Hi!

Guys, I’m sorry that my awful knowledge of English led to a strange misunderstanding, so that the previous post made you feel guilty. I’m trying to say that I’m not the kind of person that can be forced to do something against my will! Therefore such requests from the fandom can’t upset me or make me feel obligated. You totally don’t need to worry about it! I’m fine! This comment had a slightly different meaning. I meant that people who want to ask me to draw something in the future should not waste my and theirs time. In the 99% of cases I’ll refuse anyway. Guys, please, understand that I don’t have a lot of free time, and when it happens to appear, I draw only what I want. This is my way to relax and rest! @19daysruinedmylife was lucky. She was in the right place at the right time))) I really wanted to do this, but this happens once in a blue moon 😆

she li in the audience like: damn this shit kinda good

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original meme from Kadeart on twitter

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Happy bday OX!!

quarantine kagehina (pt 7: camouflage) 🥸

He Tian being a dumb loser in love and his angry smol fox ♡♡♡

omg TianShan Actor AU where the 19 days story itself is a long running tv show, the actors are over 18 but look young enough for the roles and 

1. He Tian’s actor is secretly head over heels for Mo’s actor but hasn’t confessed in an effort to remain professional and not wanting to scare him off because he’s not sure he feels the same way … yet :D

2. Mo’s actor is literally the sweetest boi (is basically Mo without the anger - well at least on the surface anyway :3) and is so so so beautiful irl T~T

3. They do interviews tgt where interviewers constantly talk about their incredible chemistry and how they look so good together, but then every time this happens Mo’s actor will always laugh it off and say ‘we are just good colleagues/friends’ and He Tian’s actor will smile and laugh along but he’d always look at Mo in these moments and you can’t tell if he’s just going along with this because he agrees or if he’s just trying to suppress his feelings until Mo’s actor is ready (ofc it’s the latter!!!!) 

4. He Tian’s actor has a LOT of fangirls, just like He Tian. He is a classic male lead that gets cast in a lot of romance and action movies opposite the most beautiful actresses. Almost every time he has any interaction with his female costar there’s dating rumours everywhere on the press but he only has eyes for Mo’s actor T~T

5. Mo’s actor has his fair share of fangirls but he also has a ton of fanboys because he does a LOT of sci-fi/action thriller movies. He often plays young gang members and troubled youths.

6. They both model a lot

7. He Tian’s actor is willing to wait until the show ends before he escalates his pursuit <3 <3 During the show, he tries his best to stay professional and only does things to optimise him and Mo’s actor’s ability to portray the onscreen relationship that the director wants

8. Because of this he hates scenes where there is tension or physical altercations between their characters and he’ll try his best to make Mo’s actor feel as comfortable and safe with him as possible

9. He’ll always give Mo’s actor his personal space when he senses that he needs it before or after a particularly emotional scene

10. When he thinks the other person’s ready, he’ll go up to them and ask how he’s feeling etc. and sometimes they’d embrace AHHH and Mo really appreciates but for some reason he keeps at a safe distance

11. In these moments, He Tian’s actor just wants to say, ‘You know I’m never going to hurt you, right?’ but then he just ends up not saying anything

12. When they first met, Mo’s actor was really nice and open, but he was intimidated by the A-listness of He Tian’s actor, so the latter made it one of his priorities to make the other feel at ease and equal to himself

13. Mo’s actor is intensely private and extremely professional all the time, but he’s also up for shits and giggles to get along with other colleagues

14. Mo’s actor has been pretty oblivious because He Tian’s actor is spectacularly good at hiding his feelings. He doesn’t even know if He Tian’s actor likes guys but suspects he’d be open to experimentation.

15. To be honest he actively avoids thinking about He Tian’s actor just because he is secretly scared of what he might find out about his own feelings towards the other person :oooooooooooooo and the last thing he wants to do is to endanger his professional reputation and relationships by going down that road

omg TianShan Actor AU where the 19 days story itself is a long running tv show, the actors are over 18 but look young enough for the roles and 

1. He Tian’s actor is secretly head over heels for Mo’s actor but hasn’t confessed in an effort to remain professional and not wanting to scare him off because he’s not sure he feels the same way … yet :D

2. Mo’s actor is literally the sweetest boi (is basically Mo without the anger - well at least on the surface anyway :3) and is so so so beautiful irl T~T

3. They do interviews tgt where interviewers constantly talk about their incredible chemistry and how they look so good together, but then every time this happens Mo’s actor will always laugh it off and say ‘we are just good colleagues/friends’ and He Tian’s actor will smile and laugh along but he’d always look at Mo in these moments and you can’t tell if he’s just going along with this because he agrees or if he’s just trying to suppress his feelings until Mo’s actor is ready (ofc it’s the latter!!!!) 

4. He Tian’s actor has a LOT of fangirls, just like He Tian. He is a classic male lead that gets cast in a lot of romance and action movies opposite the most beautiful actresses. Almost every time he has any interaction with his female costar there’s dating rumours everywhere on the press but he only has eyes for Mo’s actor T~T

5. Mo’s actor has his fair share of fangirls but he also has a ton of fanboys because he does a LOT of sci-fi/action thriller movies. He often plays young gang members and troubled youths.

