i didnt know whether i was hearing correctly, when someone told me about christian 'form criicism'. ther e had always beeen such emplhais on good mannners' in ths church. som e p eopl e think thats all of ethics. if we consider china , we get the 'great form, 'which is realllly nothing a t alll, freedom, honesty. in china,one becomes popular by not trying to be. if 'the 'valley spirit has not died. and being like water, going to lowly places.

'what is truth'? prescence' , said Suhawardi. and how do we know it? we simply read off th e sense-data', according to Aristothle. thats empiricism, 'the correspondence theory of truth' . now, Suhawrdi does say we can do 'direct apprehension.. its less abstraact, , less mechanical. hes less clear no w about just what he means.. but were getting away from purity and consiousness. he said from the beginning that if we were just 'discuriv'e', to not even bother with his more personal, secretive, and oblique speulations. he was the one ,who held the planets would rquire 100,000 lights to trace out their complex course acoss the sky. could some insect do that? no, i dont think so ; the job would be botched, but, a minute, sensitive living thing could directly apprehend something like a sigh of love, a s distinguishedm fromm a sign of desire. Aristole began a proof by a definition, a categoy; we know things by their cateory. that makes him 'abstract'. thatn is what HAMAS in theb Middlen aEast is not! bothn Aridstole and GWF HEGEL are whatn THE EARLY MARX calllled 'abstact', whereas tthat wild craziesess, is insane and theyn re both identical to Islamic Mysticism. intuiton .or 'mentalm lllnesss.

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doubt is the heaviest thing. it makes eveything problematic . even to know the simplest thing about myself seems easy. then i see you, an d i dont know what i'm capable of. this is callled the Problem of Evil. i used to believe man is basicly good..now i see, we always want more. this is the darkness. 'dark barriers' or 'shadowy' things. alll because, God, the orginial consciousnesss, manifested Himsef as light' ; and he wa s stilll pure as light, at first. Then with each step away from being Pure Consciousnrsss, God, light lost its original innocence; for it is light, or God ,or what have you, which all heavenly entities , including our souls, are all orginally composed of; so, God , the Father, in Christianity, for example, is just a different parcel of light than Christ the Son. in the schemata of Plotinus, the different positions are much different. they enabled me to see that its taking on a job , that is not your position that is the problem. that causes evil. it was Al-Ghazali who pointed out that the 'particlar' ,corn , for example, is yellowish, or can be known. but it is this whole realm of entities below the moon in Ptomelry Astromeny,, that all the Islamists see as having properties. another thing is that just as all heavenly entiies are made of light, all earthly ones are made of mattter. i just want to say somethig about depression, sorrow and doubt: it ceases when you finallly acknowledge what set it off in the first place. non-linguistic signs!

i mean doubt! not discursive doubt, , but intuitive pure, inner inspirational doubt. almost a fear, Apprehension, reallly. Suhawardi had spoken of Lights an d a Light of Lights; and then Al-Ghazali of his scepticism being ended by a ray of light from God. the opposite of fear and doubt is confidence and illumination , so exitence has its dark side. in fact ,Suhawardi speaks of matter being 'a dark barrier' and 'domminering' lights. we know there are opposites, whether , these opposites, and the universe itself, are real or not', we dont know, at this stage. we simply percieve or apprehend them. Suhawardi himself held existence to be a judgment of our minds. but, to go insane, lose your mind, have no reason, is very painful. i kno w , ive beeen there. its also humiliating. even though others dont know whats going on either, they, too doubt, and try to figure things out. what are we trying to figure out? what is the meaning of it all? what does it mean when Ibn Sina spoke of 'Hints and 'Allusions', or his belief that Allah does not know particulars? i think theyre telling us the unpopular truth. its the Unconscious! it is the Unconscuious that is always revealled, or 'unvieled' , whether Deity or other human beings. now, even though Deity doesnt exist, therev is Consciousnesss, mind ,, reason. & mysticism 'unveillled' Deity and 'tasted' .....it was Ibn Arabi who wrote that, so ill say say, tasted her! now, this is sexual. i know it, what else could i t be? two sexual metaphors " : undressing and oral sex!

