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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  ā€”theĀ  fictionĀ  thatĀ  weā€™reĀ  livingĀ  in,Ā  Ā  saysĀ  iĀ  shouldĀ  pullĀ  theĀ  pin.Ā Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā shouldĀ  iĀ  justĀ  pullĀ  theĀ  pin ?Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā shouldĀ  iĀ  justĀ Ā  Ā PULL THE PIN.Ā Ā 
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆ [š‘š„šƒš€š‚š“š„šƒ] Ā 
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Ā  Ā  Ā į»Š Hį»ŒPįŗø THįŗøY CANNį»ŒT į¹¢įŗøįŗø THįŗø Lį»ŠMį»ŠTLįŗøį¹¢į¹¢ Pį»ŒTįŗøNTį»ŠAL Lį»ŠVį»ŠNG į»ŠNį¹¢į»ŠĘŠįŗø į»ŒF Mįŗøā€¦ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā š‘» š‘¶ Ā  š‘“ š‘¼ š‘¹ š‘« š‘¬ š‘¹ Ā  š‘¬ š‘½ š‘¬ š‘¹ š’€ š‘» š‘Æ š‘° š‘µ š‘®.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆĀ  [š‘š„šƒš€š‚š“š„šƒ]Ā Ā 
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Ā  Ā  Ā į»Š Hį»ŒPįŗø THįŗøY CANNį»ŒT į¹¢įŗøįŗø THįŗø Lį»ŠMį»ŠTLįŗøį¹¢į¹¢ Pį»ŒTįŗøNTį»ŠAL Lį»ŠVį»ŠNG į»ŠNį¹¢į»ŠĘŠįŗø į»ŒF Mįŗøā€¦ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā š‘» š‘¶ Ā  š‘“ š‘¼ š‘¹ š‘« š‘¬ š‘¹ Ā  š‘¬ š‘½ š‘¬ š‘¹ š’€ š‘» š‘Æ š‘° š‘µ š‘®.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆĀ  [š‘š„šƒš€š‚š“š„šƒ]Ā Ā 
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Ā  Ā  Ā į»Š Hį»ŒPįŗø THįŗøY CANNį»ŒT į¹¢įŗøįŗø THįŗø Lį»ŠMį»ŠTLįŗøį¹¢į¹¢ Pį»ŒTįŗøNTį»ŠAL Lį»ŠVį»ŠNG į»ŠNį¹¢į»ŠĘŠįŗø į»ŒF Mįŗøā€¦ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā š‘» š‘¶ Ā  š‘“ š‘¼ š‘¹ š‘« š‘¬ š‘¹ Ā  š‘¬ š‘½ š‘¬ š‘¹ š’€ š‘» š‘Æ š‘° š‘µ š‘®.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ā–ˆā–ˆā–ˆĀ  [š‘š„šƒš€š‚š“š„šƒ]Ā Ā 
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Ā Ā Ā  š‘Ŗš‘¼š‘» š‘¶š‘­š‘­ š‘¶š‘µš‘¬ š‘Æš‘¬š‘Øš‘«ā€¦ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā–‘ā–‘ā–’š™²š™¾š™¼š™¼š™“š™½š™²š™øš™½š™¶ā–“ā–“š™³š™°ššƒš™°ā–“ā–“ššƒššš™°š™½šš‚š™µš™“ššā–’ā–‘ā–‘ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ( this blog has been archived.)Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€¦ š‘»š‘¾š‘¶ š‘“š‘¶š‘¹š‘¬ š‘ŗš‘Æš‘Øš‘³š‘³ š‘»š‘Øš‘²š‘¬ š‘°š‘»š‘ŗ š‘·š‘³š‘Øš‘Ŗš‘¬.
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Ā Ā Ā  š‘Ŗš‘¼š‘» š‘¶š‘­š‘­ š‘¶š‘µš‘¬ š‘Æš‘¬š‘Øš‘«ā€¦ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā–‘ā–‘ā–’š™²š™¾š™¼š™¼š™“š™½š™²š™øš™½š™¶ā–“ā–“š™³š™°ššƒš™°ā–“ā–“ššƒššš™°š™½šš‚š™µš™“ššā–’ā–‘ā–‘ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ( this blog has been archived.)Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€¦ š‘»š‘¾š‘¶ š‘“š‘¶š‘¹š‘¬ š‘ŗš‘Æš‘Øš‘³š‘³ š‘»š‘Øš‘²š‘¬ š‘°š‘»š‘ŗ š‘·š‘³š‘Øš‘Ŗš‘¬.
