Relapsing isn’t real

I was never clean in the first place

I’ll always be dirty

There’s no restarting

one thing about me is i am not doing so well

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and i need it now

i hate it when people tell me to just stop cutting, like bitch its either this or killing myself, you chose

you ever just want to cut even if you don't really have a reason just because you miss the feeling of the cuts or am i losing it

what I say: “it is what it is”

what I mean: “I have cried about this for hours and have probably self harmed and contemplated suicide over this.

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I always ask myself am i actually sick or am i just making everything up? I never trust myself. I want to know if theres anything wrong. I need to be told.

I hate when people are like

"svicide is selfish."

like isn't keeping me here even though im hurting so much just because you will be sad, isn't that selfish?

its my body surely i have the right to harm it if i wish ???

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