Hi, I stopped posting but wanted to again. I need a good outlet to just vent, express my mental struggles and post my interests like anime and music stuff.

Being depressed is exhausting. Life is not enjoyable. I am always struggling with something.

While it needed to happen, being divorced at 29 is pretty traumatizing. Definitely didn’t envision that. My son has been having an extremely hard time regulating his emotions and controlling his body. While a lot of kids have this issue, I am carrying extreme guilt that it may have to do with his mom and I separating.

With that, I am in constant fear about losing my job due to my sons issues at school. He is constantly getting sent home and schools are just not wanting to deal with him. He is 4 years old and is treated like a criminal because he needs extra guidance, attention and patience.

My family is essentially non existent. I’ve visited them as many times as I could given my financial situations and vacation time at work over the years. My mom has visited me once when my daughter was born and that’s it. My family hasn’t met my son before. I’ve been guilt tripped countless times as to why I don’t visit more and have been told that they don’t have the best relationship with my kids because they aren’t there. Every year my dad tells me that they’re going to visit, usually happens around the same time every year. Last time he told me, I just had enough and said it was bs and to tell me only when there is an actual plan to visit. I swear they are perfectly content with having a FaceTime relationship with me and my kids for the rest of their lives. They use me living out of state as an excuse to not contact me as much. I’m the one that is making the contact 98% of the time. I miss the family I had when my grandparents were alive.

I’m not suicidal, but the thoughts of “I wonder what would life be like if I weren’t here anymore” are getting louder and louder.

I am extremely discouraged. Ive been on four different medications, therapy, and nothing is seeming to work.

The Shadow and the Son.

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So tired of these ever fluctuating depression episodes. For example, I spent a few hours feeling really great, thinking about my life and how it may be stressful and not that bad. But then for the past few hours I have been thinking about every negative thing in my life and every possible negative outcome. And I cannot sleep. My depression/anxiety usually wants me to clean, but I cannot so I don’t wake people up. Instead, I have been walking around my apartment looking in my random clutter of junk for anything interesting. No luck.

Swear i’ll post some not so serious stuff. Just hitting a rough patch.

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When you first watched Naruto, was there a character that you weren’t too big on but ended up being bad af? For me, it was this Guy… pun intended. Definition of don’t judge a book by its cover

I miss New England falls so much. This reminds me of Salem, MA.

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Over thinking can ruin & self destruct us while taking over our minds , leaving the soul left trying to fight off being dragged down right behind

My state is gorgeous sometimes

Gem spot to enjoy the view in, Sedona AZ. As old as time.

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