If I’ve learned anything this year it’s that I feel completely and utterly alone if it wasn’t for my kids I don’t know what I’d do

Why do I even fucking bother...I get ignored half the time anyways by people it’s kinda shitty

I feel invisible and like I don’t belong here sometimes like people don’t like me

Hahahahaha

“Dear friend, I wish I could report that it’s getting better, but unfortunately, it isn’t.”

— Perks of Being a Wallflower 

Sometimes it’s so frustrating trying to get back into the dating world, either they don’t seem to care, don’t get back to you, don’t wanna get to know you, they are gay, or they are into someone else. After Archer Tom came and things were easy and fast we had been friends. But now it’s just so much work to try when I know the outcome, I know that he will sweep me off my feet, be good to me and then leave. I just wish I wasn’t so lonely I hate myself for even wanting a man

It’s ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we’ve seen coming.

sometimes I wonder if there’s something wrong with me, if there’s a reason no one ever stays, friends or lovers.

I just won’t ever be good enough for anyone no matter what I do or how hard I try I won’t be good enough

Even though he wasn’t around much, and our communication wasn’t always the best I miss tom, we built a life together for a year, we had a home, and I miss that feeling. I don’t wanna date anymore, I don’t wanna go through the motions, I don’t know what I want. I just want to find someone who doesn’t just wanna settle for me but loves me and wants the same passions and takes care of my kids and I just don’t think I’ll find that again, I had it one time and I lost him.

don’t ever apologise for wanting what you want