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hawkfuller · 3 days

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missing the s1 hours

#you don't bite the neck louis you suck it #!!!! so insane. so gay #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #iwtv #louis x lestat #lestat lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #sam reid #jacob anderson #loustat #amc iwtv #iwtv 2022 #interview with the vampire 2022 #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 6 days

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"Armand is a quite snazzy drezzer" - Sam Reid

#he is just soooooo beautiful #i'm so very excited to see him more this season #been watchinf hotel portofino just for him #assad zaman #iwtv #interview with the vampire #amc iwtv #the vampire armand #armand #iwtvgifs #amc's interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #interview with the vampire 2022 #iwtv 2022

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hawkfuller · 10 days

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“it's very clear they're very, very good friends.”

— rolin jones about jacob anderson and sam reid (sfx, may 2024)

i love them, your honor

#we've been getting fed lately #the feelings i feel make me feel dizzy #i love them i've missed them #all the more reason to give us s01 blooper reels #jacob anderson #sam reid #amc iwtv #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #iwtv 2022 #interview with the vampire 2022 #my reblogs #my replies

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hawkfuller · 1 month

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everything i've ever wanted to articulate. just there. in a post. like an unexpected but thought-out gift.

Why Queer as Folk (2000) Was Seemingly Forgotten

An analysis by a professional TV Critic

Let me start off by saying the initial run of Queer as Folk and its current resurgence can be represented by this mantra by Brian Kinney: There are two kinds of straight people. The ones who hate you to your back and the ones who hate you to your face.

The initial run of QAF coincides with the first half of the statement: hate behind your back.

So, recently I started thinking about how in the early 2000s, Queer as Folk seemed to be on a trajectory of going down in TV history. Then, seemingly just as quickly, people stopped talking about it. So much so that by the time I finished watching it in 2009, I only got a few good months of chatter on social media platforms (Twitter mostly) with other fans before it just stopped being talked about in a wide-reaching manner.

I will even admit that I stopped thinking about the show not long after that and wasn't reminded of its full impact on my psyche until late last year when it was back on easy-access streaming due to Showtime's merge with Paramount+.

But why is it that this show is only just now starting to pick up speed again? (I'm talking fan cams on TikTok, memes, etc.)

I have some theories about all of this, so buckle in.

To really get a grasp of what Queer as Folk was working against when it aired on Showtime -- a paid subscription channel back before the days of an overabundance of streaming services, you have to look at the climate we were living in. Also, how inaccessible a paid TV channel was for most people.

So, in the early 2000s, life in the United States, and probably the world, but I'm not fully educated enough to comment on that, wasn't the greatest for those in the LGBT+ community. It would be years before the President of the United States would pass legislation that Gay Marriage be legal nationwide.

Employers were able to fire people for being gay, and the employees couldn't fight it. Gay parents had very little in terms of rights to their own children; in fact, some couldn't even adopt the kids they wanted to because there were no laws against discrimination.

All of these things are depicted left and right throughout Queer as Folk, with Ted getting fired from his job, Michael being extremely closeted at his job, and Melanie not being afforded rights to Gus because of adoption regulations during that time.

So, for our community to receive a show that was by us for us, we were overjoyed. There was something so resolutely refreshing about the unapologetic manner in which these characters were allowed to present themselves and live their lives. And while the show gets dinged today for its lack of racial diversity, we were glad to see queer people represented in a variety of ways -- we got to see the Emmett's and Justin's of the world being friends with the Ted's and Michael's and Brian's.

Not only that, these characters got to love who they wanted, however, they wanted, and whenever they wanted. Characters like Michael and Emmett could go from wanting to freely fuck whoever to finding that special person and settling down. We got to see Ted find the right guy at the wrong time over and over and over again until it was finally the right guy at the right time.

But most of all, we got to see a character like Brian, who, in the hands of a straight person, might've actually gone "soft" and "domestic" just by being with Justin. Instead, we got to see him never change his opinion about what he wanted, but still finding love in his own way.

However, not long after the show ended (like around 2008), the climate in the United States started to shift more towards open acceptance of the queer community. So, people stopped needing an escape from the hardships of real life because things seemed to be on an upward trend toward love and equality. Therefore, Queer as Folk sort of fell off the radar of viewers because we didn't want more of the gritty, complicated, messy queer stories. We wanted our stories to be happy and lighthearted.

(Keep in mind I am speaking in terms of general viewers. There are always exceptions to the rule)

Then, in 2016, Donald Trump was elected President of the United States, and suddenly, it was totally okay for people to openly mock us and hate us.

This is where the resurgence of QAF falls into the second half of Brian's mantra: hate us to our face.

