I will rip my personality into shreds just to make you more happy. My way of communicating will differ from before and you will feel true unconditional love which my mom told me not to show. Anything for you to come back.

No amount of beauty, promises, changes, and begging will bring you back. You truly were lying when you promised you would never leave me, but I dont blame you. I know I did terrible things to you, and I wish you could forgive me and take me back. But you never will.

I am replacable

Before I thought everyone else was treating me badly, now I know I am the problem.

Am I even worth anything? Sometimes I would like to delete my existence in everyone's lives. Not kms just never existed.

I don't believe anyone when they say they love me. What is there to love me for? My anger? My singular sadness? My self-loathing feelings? My meaningless view of life?

I know I can be charming but this is just an illusion of a personality I never had. I don't know who or what I am. All I know is I am not worth any sacrifice.

Why do I keep believing in empty promises? I always make the same mistakes and hurt myself in the end.

Maybe this is my punishment for hurting them. Maybe this is my eternal hell for hearts I have broken.

I wish I was normal, yet everybody reminds me of my charm and how I influence them. I don't wanna be this way, I wanna be loved. I wanna be able to show my care for others without controlling them.

why me?

Just leave me alone Just go Everyone is trying to hurt me Just go

Stop talking about your past I don't wanna hear it Just leave me alone Just go

New chapter, new disappointment

I finally found someone who was able to remind me of your love, yet they remind me of my mother's narcissistic hypocritical love.

Maybe I am better off alone.

I may put my feelings to the grave like you did while lying to my face

Mohammed El-Kurd, from Rifqa; “Rifqa”

[Text ID: “I cried—not for the house / but for the memories I could have had inside it.”]

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yet I was ready to wait for you till the day I die