I actually surpassed my target today and got my 2 stone award.
Today I lost 5.5lbs and hit 2st 1.5lbs in total weight lost.
My target was 11st 4.5lbs and today I am 11st 4lbs.
I don't actually feel any different mentally though. Weird isn't it. But I do feel relieved to have got to target. I now don't have to pay each week. Free lifetime membership if I stay 3lbs above or below target.
It feels very silly to share a photo of my fitness progress. But I think I need to push through my discomfort and actually be proud of what I have achieved. I did not think my arms and shoulders would be my favourite body part, but I love them now.
I took this in the private individual bathroom at the gym (so no people around) and still felt like a tit.
I am very close to my target weight loss of 2 stone (28lbs/13kg).
Fat to fit Emma has actually happened. It has taken me 8 years to fully recover from a mental breakdown. Here's some hope to any of you who are currently lost. It does get better, great even.
As a pillion princess on my husbands motorbike; I invested in new gear last year and spent money on trousers and jacket. The assistant had to keep bringing me bigger and bigger sizes as bike gear is bizarrely sized.
After a long winter, we got the bike out yesterday, and I put the trousers on, and they immediately fell down. I asjusted the velcro straps but they were like clown pants.
I had to settle for my husbands kevlar jeans, and we rode to the bike shop. Due to the weird sizing, she kept bringing me trousers, but this time, it was smaller and smaller. I've never worn flattering leathers before. I love them.
I am, however, hoping not to be stressed that I'm going to put the weight back on. I've gone from UK size 20 to UK size 12 in 4 months. My brain hasn't adjusted. I still think I'm a 20. I look different in the mirror, but I don't believe the image to be accurate. I can't explain it.
Realised I forgot to update the last few weigh ins. Struggled with a few emotional eating episodes and I am trying to figure out how to get past stress eating etc. I suppose it will be a forever battle. The slimming world consultant is useless and the other women are adopting toxic weight loss techniques not endorsed by slimming world. I am thinking of no longer attending 'image therapy' as it is damaging my self worth and image. The opposite of what it should be. If I hit target then it becomes free, so my main focus is the last 5 lbs I need to lose.
I also have 2 months until my holiday in Zante. So excited to swim everyday, especially in the sea. Might take my gym gear and do some early morning runs too.
My aim this week is full focus, fully sticking to the plan.