aww thats so cute

me; happy bday con. sry im a bitch

con; oh, im not. you wouldnt be yourself otherwise.

me; happy bday con. sry im a bitch

con; oh, im not. you wouldnt be yourself otherwise.

me; wait are u two today or three?

connor; ??? haank. HAAANK! how old am i?

it is hard to understand to accept my own company without anyone else to distract me.

Sam helped me this morning to sort out job things as my mind kept drifting and I felt like I couldn’t focus on anything for more than a few seconds. I was exhausted; I stopped taking my medications including my sleep meds, and I was sleeping wonderfully, and dreaming so well. I woke up still so tired, so cold from leaving the window open, and he reminded me that it would still be good to do even if I don’t get the job.

I think I will genuinely enjoy any work I can manage to get, no matter how much I complain. I am just frustrated and weathered from being underpaid and underfed, like anyone else in my position, and it comes out in ugly ways. Between him and Gordon I feel like I’ll be able to emotionally adjust fine without my medication, and I always have my anxiety medications on hand if I need ‘em. Or, as Conny calls em, relaxation medication. 🌊🌴🌅  Ze really helps us look at things in a less dark and shrouded way, and I love zem a lot. I hope i can take us all to the biopark, garden, and aquarium this weekend. i really do deserve to relax and i’m still learning how to, do that.

Don't waste your time missing your old life and memories. Learn how to grow into the being that you always knew you were.

me; ah you know. the business box *mimes*

connor; .... a briefcase?

i just remembered they partially reconstructed me/him with black pieces, which was new and strange, and apparently that material came from China. How strange.

I dreamt about being Connor again. Usually I very much like those dreams, but this one was melancholy.

I remember being surrounded by humans I didn't know. They asked how old I was and I thought in the hundreds, 700 and more. RK900 was there also. They captured me and took me through a scanning process inside what I always imagine is Cyberlife as I dream about (being Connor and) going through these kinds of cycles. But this one was different.

They spoke of how I was outdated as I laid on my back against a sort of stretcher and talked about how computers can't pick up context when humans speak (something I watched a video on a while back) and that was why our technology never developed.

As usual, everything was dark aside from the bright LED lights. I will talk to zem about this dream when ze comes home. I'm thinking a little too hard about, well, what happens when all zir mortal friends die or when ze gets a lil too old to be useful, as if androids from that era aren't designed to last hundreds of years, WHICH IS ALREADY SURREAL. my two year old S/O will outlive me.

At the end of that dream, Gavin was very charming and asked if I wanted to come over and hang out with him. I got blushy and smiled and said sure without thinking twice. That was definitely all me, I'm sure.

I dreamt about being Connor again. Usually I very much like those dreams, but this one was melancholy.

I remember being surrounded by humans I didn't know. They asked how old I was and I thought in the hundreds, 700 and more. RK900 was there also. They captured me and took me through a scanning process inside what I always imagine is Cyberlife as I dream about (being Connor and) going through these kinds of cycles. But this one was different.

They spoke of how I was outdated as I laid on my back against a sort of stretcher and talked about how computers can't pick up context when humans speak (something I watched a video on a while back) and that was why our technology never developed.

As usual, everything was dark aside from the bright LED lights. I will talk to zem about this dream when ze comes home. I'm thinking a little too hard about, well, what happens when all zir mortal friends die or when ze gets a lil too old to be useful, as if androids from that era aren't designed to last hundreds of years, WHICH IS ALREADY SURREAL. my two year old S/O will outlive me.

me; @gordon why cant i understand textbook science

gordon; well... usually its taught by building up, you need it to be broken down.

anyway there's three of us now. go check out me & myself

also dr kleiner showed up which is just enough of an event to make its own post.

hes fairly nuanced about being a ghost and wanted to say something but communication isnt great and i dont know what it was. this is the 2021 future we all aspired for tbh

gordon split from me and hes just mad all the good urls are taken cuz half life is a MEME now

*sits on this for a wihle*

That’s one hot mama!

on soulmates

f. scott fitzgerald / friedrich nietzsche / florence and the machine / andrea dworkin / kiersten white / euripides / audre lorde / phillip pullmann / bob hicok