while i was outside today i passed by this house and saw a cat pawing at this door and i got so upset about it >:( I've seen a bunch of lost pets posters and its usually because people don't properly keep said pets inside the house, and i've warned someone before about not watching their pet when it wanders even a little bit away from their home. and right here in front of me was someone going as far as keeping their cat out!

so i rang the bell and knocked on the door until somebody came to open the door and the cat immediately went inside. I started to helpfully warn them about likely it is for even pets to wander away when you're not looking! ........but then they say this cat is a stray that just appeared at their doorstep. 😺😐 whoops. well then i just went 'okay' and left them to deal with that ‍👋🚶

I haven't read an actual real book in so long. I'm so the opposite of well-read now 😶 And I used to be type to like carry a book with me just so I might have an excuse to be seen with it and so i can come off as a bookish and well-read type 😩 Nowadays it's like I'm scared of paper and big words, and the only literature I might pick up are cookbooks (which I then don't even use!)

until the very end, I will believe renmerry can win over fate 🥺📣

physically slapped the phone out of my own hand when I thought about downloading a new idle game.... ✋️💢

that post that was like mediocre but compelling media will haunt you forever is too true. i'll spend the rest of my life thinking about some obscure or one-off show or game, or even just one single small part of the above that happened to hook me. I think this is the true power and beauty of (kinda mid) art 😌...

i'm often occupied and when im not busy i'm often tired or sad, so i've not really indulged in fic writing much at all. yet i think i have no choice but to whittle away at scenes until i one day write them all out because they will bubble in my mind forever otherwise and i shall never be at peace 😐. So i think even if it takes years upon years, and if even by then nobody i know (including myself) is into touhou anymore, i will have no choice but to keep at it until i get these stories out of my head 🧠📝🔥

got suddenly really nostalgic about rune factory 4 today, because i suddenly recalled the scattered memory i have of many years ago when i first learned about the game by coming across it i think in a magazine in some store? and specifically the part about it i distinctly recall was when it mentioned that after beating certain boss monsters, they then become humans you get to know and can date. and i thought that at the time that was really really neat 😲

however I didn't actually buy or play rune factory 4 until like, half a decade later. And then for various reasons i only got like a third of the way through the game before putting it down? And then i went back to it like another half a decade later.

and during this whole stretch of time, probably because of that first experience i had from seeing that magazine, i still kinda only think of the four datable boss monsters has the only romance options? even though i've always known there are like twelve 😅 Like from so early on, i decided that idea was so cool to me that every other option seemed boring in comparison. (but i've seen most of their stories on youtube so its fine 🍿📺)

i played blue reflection a couple months back, a rpg about a high school magical girl, and I think my fondest and strongest memory from it was the very first instance of starting up the game and sitting at the title screen. And I know that sounds like a joke, like im gonna follow up with 'and it was all downhill from there lol!!!' but genuinely the track that plays upon booting it up is really good and sets the tone and atmosphere of the whole thing so well that i really did just bask in the plain white title screen for a good long while before pressing any buttons

(really, the soundtrack was doing 90% of the work in carrying the presentation I feel...)

anyway, the game has a relaxed pace, a simple gameplay loop, and has too many scenes of schoolgirls with their clothes transparent from the rain among other things. But after it was done i was interested enough to check out the anime spin-off, and I also would like to check out the sequel game but it costs like a hundred dollars and i dont believe in my crummy laptop's ability to 🏴‍☠️ it so who knows 🤷‍♀️

simply not enough time in the day to make posts about whatever animal I spotted on a given day 😴

If you want to help with esims for Gaza but are overwhelmed by the info and process, here are two options where you can just donate money:

- Venmo @gothhabiba, her venmo is her url, @gothhabiba. Put "esims" in the "for" category.

- Donate to Crips for eSims for Gaza

havent read a touhou doujin in some time. That's how I know I'm in a bad state

tumblr posts (or maybe some of these were tweets, I don't remember) that have and continue to involuntarily emerge in my mind during any point of the day include but not limited to:

baby snoopy punching baby clifford

da meaning of life!

basketball 2

wendy wiliams discusses the tournament from tekken

first page of the cheetah girls book

If I start falling out of one mobage it seems I inevitably pick up or get back into another to fill the void in me that needs easy stimulation 😑 Evidenced by how I was up until like 3am playing umamusume last night 🐴 I get why this game made a gazllion dollars, its a Numbers Go Up app at heart and also has a hundred different smaller digital fidget toy functions in it, between the races, the concerts, the crane game and so on...

Outside of bots I think i can only recall the instances I've used the block function on either tumblr or twitter on one hand (though there might be stray occasions over the decade I just forgot)... But perhaps natural for me who only ever posted once a blue moon to begin with but since my browsing is pretty relaxed to begin with, I don't do it much. (Though I wonder how different my experience things would be if I were the type to imstantly block when i see any and all fandom takes i don't like hmm...)

Anyhow on twitter i only recall one time was when someone ive never seen before sent me a DM that was kinda rude for a first impression but I was gonna let it slide and I checked their account on a whim, and I think I didn't need to scroll far before seeing some tweet along the lines of 'wish more artists would draw ******* but this country's too woke unlike japan' or something. My hand hovered to the block button pretty quick. Then on tumblr I like to sometimes briefly check blogs that follow me, and semi recently this one touhou-looking blog I swear the very first post on the page of theirs was a reblogged text post about how 'if you're gay and support palestine you must like getting tortured' so that was also an easy decision.

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Crayon Doodle: Heart pika

i didn't think to post about it at the time but last week I bought a jar of nutella from a store because i hadn't had it in a long time. Now, I don't know if there's necessarily correlation here, but on the day I ate some bread with it, later that night i woke up with terrible stomach pains. as in I went to the toilet ready to puke but instead just ended up spending like ten minutes sprawled on the bathroom floor in pain 😨