THE ODESSA FILE, or is it, SEPT 26, 3 AM MARKINGS? i wanted to mention girls, females, before; the battle between good and evil makes such a discussion imperative. a police offficier has fallen, , and Trump attended the funeral.Mr Trump was talkng about 'respect'. that's Averroes in Islamic philosophy. Averroes establishes a hiearchy of understanding, a certain scale or rating of intelligence. if you can't grasp abstract metaphysics, reason, there is always respect for authority. looking at my cube-system, there is reason at he top, it is in charge, then below that is the Will;,, the will respects or obeys the laws, or the products, results, of reasoning. the mind is Buddhist Non -Desire, and the body is what? universal desire. so, the mind rules th e body through the willl. and there is happinesss when the population respects and obey s the police.

we were talking about Suhwardi, the Islamic philosopher of intuition and to stop doubling it. there's 'discursive reason and then , when i finally used my own reason, ''intuitive reason'. in the West, there was Descartes, but Suhwardi was murdered about the time of The Crusades. my interpetaton of his doubt is the same as of Descartes: and i went a long time doubting. the reason was not God,, nor am a sceptic of Reason; in fact im a dogmatic atheist. the fundamental thing i dont doubt is that mysticism is the same thing as mental illness. i used to ask people, everywhere and all the time, ' did you hear that, people influence each other'? then i would get scared, and run away from my own senses. it's a protracted process, gettng acquainted with our own desires. its a little scary, if Truth is Abberation, to a lot of people. that whole queston of the relyablity of the senses is meaningless. how sad. my family is like that. Mahatan Ghandhi believed in a substance, a medium occuying the space between us.or even someone as logical as Ibn Sina believed in emantions in the air from the celeestia intelligences . now i dont believe in planets that are perfect, but i do think, consciousness is perfect, wont last forever.

THE ODESSA FILE. im still not sure of this site, but whatever. i had been saying, we were in a boxcar, and i was a little worried about food. my roommate gave me another ice-cream and is acting friendly. in my mind, we re hitching a ride to hear a speaker; the setting here is the near -future, a negative utopia, a distopia. not that many people work any more. why? you dont have to; i mentioned Matama Ghandhi, there is a lot of fighting going on. the event we're attending is going to present some of his ideas. i once studied 'non-violent resistence' intensively, but, that principle, like socialism, doesn't work. why? what i think Suhwardi called 'intuition'.

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THE ODESSA FILE they said, i fell, then that something happened in my sleep. i just sent the girl away. i remember thinking about the four rightly guided Califs, before going to sleep last night. who are the Nazis? liberals or reactionaries? i just read the BBC about Trump and his bond; resentment. its obvious, the new dems dont judge the rich, but envy and resent them.

That's my old room down stairs , where they moved me, after this William, who was my even older roommate, attacked me; and there's my leg after he kicked me and punched me, before the aides finally intervened. Now I'm on an different floor, entirely. I'm not sure what happened, did my second roommate, Joe Pinto complain , or did it have to me two days ago giving Linda Delaparieo, I think it is, my Twitter, now X, user name? More racketeering, by Crystal lake health staff, or what? The psych nurses and aides had been soliciting Joe to do something to me, like that toilet seat off, and there's the coffee from wawas they got him. Even some other

