keeps saying she’s expecting something from him he never said he’d provide and they keep “breaking up” with eachother but jisung always comes back again and again and again because he wants a relationship he just doesn’t want to be in a relationship. you go to one of pnps gigs and a guy hits on you while they’re performing causing ji to get pissed, this ends up causing an argument because mc is like !! you’re the one who doesn’t want to date ! this is your own problem! eventually they agree that they won’t keep sleeping together if it’s not exclusive, mc says that’s just a relationship but ji denies it. they’re exclusively together off and on bcs they’re kind of toxic tbh😭 they eventually become an official couple which makes ji squirmy but he accepts it because he’s kind of in love even though he can’t say it. at this point it’s been months and months and months and mc tells him she loves him and he’s so happy but he can’t say it back, he just kisses in 3s. i’m ending there major plot on a happy point but they don’t end up happy they fight to much and end up separating before the story ends :( THOUGH there is an epilogue which is basically another au where they end up running into eachother again about a year to 2 years after and they slowly start to get together again in a more healthy way, they end up fighting again and almost break up but ji doesn’t let them bcs he refuses to let them give up again at the first sign of conflict and they work it out together (also jisungs BEEN in therapy because as all of this is going on pnp is falling apart because mark and jaemin hate eachother) he also eventually says i love you

back to the others <3 markno are markno they do NOT get along but still love eachother unconditionally, mark and dh get closer and mark starts lying to jeno about dh and how often they text which annoys jeno because he literally wants them to be together he just doesn’t want to be lied to. mark picks up jeno who’s mad at him for hiding things, they argue over this and mark is like ! you’re the one who’s pushing this not me! and it escalates and escalates, mark starts driving a bit erratically and jeno keeps telling him to slow down but he doesn’t so jeno screams at him to pull over and eventually mark does. jeno gets out of the car and just falls over into the grass just sobbing and hyperventilating. mark tries to convince him to get back in the car but he won’t so mark gets out of the car and sits beside him and runs his figures through his hair to calm him down. when he’s calm enough jeno tells mark he can’t do this anymore and marks like “no no baby you’re just emotional right now it will be okay i promise we’ll work this out” and jeno’s just like “no markie seriously, i cant do this i cant it’s too much i cant ” they officially break up the next day when they have a talk. jeno gets mark to call jaemin to pick him up even though mark doesn’t want to. jaemin shows up and sees jeno sobbing and tells mark to get away from them or he’ll kill him and he seems like actually means it, eventually he calms himself down and is like “please just leave, it’s better if you leave” as he’s hugging jeno on the ground <3 markno do not take this break up well they’re codependent and literally still talk everyday and tell eachother they love eachother but they’re not together anymore. literally everyone is upset. jaemin absolutely hates mark so he refuses to play in pnp which sends ji spiraling because it feels like he’s losing everyone all over again.

before i continue markno etc. i’m going to do a quick dh interlude recap, in his interlude you see his past relationship with his girlfriend, in this relationship he was very back and forth on her. he didn’t know how to express he was upset with her or life or himself and would often isolate himself for weeks without explaining anything and then he’d return like nothing happened. they’re relationship turned super rocky and she broke up with him, he knows he deserved it and feels like shit. dh has so much guilt over what happened and wants to apologize to her over and over again but he knows that’s selfish because it’s not what she wants so he doesn’t. dh tries to hard to better himself but he struggles so much.

back to the plot! mark ends up asking dh out but that’s only because he thinks that’s what jeno wants. on their first date mark breaks down and just sobs to dh about how much he misses and loves jeno and how he can’t do this and how he’s sorry to have brought him into that and dh tells him it’s okay and tries to comfort him but doesn’t know how because he’s upset himself even though he knew it would never work.

while markno were still dating but things were rocky jeno would always complain to rj and rj eventually tells him how he feels and jeno rejects him which rj knew he would do. after markno breakup jeno kind of rebounds on rj, not intentionally but they’re talking one day and jeno asks to kiss him and rj says yes. jeno does the sitcom trope of calling rj mark and rj gets so angry at him and tells him he wants him to leave and that he never wants to see him again, jeno cries and tries to apologize but rj refuses to listen and calls his tears manipulative. rj goes on an evil streak where he’s angry at literally everyone but chenle and starts to fuck around with ppl and turns into the toxic one a lil bit. jeno tries and tries to fix things but renjun doesn’t let him because he’s sick and tired of people hurting him and he doesn’t want to tolerate anything anymore. he thinks he doesn’t deserve to be loved but chenle and his friends help him out and reassure him that he’s wonderful and that he deserves love romantically or platonically. renjun ends up the most mentally healthy and successful, full time job, dental coverage etc.

jeno spends time apart from mark and everyone misses him but mark and jeno talk on the phone often, mark only sees jeno when he’s with jaemin which ain’t often because jaemin won’t let jeno come to their place. marks going a bit insane and his mom is getting worse eventually he fully breaks down on jeno’s doorstep and jeno comforts him which gets them talking in person again. they talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk to a crazy extent about their feelings and how they plan to change and approach their relationship again bcs i love them and they eventually get back together !

i think that’s everything major?