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Ā Ā Ā  š‘Ŗš‘¼š‘» š‘¶š‘­š‘­ š‘¶š‘µš‘¬ š‘Æš‘¬š‘Øš‘«... Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā–‘ā–‘ā–’š™²š™¾š™¼š™¼š™“š™½š™²š™øš™½š™¶ā–“ā–“š™³š™°ššƒš™°ā–“ā–“ššƒššš™°š™½šš‚š™µš™“ššā–’ā–‘ā–‘ Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ( this blog has been archived.)Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ... š‘»š‘¾š‘¶ š‘“š‘¶š‘¹š‘¬ š‘ŗš‘Æš‘Øš‘³š‘³ š‘»š‘Øš‘²š‘¬ š‘°š‘»š‘ŗ š‘·š‘³š‘Øš‘Ŗš‘¬.
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šµšøš»š¼š‘š·Ā š‘‡š»šøĀ š‘€š“š‘†š¾Ā -Ā  -Ā  -Ā  āĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā hulloĀ  tumblrĀ  fam.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  allĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  wellĀ  forĀ  eachĀ  andĀ  everyĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  readingĀ  thisĀ  andĀ  thatĀ  lifeĀ  hasĀ  beenĀ  treatingĀ  youĀ  favorably.Ā  ā€ā—• ā€æ ā—•ā€Ā  iā€™veĀ  beenĀ  absentĀ  theseĀ  lastĀ  fewĀ  monthsĀ  forĀ  aĀ  numberĀ  Ā ofĀ  differentĀ  reasons.Ā  withoutĀ  goingĀ  intoĀ  tooĀ  muchĀ  detail,Ā  forĀ  aĀ  whileĀ  nowĀ  iĀ  haveĀ  beenĀ  strugglingĀ  withĀ  someĀ  reallyĀ  uglyĀ  mentalĀ  issuesĀ  that,Ā  asĀ  ofĀ  lateĀ  haveĀ  startedĀ  toĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  noticeable Ā impact Ā on Ā my Ā physical Ā healthĀ  asĀ  well.Ā  theĀ  uglyĀ  combinationĀ  has Ā in Ā turn Ā impacted Ā my Ā ability Ā and Ā passion Ā to Ā write. Ā that Ā being Ā said,Ā  theĀ  buck-ster Ā is Ā still Ā alive Ā and Ā kickinā€™ Ā in Ā this Ā brain Ā oā€™Ā  mineĀ  andĀ  iĀ  amĀ  notĀ  sureĀ  iĀ  amĀ  readyĀ  toĀ  letĀ  himĀ  goĀ  justĀ  yet. Ā iā€™ve Ā been Ā considering Ā this Ā for Ā aĀ  littleĀ  whileĀ  nowĀ  andĀ  i Ā thinkĀ  -Ā  after Ā six Ā yearsĀ  -Ā  itĀ  mightĀ  beĀ  aĀ  good Ā idea Ā toĀ  finallyĀ  start Ā anew !Ā  ( sortaĀ Ā /Ā Ā not really ) Ā i Ā think Ā a Ā reboot Ā of Ā my Ā blogĀ  mightĀ  help Ā jumpstart Ā my Ā muse Ā again. Ā i Ā know Ā it Ā will Ā certainly Ā delight Ā my Ā ( slightly Ā obsessive )Ā  needĀ  forĀ  organization.