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That guy on the right, finally restraining William my old roommate, after he kicked me sev e ral times, I saw coming out of the next room down, after I finished breakfast this morning. I can't get his name yet, but the other aide is Kai. That was three days ago, I was moved and I haven't seen William in the lunchroom since; no one will tell me whether he's been moved off the floor, and Amanda Heim ,the supervisor, was up here before that. When I asked her about it, she jumped in the elevator, saying, ' I'm off, now". " I'm trying to get these people to stop seizing my computers, for what I write" I said. John, the nurse last night , threatened to take this tablet , again, and another guy here threatened to call the police , because he thought I took a picture of him"! That guy was this same individual on the right; and now the photos on my laptop are not working. See the connecting doors in the bathroom? That's the room he came out of, and I guess he also took the toilet seat; it was there before I went to breakfast. It's been broken since I got here. I asked that same Donna , who wouldn't give me mouthwash , soap and skin- creme , to tell maintenence about it , and the light that went out yesterday, and the fact that someone keeps putting my bed up on its wheels, so it will move and slide ,and I might fall. No one ever came up. This is a new tablet, another aide, Ivonne, seized my old one for writing or saying something she didn't like, and she dropped it, shattered the screen and wouldn't pay for it. Crystal lake health isn't racketeering?

The Who - Won’t Get Fooled Again (Shepperton Studios / 1978) i was down at the front desk trying to get ice, when i contrasted how the courts  were treating  Cardi B, Hunter & Joe Biden to Donald Trump; when an aide here shut me down  for racism. it seems we’re losing the right of  free-speech: don’t say anything against a black person , or that the election was not fair! i had just read in the news , that Rahul Ghandhi ban on participating in politics for making jokes about prime minister’s name , ‘Modi’, in India, had been lifted . Modi is also the name of a people -group, and Modi, like the Bidens is corrupt.i had my computer tablet in my lap in case anyone hits me, as my roommate had two days ago. i had got several pictures of him approaching me, his facial mien twisted with hate and my leg bloody in two places, and had posted them. suddenly an old white guy  pushed my wheelchair into the cleaning girl’s cart there. was he trying to break the tablet? probably, ive described this place, Crystal Lake Health, Bayville , n j , recently online as ‘racketeering’ , the instilling of fear in someone to make  them comply to your will, or there are consequences, exactly  what Donald Trump is being charged with. breaking my tablet would be a consequence, my roommate’s attack was another consequence and the cook, Juan  Castile not giving me enough food is a further consequence. there’s even a female aide ,Donna , here, who won’t give me clean clothes, make the bed , or even supply me with soap, mouthwash and skincreme when i asked. racketeering! and i think i know why now; the Democratic Party is setting the  example that taking away freedom of speech is progressive!  the Communists , did the same thing; it doesn’t work. already residents here are starting to object  to this tyranny.

The Who - Won't Get Fooled Again (Shepperton Studios / 1978) i was down at the front desk trying to get ice, when i contrasted how the courts  were treating  Cardi B, Hunter & Joe Biden to Donald Trump; when an aide here shut me down  for racism. it seems we’re losing the right of  free-speech: don’t say anything against a black person , or that the election was not fair! i had just read in the news , that Rahul Ghandhi ban on participating in politics for making jokes about prime minister’s name , ‘Modi’, in India, had been lifted . Modi is also the name of a people -group, and Modi, like the Bidens is corrupt.i had my computer tablet in my lap in case anyone hits me, as my roommate had two days ago. i had got several pictures of him approaching me, his facial mien twisted with hate and my leg bloody in two places, and had posted them. suddenly an old white guy  pushed my wheelchair into the cleaning girl’s cart there. was he trying to break the tablet? probably, ive described this place, Crystal Lake Health, Bayville , n j , recently online as ‘racketeering’ , the instilling of fear in someone to make  them comply to your will, or there are consequences, exactly  what Donald Trump is being charged with. breaking my tablet would be a consequence, my roommate’s attack was another consequence and the cook, Juan  Castile not giving me enough food is a further consequence. there’s even a female aide ,Donna , here, who won’t give me clean clothes, make the bed , or even supply me with soap, mouthwash and skincreme when i asked. racketeering! and i think i know why now; the Democratic Party is setting the  example that taking away freedom of speech is progressive!  the Communists , did the same thing; it doesn’t work. already residents here are starting to object  to this tyranny.

