i'll admit this here and only here. . .i miss you i truly do but there is absolutely no use in trying because every time we talk now, the conversations are either extremely dull or us fighting. . .i'm happy where i am today i have someone there to hold me when i feel down i know we're both surprised and some-what disappointed that the person isn't you. . .but this is for the better right? this is all a planned out path for us. . .right? you seem happy with life you still flirt with all the girls at your school well thanks anyways for one of the happiest memories of my life and i hope you're happy too and i hope one day you'll look back and realize we would've made it. . .message me when you do cause i want to see how wonderful i can become while you're still in the past. . .and maybe this isn't the end of our story

guess we'll just have to wait

somethings just can't rewind. . .for example you and me. . .i loved you so damn much i was literally willing to do anything for you and i mean anything and i would take you back but you just don't take us seriously xP a few days ago my friend sent me a picture of your conversation with her friend and you were flirting nonstop. . .if you really cared for me you wouldn't have done that and if you haven't done that i would probably take you back but you did and it seems as if you regret nothing so live a happy life and i hope one day you do find the one that you're meant to be with and if anything happens to you guys i hope you'll think back to me and realize the pain you caused me </3 

. . .i guess this is my final farewell to you. . .

i would tell you i miss you and take you back but i read your convo with my friend's friend. . .i know i will never do that. i put myself through a lot of misery and all and if we do go out again. . .it's only going to hurt me 

. . .sorry i can't date a fucking player xP

UGLY - 2NE1

I'm going so much pain just going through this -- what happened to staying by my side forever? you use to wake me up in the morning by texting me and text me throughout the day until sleep but now you even text me at all we were so close and I'm tempted to text you but you'll probably just ignore me</3 I'll just sit here and watch disney movies till you text me

life loves bullying us and playing with our feelings but stand strong because you'll win one day

i love waking up to your texts...it's stupid and cliche but it's true :P i smile and i'm overjoyed that i crossed your mind...but the feeling when you don't text back or just don't text me at all, i feel like i'm dead -- i know i shouldn't allow a guy to hold my happiness but he stole mine and i can't get it back, is it wrong if i don't want it back? i think i've waited too long but i have always felt this way, since day one to now even when you ignored me it's never changed but because i'm so stupid i think i'm too late now

sometimes i get afraid that if i close my eyes to sleep, i may not wake up. it's definitely not something i should be worrying about at this age but i can't stop thinking about it. don't get me wrong i want to live and all but i'm so curious. . .what happens to us when we pass away. is it just utter blackness? or is there something or someone waiting for us on the other side?