Ā  Ā  Ā freshĀ  newĀ  blogĀ  withĀ  aĀ  newĀ  (Ā kickass )Ā  theme.Ā  updatedĀ  rulesĀ  /Ā  versesĀ  andĀ  aĀ  restructuringĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  tagsĀ  -Ā  theĀ  wholeĀ  shebang.Ā  iĀ  canĀ  evenĀ  beginĀ  toĀ  rebuildĀ  myĀ  followerĀ  count,Ā  clearĀ  awayĀ  someĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  inactiveĀ  blogsĀ  andĀ  startĀ  toĀ  onceĀ  againĀ  makeĀ  someĀ  meaningfulĀ  connectionsĀ  withĀ  peopleĀ  /Ā  plotĀ  someĀ  newĀ  ideas.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  aĀ  cleanĀ  dashĀ  andĀ  aĀ  smallerĀ  followerĀ  countĀ  willĀ  helpĀ  meĀ  becomeĀ  moreĀ  activeĀ  andĀ  moreĀ  aliveĀ  inĀ  theĀ  communityĀ  again.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā soĀ  thatĀ  isĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  whereĀ  iā€™mĀ  at,Ā  workingĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  transition.Ā  myĀ  ocdĀ  lovesĀ  theĀ  ideaĀ  ofĀ  startingĀ  somethingĀ  freshĀ  andĀ  clean,Ā  butĀ  thatĀ  sameĀ  ocdĀ  tendencyĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  theĀ  moveĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  tediousĀ  andĀ  exhausting.Ā  o(*>Ļ‰<*)oĀ  Ā  iĀ  willĀ  notĀ  beĀ  droppingĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  currentĀ  threadsĀ  becauseĀ  iĀ  ADOREĀ  everyĀ  singleĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  themĀ  ( && my partners )Ā  farĀ  tooĀ  much,Ā  soĀ  theyĀ  willĀ  beĀ  carriedĀ  over.Ā  onceĀ  again,Ā  iĀ  justĀ  askĀ  forĀ  someĀ  continuedĀ  patienceĀ  fromĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  whileĀ  iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  likeĀ  toĀ  getĀ  everythingĀ  updatedĀ  andĀ  finishedĀ  beforeĀ  officiallyĀ  movingĀ  overĀ  ( becauseĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  doĀ  itĀ  now,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  neverĀ  finishĀ  it )Ā  butĀ  onceĀ  iā€™mĀ  allĀ  done,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  postĀ  aĀ  linkĀ  to Ā the Ā new Ā blog Ā for Ā all Ā those Ā still Ā interested Ā in Ā following Ā / Ā writing Ā with Ā me.Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā itĀ  isĀ  importantĀ  thoughĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  emphasizeĀ  thatĀ  myĀ  lackĀ  ofĀ  activityĀ  andĀ  communicationĀ  hasĀ  nothingĀ  toĀ  doĀ  withĀ  myĀ  loveĀ  andĀ  appreciationĀ  forĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  you.Ā  unfortunately,Ā  theĀ  constantĀ  exhaustionĀ  andĀ  mentalĀ  fatigueĀ  makesĀ  manyĀ  everyĀ  dayĀ  tasksĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  difficultĀ  toĀ  handleĀ  -Ā  evenĀ  enjoyableĀ  activities.Ā  iĀ  amĀ  hopingĀ  thisĀ  moveĀ  helpsĀ  toĀ  boostĀ  myĀ  muse Ā and Ā maybe Ā evenĀ  myĀ  mood.Ā  (^_^;)Ā  ok !Ā  thanks Ā for Ā reading Ā this. Ā iā€™ll Ā beĀ  re - posting Ā this Ā a Ā few Ā times Ā while Ā iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  please Ā stay Ā safe Ā out Ā there Ā everyone ! Ā xxo
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šµšøš»š¼š‘š·Ā š‘‡š»šøĀ š‘€š“š‘†š¾Ā -Ā  -Ā  -Ā  āĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā hulloĀ  tumblrĀ  fam.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  allĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  wellĀ  forĀ  eachĀ  andĀ  everyĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  readingĀ  thisĀ  andĀ  thatĀ  lifeĀ  hasĀ  beenĀ  treatingĀ  youĀ  favorably.Ā  ā€ā—• ā€æ ā—•ā€Ā  iā€™veĀ  beenĀ  absentĀ  theseĀ  lastĀ  fewĀ  monthsĀ  forĀ  aĀ  numberĀ  Ā ofĀ  differentĀ  reasons.Ā  withoutĀ  goingĀ  intoĀ  tooĀ  muchĀ  detail,Ā  forĀ  aĀ  whileĀ  nowĀ  iĀ  haveĀ  beenĀ  strugglingĀ  withĀ  someĀ  reallyĀ  uglyĀ  mentalĀ  issuesĀ  that,Ā  asĀ  ofĀ  lateĀ  haveĀ  startedĀ  toĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  noticeable Ā impact Ā on Ā my Ā physical Ā healthĀ  asĀ  well.Ā  theĀ  uglyĀ  combinationĀ  has Ā in Ā turn Ā impacted Ā my Ā ability Ā and Ā passion Ā to Ā write. Ā that Ā being Ā said,Ā  theĀ  buck-ster Ā is Ā still Ā alive Ā and Ā kickinā€™ Ā in Ā this Ā brain Ā oā€™Ā  mineĀ  andĀ  iĀ  amĀ  notĀ  sureĀ  iĀ  amĀ  readyĀ  toĀ  letĀ  himĀ  goĀ  justĀ  yet. Ā iā€™ve Ā been Ā considering Ā this Ā for Ā aĀ  littleĀ  whileĀ  nowĀ  andĀ  i Ā thinkĀ  -Ā  after Ā six Ā yearsĀ  -Ā  itĀ  mightĀ  beĀ  aĀ  good Ā idea Ā toĀ  finallyĀ  start Ā anew !Ā  ( sortaĀ Ā /Ā Ā not really ) Ā i Ā think Ā a Ā reboot Ā of Ā my Ā blogĀ  mightĀ  help Ā jumpstart Ā my Ā muse Ā again. Ā i Ā know Ā it Ā will Ā certainly Ā delight Ā my Ā ( slightly Ā obsessive )Ā  needĀ  forĀ  organization.