Around 2016/2017, people started talking about this show again. And the love and fervor for it has only increased exponentially over the last few years, especially with the onset of COVID-19 and the merging of Showtime/Paramount+. Both events made the public more aware and able to access the show.

Now more than ever, we need something that isn't afraid to show queer people as we are, not as the media and those outside our community paint us. We need to feel like there is a media format that understands what we are like when we are with our closest friends. We say things that, in today's world, would probably get us canceled, and we judge those around us and have very biased opinions about certain people.

Brian Kinney's unapologetic "I am who I am and fuck anyone who tries to change me" attitude is the exact level of strength and courage we wished more people right now had. His biased, but not illogical, opinion of non-queers needs to be loud. It needs to be shouted from the rooftops because we now live in a world where we are hated just for existing as we are.

Even our rights that had been given to us just a decade ago are being stripped away from us once more. So, the fight for love and equality continues, and the hope that Queer as Folk gives us is important now more than ever.

So, people are seeking this story out and are begging others in the world to watch it and understand that we have always been here. We've always been these flawed but loving characters. We deserve to be heard.

In 2022, Peacock tried its best to create a redo of the series but failed miserably. But why? If we are desperately looking for queer media that is gritty, unapologetic, and real, then why didn't we latch onto this latest iteration?

The answer is simple. This new version was great at creating a more diverse image of the characters created for the Showtime series but failed to understand that recreating things almost note for note with entirely new characters isn't what we want.

It would've been better if the show stuck to broad-stroke themes and made these characters and their experiences their own. Queer today is different than queer in the early 2000s, just like queer in the 2000s was different than queer in the 1980s. Trying to put queer 2000s stories into a queer 2020s world isn't going to work.

We need to embrace this resurgence of Queer as Folk (2000) and give it the love and attention it should've always had. Perhaps finally giving its rightful due in the eyes of the history of queer media. Does it have its issues as the world changes? Absolutely, but we also can't sit here and deny the insane level of impact this show had on the queer media we now know and love.

We wouldn't have casually queer shows like Schitt's Creek, Heartstopper, and Our Flag Means Death if Queer as Folk hadn't broken down our walls and made us realize that we can demand stories for queer people by queer people.

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hawkfuller · 3 months

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fun days on set (ignoring context)

(shh!! don't wake the baby)

#loml god i love him SO MUCH #he looks so cozy #babygirl tbh #fellow travelers #tim laughlin #jonathan bailey #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 3 months

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In defense of season five Brian Kinney

(this has been in my drafts for months because i'm scared to post it sjkfhs)

We all feel a certain kind of way about season five, it's like... kind of unfortunate from beginning to end lmao. BUT STILL the one thing that I will always do is try to defend that babygirl, I will carry him out of the storm of criticism princess style and take him home on a white horse.

disclaimer: this is a confused stream of consciousness and I will get some things wrong because it's the season I've watched the least lol.

Why does Brian act the way he does? We know why he acts a certain way throughout the series and to me his behaviour in s5 is not that unwarranted or different from the other seasons.

1) At the end of season 4 he asks Justin to move in, he talks about wanting to spend more time with Gus, but does any of it happen? no.

Justin leaves and Brian is happy and proud of him, but honestly I would also see why that would make him feel a certain kind of way. He already thinks he doesn't deserve love and companionship and one of the few times he asks for it he doesn't get it. He prepares a trip to go see Justin, but at the last second he decides not to go, he gets cold feet because it sound like Justin is leaving him forever. Sort of, kind of, but it's enough. The same happens with Gus (imo). Like he's accepted that with time all his relationships will end and no one actually wants him to fight for them, because no one actually likes him enough to want to stick around. But do you know who will always stay by his side? Michael. Until...

2) Confession... I don't hate the assimilation plotline. It was handled horribly, but I still think it's pretty cool they dedicated so much time to it. They were doing this in the early 2000s and now most lgbtq+ media can't handle to seriously get anywhere close to it.

Brian and Michael's roles are on the opposite spectrum of the debate and Justin ping pongs between them way too pointedly, because (imo) the writers decided to use him as a plot device instead of a character. (Unironically to me Justin feels the most like Justin when he is being a dick to his mom about her boyfriend) (and even then I find myself questioning whether s4 Justin would do or say any of that)

ANYWAY Brian sees his best friend/brother travel where he can't follow him. Michael has a family, he is married, he has a house in the suburbs, new, more mature friends and Brian is looking at him from afar, wondering why he suddenly thinks the life they've shared is a meaningless, shameful thing of the past. Not directly, but in a way wondering why Michael can't just accept him the way he is anymore.

BTW Brian might have celebrated the wedding of his friends... but that doesn't mean he changed his mind on weddings as a whole. Actually his wildest marriage nightmares are proven right by the two married couples he knows. He probably looks at Mel and Lindsay destroying each other, stuck in a legal battle with Michael /and/ Ben, looks at the kids trapped in that mess and is glad that will never be him.