crystal lake health, bayville, n j , 08721. is like belarus under lushenko; living in the past. one resident threw another old resident out of his chair and started kicking him; that was good with them. he was bothering him, asking  a lot of stupid questions , they said. the old guy had to get himself up and was rudely ordered to go to his  room. before that, an aide was kicking me in the toilet and when i asked why , he said because i was an asshole. after a year fighting i finally  got them to give me some of my money on a debit card; but now they wont reload  it. insufficient  food from  the cook , won’t do a thing about it; two nights ago , no diner, this morning , ice cold eggs and a bowl of  oatmeal. hes  mad because i mocked him on social media; they all are. yesterday, ed, the ,maintence man put my new tablet offline, the search engine , so i had  to switch to the manufacturers search engine. that’s when i realized  that someone had probably also hacked my phone. it suddenly was on audio talk at 600%  speed  and was unusuable. that’s four phones now they’ve sabotaged. no clean clothes  in five days ,broken glasses  for a year; won’t get me new ones, or answer my question, why the residents here aren’t allowed in each other’s rooms. its a  dictatorship , and like lushenko based on the past.  supposedly i’ m  ‘mentally ill’; am i ?  what’s  ‘Dialectics’? Fredrich Engels ,Karl Marx’s collaborator? ‘when we consider our own intellectual activity as a whole, we see an endless entanglement of realations and reactions’. that’s the truth, truth is schizophrenia? can’t see the doctor, forced to take psych meds , which is illegal.this is not a mental hospital.Dialectics is the opposite of the old Metaphysical point of view, according to which things are to be considered separately and apart from each  other, fixed, given , eternal. they’re reactionaries, this psychiatry. marxism is  scientific at least in theory ; its  Materialism , people have needs and feelings,  they mutually attract. we come together , are connected ; we change and evolve; people really don’t have stable identities. these people ,like Lunshenko , are insecure, they are afraid of change  and in denial of their own senses!

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The Way and its mystery" - the Tao Te Ching: ' dimly perceived, not really there". What is mental illness, if not confusion? Extreme, Supreme confusion , but not really an illness , like cancer , at all. For example, the ancient Greek and Roman Skeptics, who said truth is impossible or David Hume, who said the law of cause and effect was only two disconnected sensations or sensations of people acting cruelly do not constitute the concept of " vicious"? He has all the necessary material sensations , but can't reach the abstract conclusion, that the sensations are " vicious'. In the Skeptic, Stoic dispute, there were three levels, according to Cicero: the sensation, our assent to the sensation, and the propositonal content of the " cognitive impression", the cognitive impression is the sensation , after we assent to it, that it is exactly what is there! Why doubt all our sense impressions? Some are problematic , others evident. There is no reason to believe a true impression is indistinguishable from a false one.

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there’s this one psychiatric nurse here, who just keeps getting uglier and uglier; there really is such a thing as karma. she is totally depraved, sick and illogical, and it’s gone to her body. her facial mien is distorted, or  should i say, twisted, with disgruntlement . she really looks like she has indigestion, and she ‘s getting fatter and fatter. she’s so dissatisfied that she doesn’t have enough power. here is like feudal Russia or the segregated  south was in the United States or Nazi Germany: a complete government over-reach. ever hear of freedom, i ask them? they’re like the Biden Administration; completely incompetent! i’ve  never seen the doctor, he or she relies on the nurses and aides here to report on us, our conduct or comportment, and if its not respectful, up goes the medication! it’s a total scam; disrespect for authority ,and an arbitrary authority, at that, is  a mental illness?

i saw one of the girls downstairs friday, and signed something to get $300 of my money; it’s tueday night and still no money. i’ve been on the phone all evening to nursing home abuse hot-lines and people with the government ; the aide tonight was strangling me four or five times, because i asked him why he was taking all my warm clothes..its ridiculous here: they hacked my laptop, broke two tablets and stole a phone and sabotaged the charging ports of two others. i get hardly any food ,but i did  get new clothes this morning. ‘aren’t  you a Christian’, i  asked him?  then he tipped my wheelchair almost over on its side. no love, compassion or mercy from these people here. i’ve called  the police; that was hours ago and they still haven’t  got here!  

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