listen, I'm going to blow out all my steam in one post, this isn't going to be nice or happy.
alright so I'm so fucking lost rn, I feel like throwing everything, killing things, while also crying and wanting to be held at the same time, I don't know who I am anymore, I've followed people for so long I don't know who I am as an individual anymore. I can't find myself, and I feel like I'm always seeking attention from the people around be but they also don't understand how BADLY I need it, I just need people to tell me I'm doing good and that they like me for who I am, without me feeling like it's fake and they're saying it to make me feel better, or to make themselves feel like a better person. Sometimes I even think the closest people around me are fake, I don't know how to stop it, I can't stop thinking like this. And then I think I'm too self conscious, yet not enough self conscious st the same time, I feel like everyone either pities me or hates me sometimes, and I can't stop those thoughts, I hate people sometimes, but I need them so badly at the same time. I think I'm really gross, yet I have times where I do like myself. I think the things I do are a load of shit, and yet I have the nerve to show people because I'm a praise seeking worm. I hate the things people have done to me yet sometimes I get bad thoughts and like it. I can't stop any of this, I've been to therapy, but everytime I go I feel the need to lie, I don't know why, I don't know what's wrong with me, and I'm so sorry for posting this but I don't know what else to do, my head is just so full of thoughts it hurts, it hurts so much and I'm going to be an adult soon, and I don't know what to do at all, I don't know anything, and I can't stop anything. I just feel so useless and empty.
Joseph is now requesting a lawyer, sadly he's poorer then a church mouse, so if anyone would like to be an unpayed lawyer to mister Joestar, be would greatly appreciate it
Today, as of May 25, 2024. Joseph Joestar has been arrested for the crime of eating his plush friend Caesar Zeppeli.
Caesar was reported by plush apartment owner bun bun when Caesar didn't arrive home last night "this is the first time I haven't seen mister Zeppeli not return to his apartment! "
His last where abouts where with the convict at a Salad bar in Rome. No one has seen him since
Joseph is pleading guilty, stating "i just took my friend out to eat a Caesar salad! I'm as innocent as it gets!"
he will be held at the Plush county Jail until his court hearing
His bail is set for five dollars
If anybody has any info on the where abouts of zeppeli, or any evidence of Joseph's innocents, please come forward