I am angry #3
HereLiesMillie ~
I am angry. I am angry that i as a woman, that i as a carrier of life am having my rights as a human stripped away for something that it itself is dependent on ME for.Ā
Anti-abortionists, you will never take away my ability to abortion all you will do is take away my right to a safe one.Ā
I as a living breathing outside of its host human should have the ability to control the things inside my body, ESPECIALLY when the are as dependent on me as much as aĀ āfoetusā is.Ā
I am beyond disgusting, outraged, violated that Roe v Wade is being overturned, i am beyond scared that we are no longer progressing forwards all because something that needs me has more value than me.Ā
So to those who are anti-abortion, those who think that taking away my rights is saving children, I as a person with the ability to carry child tell you to go fuck yourself.Ā
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Oh yes, the past can hurt. But from the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it.
Rafiki, The Lion King
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Boys, boys, boys #2
HereLiesMillie ~Ā
Boys, they are both wonderful and disturbing creatures all at once. Whether you love them or hate them, theyāre here to stay and stay they have.Ā
My experience with boys has so far been... mixed? As a child a large majority of my friend group was boys, not that it was by choice as youāll come to find in later blogs. But I didnāt mind, they were some of the best people Iāve ever gotten the pleasure of meeting and though we no longer talk I wouldnāt dare to wish a bad thing upon them.Ā
Though my childhood memories with boys have been fond my teenage years is a different story. And no before your mind wanders, I didnāt get bullied, harassed or intimidated by them but my experiences have still been bumpy.Ā
When I turned 17 I thought I had met a boy who liked me, I of course was ecstatic. He was on my mind 24/7 not a day of rest even though he was one of the dreaded men the internet has offered to me. Weāll call him Roma, you see Roma lived in a different part of the country from me and had often talked about coming up to visit, this continuously peaked my interest and we hit it off. Of course it didnāt take long until the conversations got slow and he asked the dreaded question...
āDo you send?āĀ
The moment I read it I felt my heart sink,Ā āAh of courseā I probably thought to myself, Iād been played all along, played for my body and treated as if I was nothing more than a magazine made for pornographic material. We soon stopped talking although Iāll admit he was on my mind for over a year and a half more and when I was lonely, Iād use his face to make up the fake stories in my brain.
The next boy.. well man? I met when I was 19, we clicked instantly and if Iām being real, I mightāve been the happiest I had ever been once we started talking. He was sweet, charming, attractive, talented and most importantly not creepy. The not creepy emphasis is important as spoiler alert he was a TINDER BOY. God I know I shouldāve known better, but hey, I was lonely and craving love I was desperate to feel someone want me. The day after we met on Tinder we hooked-up, although it wasnāt my original plan as I was well reminded that boys who do that on the first date want one thing and one thing only. I ignored the advice given to me by my seasoned flatmate and lost my virginity to him.
Now Iām unsure if itās different for men but for women this is somewhat of a big deal, I was scared, nervous and excited. But those emotions were crushed in an instant when he afterwards told me toĀ āHave sex with someone else and tell me how I compareā. This of course was stated after he had already compared me to his previous partners.Ā
Crushed... I was crushed, in an instant I knew it. Iād just given something I had previously tried so hard to keep for the right person at the right time, away just like that.Ā
I stayed over at his. In the morning not many words were spoken and he only walked me half way home, I knew the hug goodbye meant something along the lines ofĀ āListen nice shag however, youāll never see me againā.Ā
I walked home heart heavy, where I stayed hooked on him for 4 following weeks, tracking his snapscore, checking his insta, following his bandās activities. Iād lost it, my sense of reality was destroyed and I wanted some form of confirmation I wouldnāt be abandoned.
Which of course happened. He stopped replying, left me on delivered for weeks and to be perfectly honest... it hurt. It hurt more than I let my best friend, more than I let other friends and more than I let myself believe. I felt like I was a tissue, used and then discarded without a mere second thought.
I havenāt seen him since then and to be honest if I did I think my healing process wouldāve gone back to day one.
So to this I say, men, boys and the people who identify as such, please treat those you intend to use for sex like humans. Tell them that this is purely for a hook-up and don't leave them to believe that there a chance when you know that youāll never reciprocate a feeling theyāve been dying to tell you.
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HereLiesMillie #1
Here she lies, on her bed, laptop on her lap typing away each thought coming to mind. āHereLiesMillieā, is a blog, a safe haven, a place where thoughts, ideas and general discussion from a confused young adult can be said by just the type of a few keys.Ā
I do not write for anyone in particular to view, I am simply writing for myself. Whether it be a future me Iām aiming for, a rant from current me, or a discussion for past me.Ā
I just need somewhere to release - release the thoughts that are holding me back.Ā
So sit back, grab some popcorn and enjoy the ride because itāll get messy!
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