can’t believe i met some of you nearly decade ago... happy 2020 to all of you. i wish you nothing but the best, always. i still pop on here a couple times a year just to see potential updates. you guys will always have a place in my heart. ♡

hi everyone!!! i see you’re all doing well and that makes me so happy <3 i still adore you all to pieces and am still in contact with a fair share of you and that makes me happy. even though infinity is dead, i still have so many fond memories and have built so many friendships. i don’t really feel like sharing what’s been going on in my life but just know i’m better than ever and really happy with my path. love u all so much mwah

hey guys uhhh happy october life’s chill i’m currently planning a cross country trip with some of my best friends and about to crack into my midterms week uhhhhhh holy shit this place really died i hope everyone is well i’ll see you on new years for the yearly cap-up

*laughs nervously* what the fuck?

my newest nephew

Another quick thing! Dakota’s girlfriend is pregnant and she’s due really soon so I’m going to be an aunt again! That’s it!

Hi, guys! Happy holidays! I hope that you guys and your families are having a good time. Man, it’s been a minute but I guess I’m due for my semi-annual life update post. It’s really intimidating to get on here because it’s like, ahhhh, they could hate me for never being around and being bad at communication but we’ve BEEN known about my communication issues so it’s really not a thing! Alright! Where do I start? I guess where I left off, huh? Okay! I moved back home for a couple of reasons. Mostly because Indianapolis made me miserable and because I never ever got to see my family and y’all already know that my family is my world. I was going to move to Florida but it ended up not being my best option and I wouldn’t have been able to resume school immediately and of course would have seen my family even less. Indianapolis was good for a little bit, but I don’t think I’m meant to live with anyone, ever. Not even my closest friends. I just get overwhelmed really easily and need my own living space and room where I can just hide after a really long day at work and not talk to anyone or expect anyone to want me to talk to them. I also moved back so I could go back to school and moving back home to do it was the best option. I start school in January as long as everything goes the way it should. I still have to confirm some things with my advisor but yeah! As of right now I’m going to take a few classes to get my associates in sociology and then go back to my university and get my bachelors in human services to become a counselor! Finally! I go on vacation next week to hang with people in Chicago for a few days, which will be fun. Chicago is my favorite city in the world and i love any excuse to go. UMMM! Let’s see! I’m finally cute and I’m down twenty pounds from September so that’s cool. I can beat my face for the Gods in twenty minutes and when I’m not working, I actually have a sense of style and wear cute things! 2010-2014 me SHOOK. I’m working my ass off. I’ve got 64 hours at work this week and I’m exhausted but it’s okay because I’m dropping down to part time in a week or so. It’s going to drive me nuts because I’ve been working full time for three years but school will fill the gap. I really hope I can make some sane friends at school. Everyone I know is married with kids, a drug addict, in jail, or too far away. I’ve got Cassi but she’s a little crazy and always has been. Caleb went off the deep end and I blocked him on everything because all he does now is steal from Walmart and his sick parents and it grosses me out. Like! GET A JOB! Take care of your parents! What are you doing?I'm trying to be less petty and just let go of everyone in my life that doesn't make me feel okay or people that treat me poorly or never cared about me. I'm kinda just becoming intolerant of people walking all over me. That's just not happening to me anymore. It wasn't good for my mental health and cleansing my life of those people has helped me better myself so much. God! I feel like I got on here to say so much more but it’s 6 AM and I’m drawing a blank. Well, okay. I hope the few of you left on here are doing well. I miss having this close knit safe haven sometimes. It used to feel like a warm hug to get on here sometimes, but hey, that’s okay. I get my icy mixed reception and validation on twitter dot com like the rest of our youth! Everything fades, but my love for you all will never die. Promise. I wish you all the best going into the new year and I hope to god 2017 isn’t as bad as this year was. If any of you want to reach out, my number is still the same!

im never here bc i use twitter as my diary now but here’s some news and things and stuff about me that’s been going on for the past few months

— i’m moving to florida within the next year — indy isn’t where i want to be and i miss having my own room and miss my dogs but it’s okay — i got a new job and will be working two jobs for a little bit until my new job switches me to full time but it's at an applied behavior center and that's all i've ever wanted to do so cheers to that — i spent a couple of days in california with nicole and karima in march and i miss them a lot — i met karina and it was so neat — im getting better at the self love thing — i have nothing going on really — i'm in a weird part of my life where im not happy or sad. just kinda here right now — my life is really boring but im just working on bettering myself constantly and cutting out any and all toxicity and hope you are all well

HAPPY NEW YEAR NERDS WE'RE GETTING OLD I went out to a lesbian club last night i got my butt touched a lot but no one kissed me which was a shame because i looked really good (refer to my insta) and i drank a little and teared up when truffle butter came on and then we got home after midnight and tried to order a pizza but they were at their max so we went to taco bell and they were closed so we went to mcdonalds but i survived 2015 another year that tried to take me down

h....ello. it's me. i was wondering if after all these months you'd like to speak to go over everything?

🚨 TWO MORE SHIFTS UNTIL I’M NOT A S*BWAY HO ANYMORE! THREE DAYS UNTIL I GO TO CHICAGO FOR THE WEEKEND. FIVE DAYS UNTIL 1D ROUND 5! ONE WEEK UNTIL I MOVE! 🚨

stress is kicking in im feeling it

birthday summary: i worked, cried when z*rrie broke up, went out to dinner with my family, had a margarita, got money and immediately spent it on a new bed set, colored in my 1d coloring book, skyped with nicole, and went to bed at 11:30 ish 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BREE MY PERFECT ANGEL HAVE A GOOD DAY

when your new place is lit!

hey, hey, hey! it’s 5 am and i'm just chillin on here! my roommates and i got approved for our place and it’s the cutest little house/duplex/apartment thing in downtown indy and it has a sunroom and really nice kitchen and a dining room that's hella big and i can’t wait to go see it in person (bc i couldn’t go when my roommates did bc duh i’m all the way over here) and take pics to show you guys!!! i go to indy on wednesday to visit salem and see one d*rection on friday and i’m low key tryna meet them but we’ll see. three and a half weeks until i’m out of illinois, y'all! that’s it! ya girl is movin on up!

i turn 21, see one direction twice, have my birthday celebration in chicago, move out of my crusty state, and leave s*bway all within the next fifty days.