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When I was younger and more abled, I was so fucking on board with the fantasy genre’s subversion of traditional femininity. We weren’t just fainting maidens locked up in towers; we could do anything men could do, be as strong or as physical or as violent. I got into western martial arts and learned to fight with a rapier, fell in love with the longsword.

But since I’ve gotten too disabled to fight anymore, I… find myself coming back to that maiden in a tower. It’s that funny thing, where subverting femininity is powerful for the people who have always been forced into it… but for the people who have always been excluded, the powerful thing can be embracing it.

As I’m disabled, as I say to groups of friends, “I can’t walk that far,” as I’m in too much pain to keep partying, I find myself worrying: I’m boring, too quiet, too stationary, irrelevant. The message sent to the disabled is: You’re out of the narrative, you’re secondary, you’re a burden.

The remarkable thing about the maiden in her tower is not her immobility; it’s common for disabled people to be abandoned, set adrift, waiting at bus stops or watching out the windows, forgotten in institutions or stranded in our houses. The remarkable thing is that she’s like a beacon, turning her tower into a lighthouse; people want to come to her, she’s important, she inspires through her appearance and words and craftwork. In medieval romances she gives gifts, write letters, sends messengers, and summons lovers; she plays chess, commissions ballads, composes music, commands knights. She is her household’s moral centre in a castle under siege. She is a castle unto herself, and the integrity of her body matters.

That can be so revolutionary to those of us stuck in our towers who fall prey to thinking: Nobody would want to visit; nobody would want to listen; nobody would want to stay.

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 6 days

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There’s no such thing as work-life balance for neurodivergent & chronically ill people.

This is because everything in my life requires work:

maintaining friendships

keeping up with my hygiene

managing bills

making money

remembering my basic needs

sleeping regularly

outputting creatively

All requires some aspect of work for me.

And when everything in your life requires work, your balance goes out the window.

If you're neurodivergent and overwhelmed — I see you.

If you're chronically ill and overwhelmed — I see you.

You're not dysfunctional.

You're not incapable.

You're doing your best.

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 1 month

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ok so heads up it turns out i’m crazy anemic so i might be gone a while 🙃

#could not have come at a worse time #i have so much work

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 2 months

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has anyone talked about how giving miller a cracked terminal screen is the most in character character detail to ever character detail? Or am I just in blorbo space rn

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clarissa: *does literally anything*

amos: fucking superb you funky little lesbian

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 2 months

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I'm trying to find my next... either like a loooong book series, or (even better) a book series that has been adapted well into a show, that will take ages and ages to get through, not because i don't love it, but because it's just that time consuming.

basically what i'm saying is i have not figured out how to replace The Expanse sized hole in my chest, which recently worsened since I actually finished reading Leviathan Falls, which i had been avoiding doing because i didn't want everything to just be over.

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 2 months

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happy valentine’s day!!

#fun fact about me #valentines day is my birthday

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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reblog if you hate the current interior design trend of painting everything white with hints of grey or black. ignore if you have no taste

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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#i have no idea what it’s called but this one guy was being a little shit and a witch gave him the head of a bear #idk why but that freaked the fuck out of me #he didn’t seem as bothered as me #he just kinda sulked in the woods #but i had to stop watching

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"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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get to know you better game! answer the questions and tag 9 people you want to know better.

tagged by: @gunkstateuniversity thanks!

last song i listened to: camel walk by southern culture on the side

currently reading: in praise of idleness by bertrand russell

currently watching: the expanse and deadloch (everybody go watch deadloch it’s amazing)

currently obsessed with: deadloch (seriously it’s a small aussie town full of middle aged lesbians and murder plus it’s hilarious), cowboys and baking

tagging @coffeefirst-thenspacepirates @nasturtianredux @sometimes-i-talk-a-lot @c-02 @binaominagata @hardwiredweird @overlyobsessedwitholdermen @probablygunder @tragedyposting

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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Peace and love

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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A reminder!

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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Evansville Press, Indiana, February 5, 1912

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ive-fallen-and-i-cannot-get-up · 3 months

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I do not have a large follower base but I'm hoping people will be able to reblog this and get it to people who might be able to lend help

These pictures and words cannot begin to describe the pain the city is going through. Intentional wildfires razed the city. The houses lost are between 3000 - 6000. The official death toll is 99 people and hundreds of animals but the numbers could double as many areas of debris have not been searched and some bodies may have simply been disintegrated, while also having aprox 400 people unaccounted for. The bodies left on the streets are being eaten by dogs

People burned in their homes, in their cars, in the streets. They ran but the fire ran faster. Entire families have been lost, the damage is irreparable. Stories of bravery are abundant but also are those of tragedy. If you can, donate a dollar to Desafío Levantemos Chile (Challenge Lift Chile) as they are the only organization with Paypal for abroad donations.

Please reblog if you want. Every cent counts to let people have roofs over their heads before winter comes

Link to the organisation

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