i love going on my soapbox about ABA but that class just deeply fucked with me

i highly recommend that if you’re against ABA (applied behavior analysis) and able to do so, to do research on behaviorism, behavioral therapies, and read through professional literature teaching the therapy. it has a LOT more issues than simply “rewarding autistic people for desired behavior” and is a LOT more complicated.

this criticism is also easily knocked down by professionals, and quite frankly, i want the entire system to stop practicing ABA permanently after a semester spent learning about it. they don’t just use it on autistic kids, they use this shit in the workplace on adults even! you’re not protected from this unethical practice being neurotypical, and it continues to gain popularity.

animal studies have clear and beneficial use in psychology, but people can not be trained like dogs, and in my opinion, that’s what ABA basically tries to achieve.

it’s unethical and asserts complete, total control over the patient, setting up an exaggerated power imbalance other accepted therapies don’t have. this is inherent, ABA can not be “fixed”, you can not weed out “the bad ones” when the premise is fundamentally flawed. and ultimately, this renders the therapy ineffective, even if you may achieve the result (behavior) you wanted. these results tend to be in the short term, because they are manipulated from the patient under the guise of cooperation and “reward”.

(this is made worse by the fact the “patient” is typically a child, with communication difficulties, and may even be non-verbal!)

in that ABA elective (again, taught by a clinical psychologist who practiced ABA, primarily on developmentally disabled children) the instant she started showing us how to (obsessively) chart and track symptoms with rewards/punishment/reinforcement under the process i just went. This is the most fucked up shit. Do you all see this. it’s like a god damn stalker made this

in that ABA elective (again, taught by a clinical psychologist who practiced ABA, primarily on developmentally disabled children) the instant she started showing us how to (obsessively) chart and track symptoms with rewards/punishment/reinforcement under the process i just went. This is the most fucked up shit. Do you all see this. it’s like a god damn stalker made this

some people i’ve encountered on here would think i was immoral to know in my science degree for psychology i was primarily educated, and trained in, behaviourism. i’ve come out before admitting i am a behaviourist and i’m sure it’s offputting no matter how many qualifiers i add. but it was this that led to my psych critical mindset and approach. also led to me hating every other modern behaviourist who can’t accept ABA is unethical.

like honestly i just hated antipsychotics because they’re documented to be ineffective for negative symptoms and can even make them worse in schizophrenia and schizoid is basically a disorder consisting of just the negative symptoms of schizophrenia. something i also communicated repeatedly and had to pay 300 an hour to see a qualified psychologist to figure out

btw the most infuriating thing to me was trying to explain to psychiatrists (and literally anyone) that i only needed antidepressants for acute episodes and antipsychotics for when i have acute episodes of psychosis and them and everyone insisting i was just totally full of shit then reading recent research on schizoid personality disorder that neither medication is effective for the condition except for episodes brought on by other comorbidities

forgot gabapentin withdrawal can cause psych symptoms like mood outbursts because it also does in fact control general neuronal excitability which may explain why i’ve been off the wall all weekend but also do you think it’s time for an acute antidepressant sir

i only ever had confidence in myself when i was a drug addict, then i lost it all. well testosterone and transitioning is bringing it back

hate to be That Guy but i bluntly threatened them with a complaint arguing that has to be grounds for a review from a medical board to instruct a patient to do something, note it in their chart, then punish them for it/claim you didn’t do that and i would be contacting the state board that oversees her. took about ten minutes and she agreed to the refill. yeah i bet fucking so

i’ve had it and i’m filing a formal complaint against that nurse practitioner i saw who wasn’t my normal doctor. she increased my gabapentin from 5 to 6 a day. it’s in the chart (and i have a screenshot in case she backtracks). she was incredibly rude and dismissive. she told me to take my current script until it was gone. well, i did, and turns out the pharmacy never received a prescription for the increased dose! i call, and now she’s giving me the run-around i said i “didn’t like how gabapentin made me feel in high doses” so she didn’t call it in, and won’t. except after this bit i agreed to the dose increase, cooperated, followed instructions, and she even put it in my chart! i have no medicine now AGAIN! i’m not dealing with this anymore!

i’ve had it and i’m filing a formal complaint against that nurse practitioner i saw who wasn’t my normal doctor. she increased my gabapentin from 5 to 6 a day. it’s in the chart (and i have a screenshot in case she backtracks). she was incredibly rude and dismissive. she told me to take my current script until it was gone. well, i did, and turns out the pharmacy never received a prescription for the increased dose! i call, and now she’s giving me the run-around i said i “didn’t like how gabapentin made me feel in high doses” so she didn’t call it in, and won’t. except after this bit i agreed to the dose increase, cooperated, followed instructions, and she even put it in my chart! i have no medicine now AGAIN! i’m not dealing with this anymore!

I'll become an asshole

Disguised as a bad girl

In my button-up shirt

A natural disaster

WHY DOES EVERYTHING SUCK SO MUCH!!

I WANT A CIGARETTE BUT ITS 3 AM AND IT’S RAINING WHO WANTS TO DRIVE

i can murder people and you still have to be really nice to me it’s part of my therapy

Every night at eleven I have to choose between enjoying the sweet embrace of slumber or staying up late to do something enriching and fun that I wouldn’t otherwise have the opportunity to do. And every night at eleven I take the secret third option of “doing nothing on my phone until one in the morning.”

basically a lot of my problems boil down to me being really bad at waking up. and also really bad at going to sleep