the beloved government designed superweapon

I really appreciate the PTSD representation of Kabru Dungeon Meshi because very often traumatized characters end up leaning heavily into the "flight" portion of "fight or flight" but the reality is, many of us get pissed off when we're scared, or have the urge to hit back when we're triggered. It's easy to understand why: a scared person is easy to empathize with. An angry person--a violent person--is less so.

I have PTSD and it's taken a long time for me to get comfortable with the anger that wells up when I'm afraid. Like Kabru, when I get triggered, there's an immediate wash of, I'm going to fucking kill them.

Like Kabru, I never act on this impulse. It's just there in my brain, trying to take control, so it can protect me.

When Kabru is triggered and thinks, desperately, Maybe I should kill him! in order to avoid eating monsters, the scene is played for laughs. But under the inherent comedy of the moment (which I can recognize even if I can't make myself laugh along) is the reality that Kabru is deeply traumatized and is trying to manage his emotions so he doesn't endanger his relationships. For Kabru, a character built to maneuver with ease around the social interactions of humanoids (using the DnD term here), his past is not just a justification for his desire to close the dungeon; it's not just a way to create tension with Laios; it's not just an avenue for him to connect with the Canaries. Kabru's past and his lack of coping with it actively sabotages his relationships and even puts him at renewed risk, just like real PTSD! And I just think that's neat! sob.

Atom Eve (tried to make it as clean as I could)

And a really messy mark

Anyway. Anime people now know what I mean when I say that Kabru is clearly re-traumatising himself at every turn. It's because he thinks he has to in order to Win at Dungeon, but its also in my opinion without a doubt a form of self-harm. He suffers from a lot of survivor's guilt. He feels like he has to justify his survival of Utaya by stopping the catastrophe from happening again, or die trying, and it doesn't matter how much he further damages himself in the attempt. He's been revived several times, and we see how his clothes look big on him. His flashbacks to Utaya are vivid and frequent. He's lying and being manipulative to Laios, but in a way that costs him a lot as well.

Rough day for Mark

in your arms again

I don't think this is s2 part B spoilers since he was introduced before the break, BUT YES GIVE MARK A LIL BRO FR. He's such a good big brother istg, he saw this baby and instantly bonded, like just let him have a normal happy life please!!! Let him be happy in general istg.

My boy

New ep. every thursday :)))

Scott McCloud’s incomparable “Understanding Comics”.

I swear you can open this book to any page and it’s amazing.

(ps it’s actually a digital image of a printed copy of a drawing of a painting of a pipe)

so trans people should just be allowed to murder whoever they want?

your brain could revolve inside a peanut shell for a thousand years without touching the sides

Save me mentally disturbed half alien teenager

Mark and Oliver redraw in my style :) I love them sksksjididieiw

“tumblr made me feel bad for being a man :’(” listen, no one’s holding you here, you’re free to log off at any time and enter the rest of the world where mediocre men are praised for anything and everything they do

like honestly it reeks of “tumblr is making me aware of the crap men do and demanding that i take responsibility and work on my misogyny & that makes me uncomfortable :/”

and instead of, ykno, working on yourself so you can look at those posts and go “that’s true, men do that and i do my best to unlearn this behaviour, call it out in others and otherwise support women” you hit up random women to console you because owning up to anything is outside of your male comfort zone

feel like ppl are getting meaner and it's weird to see

more dunmeshi character sketches

but wouldn't it be nice