"A world without trans people has never existed and never will"

Poster spotted in Olympia, WA

an aromantic person is someone who (fill in the blank here) // april 10 2024

I don't fucking know how much I might need or how often so idk how the fuck to approach him

but without the certainty idk how to continue with the doctors ugh

So as far as I can find none of my insurances cover ketamine. Which means going to the dad x_x

really hard to tell if cbd is working

So as far as I can find none of my insurances cover ketamine. Which means going to the dad x_x

really hard to tell if cbd is working

it's actually terrifying how quickly the concept of self care (originally a radical concept rooted in the black panther party's efforts to support other black ppl living through racism) became another tool of self-management which is viewed as both a moral obligation + an individual responsibility. businesses + employers + other institutions now easily wield it as a progressive way to say "if you're upset about xyz, make yourself get over it". "we are going to treat you like shit + you need to learn how to cope with that or else you're doing something wrong"

i have seen job listings where "ability to practice self care" was listed as a requirement for employment. as a case worker, we were repeatedly drilled on "self-care" as a response to unconscionably high case loads, traumatizing experiences, dead end job obligations, + poor living conditions due to subpar pay/high stress. my clients would go to appointments regarding their evictions, food insecurity, active domestic violence situations, etc + receive tips on "self care" without any tangible community, legal, or structural support to follow.

everyone absolutely deserves to care for themselves + it is useful to circulate affirmations + advice on how to do this. this should happen within communities, through a sincere concern/love for one another, as a way of helping everyone live the best life possible while we work towards total liberation. it should not be a replacement for caring for one another!!! it should be one of many ways of caring for one another!!!

ugh

The shatter is??? it's not hard and brittle it's extremely sticky like half hardened sap???

I need to buy a tool to get it out of the jar

I used a tiny plastic spoon (like a sample spoon) but couldn't get it off the spoon without using my teeth then couldn't get it off teeth.

I'm trying to get it under tongue to absorb

It also burns? tingles? stings? slightly in mouth. And tastes bad. I don't know if it's supposed to, if it's a bad batch (considering the texture seems wrong), or if it somehow has a bad chemical reaction to the plastic spoon???

I also got a full spectrum tincture. So far one dropper full isn't enough so I just tried one and a half.

I feel really sore/stiff today and like physically tired? Not sleepy just ehhhh.

idk how to do things like this

Ripley's By God, I've Become So Desensitized to The Infinite Parade of New And Ridiculous Ignominies That Comprise Modern Life That You Could Tell Me Anything And I'd Just Be Like "Sure, Fuck It"

There are no disabilities which are raised above ableism. The person in the wheelchair, the autistic person, the person with schizophrenia and the person with an invisible chronic illness may all experience society's ableism in different ways, but none of them can expect to avoid it. So the "you wouldn't say X to Y" advocacy needs to retire yesterday. They say all kinds of ableist shit to all of us and it's time to try out some actual solidarity instead of arguing about who has it slightly worse

People say “phase” like impermanence means insignificance. Show me a permanent state of the self.

we need linkedin for people who are doing nothing and going nowhere. actually i think that might already just be tumblr. post cancelled

Had my laundry picked up by the service again. Hopefully no shenanigans this time!

Ordered groceries to be delivered today orz

full spectrum cbd shatter should also be delivered today 🤞

idk life tired pain

Okay it's morning and I think this new elastic bandage is hurting my skin x_x

it's thicker, not as breathable

you know how sometimes wrinkles in clothes will embed in your skin? Feels like that but ow. plus like hair

x_x

Day... 11? I think?

Bought some new elastic bandage wraps and these aren't self-adhesive like the others were so maybe they won't scrunch up?

+2" definitely too wide. Hell without the scrunching up 2" might be too wide.

Also these adhere with velcro and I have the option for multiple layers. Idk if I should do that or not. I'm tempted to go to extremes, but also I don't want my skull to pop like a watermelon...

I wish I had a doctor who could take a crack at helping me figure out the best way to do this. But ya know I wish a lot of things.

ugh

so I stopped the tiz altogether

and it was kinda the only drug that forces the body to sleep.

like it would make me sleepy enough to force me to put down my phone and turn off YouTube and take my glasses off and go to sleep

now anything I try really only works if I deliberately close my eyes and try to sleep

and even then I can't seem to fall asleep on my back??? which is the least painful position, though also kinda not comfortable

anyway it's 1am and my usual bedtime routine is no more and idk how to go to sleep

part of the problem is pain. but also it's really really difficult for me to just. Stop. You know?

cbd might arrive "today". I also ordered groceries and sent my laundry to the laundromat \o/

Day... 11? I think?

Bought some new elastic bandage wraps and these aren't self-adhesive like the others were so maybe they won't scrunch up?

+2" definitely too wide. Hell without the scrunching up 2" might be too wide.

Also these adhere with velcro and I have the option for multiple layers. Idk if I should do that or not. I'm tempted to go to extremes, but also I don't want my skull to pop like a watermelon...

I wish I had a doctor who could take a crack at helping me figure out the best way to do this. But ya know I wish a lot of things.

day 10 of skull wrap

Not sure these assorted colors ones are good quality – might want to actually look at the reviews/ratings instead of buying the cheapest lol

also wondering if I should be using wider ones? I've been using 2inch width and they tend to get scrunched up into a tiny round mass of ace bandage, which I keep trying to fix all day. Would 3 or 4 inch wide ones not do that??

definitely feel dizzy and queasy when I take it off. Not sure if it's causing any extra headache or not.

I fell asleep all by myself. not a single one of my homies cuddling me. I was wrapped in zero people's arms. does anyone else think that's kinda fucked up????