UNTIL IT IS. Justin, in his infinite wisdom, decides he wants all of that actually and he tries to "tame" (quoting Cowlip) Brian until he leaves him behind because the domestication isn't sticking and him alone is not worth as much as weddings and kids. There's supposed to be something MORE. Staying with Brian suddenly means settling for something lesser than what Michael has. This process starts way before the break up (talks of... puppies?) and it's there where (imo) Brian just breaks.

No Michael, no Justin, constant talk of marriage and kids and divorce and custody. No one fucking cares Brian has a reason to behave the way he does. It's normal to want different things in life, but no one in the cast has experienced what Brian has and no one tries to understand it and understand what he wants and why either.

Brian's entire existence in the series is being questioned: his worth, what he has to offer, what he can't/won't give as well as what he can/will give, what HE IS, everything amounts to literally nothing. he is being left by everyone, he's wrong and not enough. Meanwhile he hates being alone, he's needy and touch starved and sweet, he needs his special people around, but why would he ask them to stay, when they make it so clear that they think he is not worth anything? (he's left with literally only Lindsay who is so bad at keeping her mouth shut and just offering support and Ted who's mostly just thinking about his own dick 24/7 and is more of a distraction than anything else).

The only gateway to attention and affection he has left is sex except that isn't working as well anymore.

[2.2) (little aside about Justin) To me he is a bit like a moth flying into bright, shiny things. He's still stubborn and driven, but in season five his decisions feel shallow, like he's doing things out of boredom. At the start of the season he's coming back from hollywood, where he was happily living in kinney-like debauchery, and he's disappointed to be back to his old life. So (imo) he finds a new thing to obsess over: marriage. Then he gets to go to new york and weddings, kids and manors are suddenly a thing of the past. This is why to me, in season 5 he's just a big nothing of nothing, genetically modified to accompany the brian/michael assimilation plot line and then Brian's ending.]

3) Confession n 2 I don't hate Brandon and even though the competition is SO cringe, it's meant to be that way (i hope at least), to me the way it ends is what makes it clear. We get a glimpse of season one Brian, broken and lost, terrified, hanging onto the one thing that makes him feel wanted, safe and alive (sex). He wins, but the ending to the competition is not satisfying, Brian doesn't claim his prize (he doesn't want it). We get an unsettling, super close close up on Brian and Brandon instead, the lines are not good, but the visual storytelling carries that scene effortlessly. Past and present looking at each other, the future looming over them right out of frame where none of us can see it.

Aging is a main theme throughout the story and to me it feels very fitting to ham it up towards the ending. Justin spitefully telling him he looks good after sighing and moping around for entire episodes can't fix Brian's lifelong obsession with the loss of his youth. Brian is left to deal with it on his own when it's at its worst. He is old and lonely, Brandon and the competition is an escape, one last glimpse at what it's like to be the young, hot, reigning stud of Liberty Avenue, while being fully aware that his time is up.

In conclusion, Brian has not taken steps back imo, he is struggling to come to terms with the changes around him, while also feeling confident about his own convictions. Sometimes he is bitter and lonely and we get to see him say extreme things, but he's also more well adjusted than he was in season 1. He knows what he wants but he's still scared to admit it. Partly because (and the failure with the moving in thing could be a factor in this) he doesn't think he should ask for anything, partly because the people he loves are expecting him to change even more and against his will.

A the same time, he is able to question himself because he has grown and worked through some of the trauma that shaped him, also he has found a new kind of intense love with Justin, different from the codependency he has with Michael (and Lindsay) and the surface level friendship he has with everyone else, which is something that has made him realise so much about himself and what he wants and would like to be.

For the same reasons he is able to look at his empire crumbling and accept it, because during the show he found other reasons to fight and stay alive. When those same reasons are taken away from him, or he doesn't find the courage to go after them, he tries to comfort himself through sex, even if it's unsuccessful, but he's not closing into himself like he used to. He still thinks he'll get Michael back eventually and he's happy to let Justin go if it means he'll find what he is looking for, Brian doesn't want another relationship he doesn't care for it, the only reason Justin became his boyfriend is because he forced his way into his life and his heart ugh cringe lol. Obsessing over sex, age and fighting with his loved ones is not necessarily a sign of regression, just a momentary way to cope with the world pulling the rug from under his feet.