Ā  Ā  Ā freshĀ  newĀ  blogĀ  withĀ  aĀ  newĀ  (Ā kickass )Ā  theme.Ā  updatedĀ  rulesĀ  /Ā  versesĀ  andĀ  aĀ  restructuringĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  tagsĀ  -Ā  theĀ  wholeĀ  shebang.Ā  iĀ  canĀ  evenĀ  beginĀ  toĀ  rebuildĀ  myĀ  followerĀ  count,Ā  clearĀ  awayĀ  someĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  inactiveĀ  blogsĀ  andĀ  startĀ  toĀ  onceĀ  againĀ  makeĀ  someĀ  meaningfulĀ  connectionsĀ  withĀ  peopleĀ  /Ā  plotĀ  someĀ  newĀ  ideas.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  aĀ  cleanĀ  dashĀ  andĀ  aĀ  smallerĀ  followerĀ  countĀ  willĀ  helpĀ  meĀ  becomeĀ  moreĀ  activeĀ  andĀ  moreĀ  aliveĀ  inĀ  theĀ  communityĀ  again.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā soĀ  thatĀ  isĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  whereĀ  iā€™mĀ  at,Ā  workingĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  transition.Ā  myĀ  ocdĀ  lovesĀ  theĀ  ideaĀ  ofĀ  startingĀ  somethingĀ  freshĀ  andĀ  clean,Ā  butĀ  thatĀ  sameĀ  ocdĀ  tendencyĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  theĀ  moveĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  tediousĀ  andĀ  exhausting.Ā  o(*>Ļ‰<*)oĀ  Ā  iĀ  willĀ  notĀ  beĀ  droppingĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  currentĀ  threadsĀ  becauseĀ  iĀ  ADOREĀ  everyĀ  singleĀ  oneĀ  ofļæ½ļæ½ themĀ  ( && my partners )Ā  farĀ  tooĀ  much,Ā  soĀ  theyĀ  willĀ  beĀ  carriedĀ  over.Ā  onceĀ  again,Ā  iĀ  justĀ  askĀ  forĀ  someĀ  continuedĀ  patienceĀ  fromĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  whileĀ  iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  likeĀ  toĀ  getĀ  everythingĀ  updatedĀ  andĀ  finishedĀ  beforeĀ  officiallyĀ  movingĀ  overĀ  ( becauseĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  doĀ  itĀ  now,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  neverĀ  finishĀ  it )Ā  butĀ  onceĀ  iā€™mĀ  allĀ  done,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  postĀ  aĀ  linkĀ  to Ā the Ā new Ā blog Ā for Ā all Ā those Ā still Ā interested Ā in Ā following Ā / Ā writing Ā with Ā me.Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā itĀ  isĀ  importantĀ  thoughĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  emphasizeĀ  thatĀ  myĀ  lackĀ  ofĀ  activityĀ  andĀ  communicationĀ  hasĀ  nothingĀ  toĀ  doĀ  withĀ  myĀ  loveĀ  andĀ  appreciationĀ  forĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  you.Ā  unfortunately,Ā  theĀ  constantĀ  exhaustionĀ  andĀ  mentalĀ  fatigueĀ  makesĀ  manyĀ  everyĀ  dayĀ  tasksĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  difficultĀ  toĀ  handleĀ  -Ā  evenĀ  enjoyableĀ  activities.Ā  iĀ  amĀ  hopingĀ  thisĀ  moveĀ  helpsĀ  toĀ  boostĀ  myĀ  muse Ā and Ā maybe Ā evenĀ  myĀ  mood.Ā  (^_^;)Ā  ok !Ā  thanks Ā for Ā reading Ā this. Ā iā€™ll Ā beĀ  re - posting Ā this Ā a Ā few Ā times Ā while Ā iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  please Ā stay Ā safe Ā out Ā there Ā everyone ! Ā xxo