6. They both model a lot

7. He Tian’s actor is willing to wait until the show ends before he escalates his pursuit <3 <3 During the show, he tries his best to stay professional and only does things to optimise him and Mo’s actor’s ability to portray the onscreen relationship that the director wants

8. Because of this he hates scenes where there is tension or physical altercations between their characters and he’ll try his best to make Mo’s actor feel as comfortable and safe with him as possible

9. He’ll always give Mo’s actor his personal space when he senses that he needs it before or after a particularly emotional scene

10. When he thinks the other person’s ready, he’ll go up to them and ask how he’s feeling etc. and sometimes they’d embrace AHHH and Mo really appreciates but for some reason he keeps at a safe distance

11. In these moments, He Tian’s actor just wants to say, ‘You know I’m never going to hurt you, right?’ but then he just ends up not saying anything

12. When they first met, Mo’s actor was really nice and open, but he was intimidated by the A-listness of He Tian’s actor, so the latter made it one of his priorities to make the other feel at ease and equal to himself

13. Mo’s actor is intensely private and extremely professional all the time, but he’s also up for shits and giggles to get along with other colleagues

14. Mo’s actor has been pretty oblivious because He Tian’s actor is spectacularly good at hiding his feelings. He doesn’t even know if He Tian’s actor likes guys but suspects he’d be open to experimentation.

15. To be honest he actively avoids thinking about He Tian’s actor just because he is secretly scared of what he might find out about his own feelings towards the other person :oooooooooooooo and the last thing he wants to do is to endanger his professional reputation and relationships by going down that road

yeah… i just leave this here… | pose ref: the pawn’s revenge (evy)

It’s stupid. The entire situation. It’s— no, He Tian is stupid. Yeah, that’s better. That just sounds better.

He Tian is stupid.

How many more times will Guan Shan find himself like this? Straddled, a knee on his chest or framing his flank, a flush like a geyser flooding his neck, burning his skin. Guan Shan wondered when he became so used to being touched like this — and then he realized with the same numb sort of feeling you get when you’ve hit your head and shake out the stars that he isn’t getting used to being touched, he’s getting used to being touched by He Tian.

The distinction is very different. Very important. It’s how he can differentiate the gaze of silvered snake eyes from shameless grey-blue ones on the train. It’s how he knows to avoid the hand with the beaded bracelet around the wrist, and how to fall into the one that has a thin scar like a canyon spanning across the palm. He’s never been very good at avoiding plunges into ravines. And yet...

Touched by He Tian. The phrase would make some blush; it’d make others frown, wondering if that was even a possibility. He Tian, touching someone? No, the boy is an enigma. He’s a person you avoid eye contact with in the hallways. He doesn’t touch anyone. Except, apparently, he does, he touches Guan Shan, and he does it often.

Touched by He Tian. Who initiated it anyway? Is Guan Shan to blame for this— this relationship they’ve got? Did his bared teeth and swollen pride beckon the cruel hand that punched his gut until he swallowed bile and made him a free dinner? The same hand that now cradles the back of his neck because He Tian can be kind enough to protect his head as he threw Guan Shan to the bushes and pinned him too easily?

Touched by He Tian. Oh, god, he’s being touched by He Tian. He’s being touched by He Tian. Guan Shan looks up at him while twigs tug at his hair and suddenly wants to smooth his thumb over the angry red scratch on his eyebrow again. He’s being touched by He Tian, and he wants to touch He Tian more. Their fingers are brushing where He Tian has taken the wrinkled band-aid from him. It’s featherlight; barely there. It’ll never be enough.

“Can I kiss you?”

Oh. A smile. That’s…

He Tian’s asking to touch him more. Differently.

That wouldn’t be enough. No, no no, that’d be too much. That’d be something Guan Shan can’t handle right now. He couldn’t imagine doing that. He can’t do that. He won’t do that.

(But he wants to kiss He Tian. Wants to know what it’s like to — to kiss the hallway enigma and know that he’s the only one in the whole school that'd be allowed to do it. He’s selfish like that. Competitive like that. He’s fifteen and stupid, too.)

But... that’s strange. The thought is weird and makes his ears burn. He doesn’t understand himself.

So he pulls away his hand — no more touching, his soul whispers — and yells, “Fuck off! Get— get off me, asshole!”

It’s easier to say than if you touch me more I think I might shatter, and I don’t know if I can handle being responsible for any more scars on your body.

And He Tian, stupid and smiling above him (oh god) — laughs.

had to come put of my hiatus just to

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He Tian and Mo Guan Shan at the very beginning of their relationship ~ The first kiss initiated by Brother Mo.

Mo Guan Shan seeing Jian Yi and Zhan XiXi:

Jian Yi and Zhan XiXi:

Thoughts that keep me awake at night...

Do you think Mo doesn't like bugs because he use to live in an infested apartment and no matter how much his mom cleaned there was no way to get rid of the bugs????

Do you think Mo eats like this because when he was little people took his lunch away so he needed to eat fast before someone came?? Also do you think this is why he doesn't like to share food?? What if they just took the food and then leave him the leftovers?

Do you think he's a scaredy cat because he was often left alone at home when his mom needed to work??

I don't know...

He Tian getting jealous that Mo Guan Shan is talking someone handsome than him?

PS: Sorry this took a while! I was busy working on my other fics >.<

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