He went from attempting suicide to celebrating being cancer free. He wants the people who make him happy to be happy, even if it hurts him. He's not possessive and he's not particularly brave when it comes to relationships, but he's also growing constantly, willing and unwilling he changes and moves forward in his own way, sometime turning to look at the past but with no excuses, no apologies, no regr[GUNSHOT]

Then episode 10 comes and a lot more shit happens that i could write another 20 pages about but im done for now lmao ok bye

#finally someone writes out what i've been thinking #so well explained too #look i don't even hate s05 and was actually surprised to see so many people do #to the point that i questioned whether it was the hyperfixation and delusion making me not dislike it #but i just love brian and understand him and will defend him forever #qaf #queer as folk #meta #queer as folk us #brian kinney #queer as folk 2000 #my reblogs #qaf us #qaf 2000

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hawkfuller · 3 months

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rewatching (for the 8th time) is truly an experience.

“When I was in the Army,

I lost faith in almost everything.”

#once you know the full story #it is so well written #i'm in love #i truly admire art #and this show is a masterpiece on all fronts #fellow travelers #hawk fuller #tim laughlin #hawkins fuller #timhawk #tim x hawk #hawk x tim #hawk and skippy #matt bomer #jonathan bailey #my replies #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 4 months

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FELLOW TRAVELERS + Hawk coming home to Tim

#fellow travelers #matt bomer #jonathan bailey #hawkins fuller #tim laughlin #hawk x tim #tim x hawk #timhawk #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 4 months

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:(

FELLOW TRAVELERS + Tim finally getting to dance with the man he loves

#i miss them #they deserved better #fellow travelers #jonathan bailey #matt bomer #tim laughlin #hawkins fuller #tim x hawk #hawk x tim #timhawk #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 5 months

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Why do some people act like Tim is a defenseless child? He is a middle aged man who is perfectly capable of saying no and making his own decisions.

He didn't have to go to Fire Island. He chose to go. He had the chance to leave Fire Island that first time. He chose to stay. Hawk didn't make him take the drugs. He chose to take them (and clearly that wasn't his first rodeo). He could have said no to the threesome. He chose to stay and be a participant.

Tim made those decisions all on his own. Hawk is not to blame for the choices Tim makes. Can people please stop babying Tim and start treating him like the grown man he is?

#THIS #some ppl just really annoy me in the way they refuse to acknowledge these characters' complexities #they're fucked up flawed complex beautiful ACCEPT IT #fellow travelers #tim laughlin #hawkins fuller #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 5 months

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the queer as folk (2000) to interview with the vampire (2022) to fellow travelers (2023) pipeline is so real.

we must be insane sad gay people character-enthusiasts.

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hawkfuller · 5 months

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my heart broke just from reading this... i'm so not prepared for episode 8.

The way that this episode about Hawk's grief explains so much about his explosion and denial of the facts in Tim's kitchen in the 80s.

Hawk loses it when Tim says he is dying, not just because he can't stand the idea of losing the man he has loved for 30 years, but also because last time he suffered a loss this big he nearly died. And this time he won't have his Skippy around to save him.

This show is tearing my heart into shreds 😭😭😭

#fellow travelers #ft spoilers #hawk fuller #tim laughlin #hawkins fuller #timhawk #matt bomer #jonathan bailey #tim x hawk #hawk x tim #my reblogs #my replies

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hawkfuller · 5 months

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i love them so so so much. a beacon of light & hope.

Marcus & Frankie from Fellow Travelers - 1.05 "Promise You Won't Write"

#prev tags i agree sm #fellow travelers #marcus gaines #frankie hines #jelani alladin #noah j. ricketts #marcus x frankie #frankie x marcus #marcusfrankie #we need a ship them for them too #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 5 months

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i'm dehydrated from how much they made me cry.

they’re killing me.

#fellow travelers #hawk fuller #tim laughlin #jonathan bailey #matt bomer #hawkins fuller #hawk x tim #tim x hawk #timhawk #tim hawk #we need to settle on a ship name #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 5 months

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😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i love gay people 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

JONATHAN BAILEY and MATT BOMER in Fellow Travelers: episode 2

#i am gay #who loves historical gays as much as me tbh #broken characters i love you i wish i could protect you forever #this show breaks me #fellow travelers #hawk fuller #tim laughlin #tim x hawk #hawk x tim #tim and hawk #hawkins fuller #matt bomer #jonathan bailey

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hawkfuller · 6 months

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#prettiest man ever #i'm so serious too #i'm sooo So so in love with him btw #no wonder i kin just so hard #brian kinney #qaf #queer as folk #queer as folk us #qaf us #qaf 2000 #gale harold #queer as folk 2000 #my reblogs

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hawkfuller · 8 months

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We need you to score more goals, and we need you to get in the other teams' fucking heads and drive them up the fucking wall like only you can fucking do.

#god fucking dammit #or god fucking forbid #or god fucking bless #he's so sexy #also reblogging from a iwtv x ted lasso blog woah #just like me #gifset #my reblogs #ted lasso #phil dunster #jamie tartt

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