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šµšøš»š¼š‘š·Ā š‘‡š»šøĀ š‘€š“š‘†š¾Ā -Ā  -Ā  -Ā  āĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā hulloĀ  tumblrĀ  fam.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  allĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  wellĀ  forĀ  eachĀ  andĀ  everyĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  readingĀ  thisĀ  andĀ  thatĀ  lifeĀ  hasĀ  beenĀ  treatingĀ  youĀ  favorably.Ā  ā€ā—• ā€æ ā—•ā€Ā  iā€™veĀ  beenĀ  absentĀ  theseĀ  lastĀ  fewĀ  monthsĀ  forĀ  aĀ  numberĀ  Ā ofĀ  differentĀ  reasons.Ā  withoutĀ  goingĀ  intoĀ  tooĀ  muchĀ  detail,Ā  forĀ  aĀ  whileĀ  nowĀ  iĀ  haveĀ  beenĀ  strugglingĀ  withĀ  someĀ  reallyĀ  uglyĀ  mentalĀ  issuesĀ  that,Ā  asĀ  ofĀ  lateĀ  haveĀ  startedĀ  toĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  noticeable Ā impact Ā on Ā my Ā physical Ā healthĀ  asĀ  well.Ā  theĀ  uglyĀ  combinationĀ  has Ā in Ā turn Ā impacted Ā my Ā ability Ā and Ā passion Ā to Ā write. Ā that Ā being Ā said,Ā  theĀ  buck-ster Ā is Ā still Ā alive Ā and Ā kickinā€™ Ā in Ā this Ā brain Ā oā€™Ā  mineĀ  andĀ  iĀ  amĀ  notĀ  sureĀ  iĀ  amĀ  readyĀ  toĀ  letĀ  himĀ  goĀ  justĀ  yet. Ā iā€™ve Ā been Ā considering Ā this Ā for Ā aĀ  littleĀ  whileĀ  nowĀ  andĀ  i Ā thinkĀ  -Ā  after Ā six Ā yearsĀ  -Ā  itĀ  mightĀ  beĀ  aĀ  good Ā idea Ā toĀ  finallyĀ  start Ā anew !Ā  ( sortaĀ Ā /Ā Ā not really ) Ā i Ā think Ā a Ā reboot Ā of Ā my Ā blogĀ  mightĀ  help Ā jumpstart Ā my Ā muse Ā again. Ā i Ā know Ā it Ā will Ā certainly Ā delight Ā my Ā ( slightly Ā obsessive )Ā  needĀ  forĀ  organization.
Ā  Ā  Ā freshĀ  newĀ  blogĀ  withĀ  aĀ  newĀ  (Ā kickass )Ā  theme.Ā  updatedĀ  rulesĀ  /Ā  versesĀ  andĀ  aĀ  restructuringĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  tagsĀ  -Ā  theĀ  wholeĀ  shebang.Ā  iĀ  canĀ  evenĀ  beginĀ  toĀ  rebuildĀ  myĀ  followerĀ  count,Ā  clearĀ  awayĀ  someĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  inactiveĀ  blogsĀ  andĀ  startĀ  toĀ  onceĀ  againĀ  makeĀ  someĀ  meaningfulĀ  connectionsĀ  withĀ  peopleĀ  /Ā  plotĀ  someĀ  newĀ  ideas.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  aĀ  cleanĀ  dashĀ  andĀ  aĀ  smallerĀ  followerĀ  countĀ  willĀ  helpĀ  meĀ  becomeĀ  moreĀ  activeĀ  andĀ  moreĀ  aliveĀ  inĀ  theĀ  communityĀ  again.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā soĀ  thatĀ  isĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  whereĀ  iā€™mĀ  at,Ā  workingĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  transition.Ā  myĀ  ocdĀ  lovesĀ  theĀ  ideaĀ  ofĀ  startingĀ  somethingĀ  freshĀ  andĀ  clean,Ā  butĀ  thatĀ  sameĀ  ocdĀ  tendencyĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  theĀ  moveĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  tediousĀ  andĀ  exhausting.