i’ll build a better world. one that deserves you.

let me build a shrine for your lies

Secondhand smoke

recently my dad has been nicer to me but unfortunately i think i've been hurt by him too many times to see him as safe & to feel anything but pain when he speaks to me. i want to change that but for now at least i can't. all the years of never feeling enough for him has truly worn on me. he's not really my superhero anymore...

me being trans/ queer has nothing to do with it. it's rather my environment & being broke. i'm so frustrated with my life right now i could scream but i don't wanna hear my voice!!!

it's not fair to myself that i keep forcing myself to do regular shit & i'm deeply hurt & depressed. i can't function normally because i'm not in a normal mental state. i'm fucked up & i'm expecting too much from myself!!

it's not fair to myself that i keep forcing myself to do regular shit & i'm deeply hurt & depressed. i can't function normally because i'm not in a normal mental state. i'm fucked up & i'm expecting too much from myself!!

Shakespeare turning in his grave knowing he wasn't the one who created Satosugu

Beautiful Scars

Redbubble

maybe instead of crying i'll just practice the bass...

haha i think i'm actually going to cry now. how pathetic.

i truly love people so deeply, i hate having this heart. everything hurts me so much. especially when i barely get the love back. i want to be loved the way i love but people just hurt me.

i was so excited that she accepted me or at least told me she did only to find out that she was mocking me like her mother did her. she said some pretty hurtful shit which did pierce my heart because i was bragging about her acceptance, using it as a boost....i confronted her about it & she made it seem like she didn't mean it that way. but i know she did. i guess we made up tho but my heart still hurts.

my mom so mean to me lol.

my mom so mean to me lol.

i used to think this thought process was linked to some undisclosed trauma from my childhood that i hadn't fully mentally explored but now i'm seeing the light & i kinda want to find a switch.

i don't think i care too much for vaginal penetration, i never did tbh. it always felt weird to me even when i tried toys. idk if it's just dysphoria & that maybe when i'm on t things'll change. like maybe i won't tense up as much & literally reject anything that tries to go inside me.

i don't think i care too much for vaginal penetration, i never did tbh. it always felt weird to me even when i tried toys. idk if it's just dysphoria & that maybe when i'm on t things'll change. like maybe i won't tense up as much & literally reject anything that tries to go inside me.

i love them so much 🥰

more satosugu 🥺

i'll never be man enough for her isn't that fucking hilarious 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

ready to jack off but also waiting on my pussy to stop bleeding 😤