The last entry I had in this book of random thoughts was Tin Prado. I told her I liked her and she told me she liked me too but she wasn’t looking for a serious relationship and I was and at that point I was over the era of thinking I could change a person's mind. We’re good though, I don’t even think that flirtationship lasted a month. 4 years have passed since my last entry behind this page. I guess this is a life update. I’m on my last year of law school, I have met famous lawyers, been to Supreme Court, and right now I’m studying for my Labor Review Exam. I have been dating “AA” (my Ateneo crush since 2017) for 3 years now. I really did not expect that. A pandemic happened and I haven’t gone to Subic/Olongapo in 2 years. Classes are online. I have to pet cats and a dog. I took a break from my music because of law. I no longer drink alcohol nor smoke anything, coffee is my vice. I am a believer of God but I don’t ask him for anything, I just thank him. I am not the best person in law school but I have managed to survive this worst semester while being a co-beadle and leading 3 groups. This is my life now. I am settled. 

- December 10, 2021 12:52am in my desk, studying for Labor Law Review finals. 

Diane dumped me today... tonight. An hour before I am set to travel to Manila. She said she’s in-love with Katt and it is unfair to me. Always happens to me, girls drop me to chase someone they can’t have. Dear Universe, I think I deserve some happiness.

I laid my head on the window of the moving bus to Manila, I started on the road for hours, there were trucks to close to to the bus and I didn’t mind if it collided and smashed the window I laid my head on. I don’t remember when the first tear came but it was the tear that she avoided me to cry, that’s why she ended it as early as she could. It still hurts the same though. I couldn’t process anything more than our premature finish line. Relationships aren’t supposed to have finish lines. 

When you’re in the middle of nowhere, the stars are the brightest. Now I wish that as this bus moved, you were just like a start that stayed there, that no matter which direction I went, where the bus took me, it didn’t matter. I always told Diane it’s future Diane and future Hanina’s problem. Why is the future always too soon?

I was told that I write hit songs after my heartbreaks. I wish someday I’d stop writing hit songs. 

 - Started writing at May 14, 2015 around 11 pm, finished on May 15, 2015, Friday @ Penafrancia Bus to Manila 12:14 am.