Ā  o(*>Ļ‰<*)oĀ  Ā  iĀ  willĀ  notĀ  beĀ  droppingĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  currentĀ  threadsĀ  becauseĀ  iĀ  ADOREĀ  everyĀ  singleĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  themĀ  ( && my partners )Ā  farĀ  tooĀ  much,Ā  soĀ  theyĀ  willĀ  beĀ  carriedĀ  over.Ā  onceĀ  again,Ā  iĀ  justĀ  askĀ  forĀ  someĀ  continuedĀ  patienceĀ  fromĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  whileĀ  iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  likeĀ  toĀ  getĀ  everythingĀ  updatedĀ  andĀ  finishedĀ  beforeĀ  officiallyĀ  movingĀ  overĀ  ( becauseĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  doĀ  itĀ  now,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  neverĀ  finishĀ  it )Ā  butĀ  onceĀ  iā€™mĀ  allĀ  done,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  postĀ  aĀ  linkĀ  to Ā the Ā new Ā blog Ā for Ā all Ā those Ā still Ā interested Ā in Ā following Ā / Ā writing Ā with Ā me.Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā itĀ  isĀ  importantĀ  thoughĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  emphasizeĀ  thatĀ  myĀ  lackĀ  ofĀ  activityĀ  andĀ  communicationĀ  hasĀ  nothingĀ  toĀ  doĀ  withĀ  myĀ  loveĀ  andĀ  appreciationĀ  forĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  you.Ā  unfortunately,Ā  theĀ  constantĀ  exhaustionĀ  andĀ  mentalĀ  fatigueĀ  makesĀ  manyĀ  everyĀ  dayĀ  tasksĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  difficultĀ  toĀ  handleĀ  -Ā  evenĀ  enjoyableĀ  activities.Ā  iĀ  amĀ  hopingĀ  thisĀ  moveĀ  helpsĀ  toĀ  boostĀ  myĀ  muse Ā and Ā maybe Ā evenĀ  myĀ  mood.Ā  (^_^;)Ā  ok !Ā  thanks Ā for Ā reading Ā this. Ā iā€™ll Ā beĀ  re - posting Ā this Ā a Ā few Ā times Ā while Ā iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  please Ā stay Ā safe Ā out Ā there Ā everyone ! Ā xxo
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Ā  Ā  Ā freshĀ  newĀ  blogĀ  withĀ  aĀ  newĀ  (Ā kickass )Ā  theme.Ā  updatedĀ  rulesĀ  /Ā  versesĀ  andĀ  aĀ  restructuringĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  tagsĀ  -Ā  theĀ  wholeĀ  shebang.Ā  iĀ  canĀ  evenĀ  beginĀ  toĀ  rebuildĀ  myĀ  followerĀ  count,Ā  clearĀ  awayĀ  someĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  inactiveĀ  blogsĀ  andĀ  startĀ  toĀ  onceĀ  againĀ  makeĀ  someĀ  meaningfulĀ  connectionsĀ  withĀ  peopleĀ  /Ā  plotĀ  someĀ  newĀ  ideas.Ā  iĀ  hopeĀ  aĀ  cleanĀ  dashĀ  andĀ  aĀ  smallerĀ  followerĀ  countĀ  willĀ  helpĀ  meĀ  becomeĀ  moreĀ  activeĀ  andĀ  moreĀ  aliveĀ  inĀ  theĀ  communityĀ  again.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā soĀ  thatĀ  isĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  whereĀ  iā€™mĀ  at,Ā  workingĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  transition.Ā  myĀ  ocdĀ  lovesĀ  theĀ  ideaĀ  ofĀ  startingĀ  somethingĀ  freshĀ  andĀ  clean,Ā  butĀ  thatĀ  sameĀ  ocdĀ  tendencyĀ  isĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  theĀ  moveĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  tediousĀ  andĀ  exhausting.Ā  o(*>Ļ‰<*)oĀ  Ā  iĀ  willĀ  notĀ  beĀ  droppingĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  currentĀ  threadsĀ  becauseĀ  iĀ  ADOREĀ  everyĀ  singleĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  themĀ  ( && my partners )Ā  farĀ  tooĀ  much,Ā  soĀ  theyĀ  willĀ  beĀ  carriedĀ  over.Ā  onceĀ  again,Ā  iĀ  justĀ  askĀ  forĀ  someĀ  continuedĀ  patienceĀ  fromĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  whileĀ  iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  likeĀ  toĀ  getĀ  everythingĀ  updatedĀ  andĀ  finishedĀ  beforeĀ  officiallyĀ  movingĀ  overĀ  ( becauseĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  doĀ  itĀ  now,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  neverĀ  finishĀ  it )Ā  butĀ  onceĀ  iā€™mĀ  allĀ  done,Ā  iĀ  willĀ  postĀ  aĀ  linkĀ  to Ā the Ā new Ā blog Ā for Ā all Ā those Ā still Ā interested Ā in Ā following Ā / Ā writing Ā with Ā me.Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā itĀ  isĀ  importantĀ  thoughĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  emphasizeĀ  thatĀ  myĀ  lackĀ  ofĀ  activityĀ  andĀ  communicationĀ  hasĀ  nothingĀ  toĀ  doĀ  withĀ  myĀ  loveĀ  andĀ  appreciationĀ  forĀ  anyĀ  ofĀ  you.Ā  unfortunately,Ā  theĀ  constantĀ  exhaustionĀ  andĀ  mentalĀ  fatigueĀ  makesĀ  manyĀ  everyĀ  dayĀ  tasksĀ  allĀ  theĀ  moreĀ  difficultĀ  toĀ  handleĀ  -Ā  evenĀ  enjoyableĀ  activities.Ā  iĀ  amĀ  hopingĀ  thisĀ  moveĀ  helpsĀ  toĀ  boostĀ  myĀ  muse Ā and Ā maybe Ā evenĀ  myĀ  mood.Ā  (^_^;)Ā  ok !Ā  thanks Ā for Ā reading Ā this. Ā iā€™ll Ā beĀ  re - posting Ā this Ā a Ā few Ā times Ā while Ā iĀ  workĀ  onĀ  things.Ā  please Ā stay Ā safe Ā out Ā there Ā everyone ! Ā xxo
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Daisy Johnson Appreciation Week ā— Day 3 Ā āž¼ Emotion(s): Contentment (a state of happiness and satisfaction)
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Ā  Ā  š“š‡š„ š’šŽš‹šƒšˆš„š‘ šˆš’ š”š’š„šƒ š“šŽ š‚š‡š€šˆšš’.Ā  Ā hydraĀ  hadĀ  reliedĀ  onĀ  manyĀ  differentĀ  techniquesĀ  inĀ  orderĀ  toĀ  regulateĀ  (Ā restrictĀ  /Ā  CONTROLĀ )Ā  theirĀ  assetā€™sĀ  movements.Ā  itĀ  doesĀ  notĀ  surpriseĀ  himĀ  thatĀ  shieldĀ  ( orĀ  whoeverĀ  theyĀ  areĀ  now )Ā  utilizesĀ  theĀ  sameĀ  methods.Ā  twoĀ  sidesĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  sameĀ  coin,Ā  pierceĀ  hadĀ  alwaysĀ  surmisedĀ  throughĀ  wryĀ  lips.Ā  aroundĀ  eachĀ  wristĀ  andĀ  bothĀ  ankles,Ā  heĀ  isĀ  boundĀ  byĀ  high - tech militaryĀ  restraints.Ā  theĀ  shacklesĀ  continueĀ  -Ā  traversingĀ  upĀ  hisĀ  forearms,Ā  snakedĀ  aroundĀ  hisĀ  calvesĀ  andĀ  securingĀ  himĀ  inĀ  place,Ā  aĀ  largeĀ  magnetizedĀ  metalĀ  tetherĀ  loopedĀ  aroundĀ  hisĀ  torso.Ā  evenĀ  hisĀ  chairĀ  isĀ  boltedĀ  toĀ  theĀ  floor.Ā  hisĀ  armĀ  hasĀ  beenĀ  decommissionedĀ  forĀ  theĀ  timeĀ  beingĀ  byĀ  someĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  deviceĀ  theyĀ  tackedĀ  ontoĀ  hisĀ  forearm.Ā  whateverĀ  itĀ  is,Ā  itĀ  isĀ  sendingĀ  aĀ  continuousĀ  electricalĀ  signalĀ  upĀ  andĀ  downĀ  eachĀ  transmitter,Ā  shortĀ  -Ā  circuitingĀ  theĀ  cybernetic.Ā  itĀ  doesĀ  notĀ  hurtĀ  -Ā  or,Ā  ifĀ  itĀ  does,Ā  theĀ  assetĀ  doesĀ  notĀ  registerĀ  theĀ  pain.Ā  allĀ  hisĀ  mindĀ  acknowledgesĀ  isĀ  theĀ  DEAD WEIGHTĀ  pullingĀ  onĀ  hisĀ  leftĀ  shoulder,Ā  andĀ  anĀ  inabilityĀ  toĀ  moveĀ  metalĀ  fingers.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  someĀ  mightĀ  takeĀ  inĀ  theĀ  sightĀ  andĀ  callĀ  itĀ  OVERKILL.Ā  egregious.Ā  unnecessary.Ā  heĀ  hasĀ  barelyĀ  movedĀ  anĀ  inchĀ  whileĀ  inĀ  theirĀ  captivity,Ā  butĀ  theĀ  soldierĀ  commendsĀ  theirĀ  caution.Ā  PARASITES GROW IN BETWEEN THE CRACKS OF CARELESSNESS.Ā  thatĀ  isĀ  howĀ  hydraĀ  tookĀ  rootĀ  ;;Ā  thatĀ  isĀ  howĀ  theyĀ  thrived.Ā  withĀ  theĀ  ashesĀ  ofĀ  theirĀ  mistakesĀ  stillĀ  chalkyĀ  inĀ  theirĀ  mouths,Ā  itĀ  seemedĀ  shieldĀ  wasĀ  finallyĀ  learningĀ  fromĀ  theirĀ  mistakes.Ā  theyĀ  areĀ  smartĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  suchĀ  precautions.Ā  hisĀ  body,Ā  hisĀ  mindĀ  -Ā  both areĀ Ā AUTOMATEDĀ  nowĀ  moreĀ  thanĀ  anythingĀ  else.Ā  hisĀ  default,Ā  hisĀ  instinct,Ā  hisĀ  impulse,Ā  hisĀ  natureĀ  isĀ  VIOLENCE.Ā  itĀ  isĀ  hisĀ  naturalĀ  stateĀ  -Ā  regardlessĀ  ofĀ  want,Ā  desire,Ā  opinion,Ā  choiceĀ  orĀ  motivation ...Ā  HE IS A GUN AND VIOLENCE IS ALL HE KNOWS.Ā  Ā  Ā 
Ā  Ā  theĀ  captainĀ  keepsĀ  comingĀ  back ...Ā  toĀ  talk.Ā  heĀ  triesĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  conversationĀ  withĀ  theĀ  soldier,Ā  triesĀ  toĀ  getĀ  himĀ  toĀ  talkĀ  asĀ  wellĀ  -Ā  whichĀ  wasĀ  bafflingĀ  atĀ  first.Ā Ā Ā šŸ‡¼ā€‹šŸ‡Ŗā€‹šŸ‡¦ā€‹šŸ‡µā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡øā€‹ Ā šŸ‡©ā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹ Ā šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡¹ā€‹ Ā šŸ‡­ā€‹šŸ‡¦ā€‹šŸ‡»ā€‹šŸ‡Ŗā€‹ Ā šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡µā€‹šŸ‡®ā€‹šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡®ā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡øā€‹.Ā  šŸ‡¼ā€‹šŸ‡Ŗā€‹šŸ‡¦ā€‹šŸ‡µā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡øā€‹ Ā šŸ‡©ā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹ Ā šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡¹ā€‹ Ā šŸ‡²ā€‹šŸ‡¦ā€‹šŸ‡°ā€‹šŸ‡Ŗā€‹ Ā šŸ‡¦ā€‹ Ā šŸ‡øā€‹šŸ‡“ā€‹šŸ‡ŗā€‹šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡©ā€‹ Ā šŸ‡ŗā€‹šŸ‡³ā€‹šŸ‡±ā€‹šŸ‡Ŗā€‹šŸ‡øā€‹šŸ‡øā€‹ Ā šŸ‡«ā€‹šŸ‡®ā€‹šŸ‡·ā€‹šŸ‡Ŗā€‹šŸ‡©ā€‹.Ā  Ā hisĀ  oldĀ  handlersĀ  didĀ  notĀ  likeĀ  itĀ  whenĀ  heĀ  spoke.Ā  pierceĀ  didĀ  notĀ  likeĀ  itĀ  whenĀ  heĀ  usedĀ  hisĀ  voice,Ā  butĀ  steveĀ  rogersĀ  seemsĀ  almostĀ  desperateĀ  forĀ  it.Ā  oceanĀ  blueĀ  eyesĀ  piercingĀ  -Ā  searching,Ā  HOPINGĀ Ā -Ā  toĀ  findĀ  JAMES BUCHANAN BARNES ?Ā  theĀ  manĀ  whoseĀ  faceĀ  heĀ  woreĀ  asĀ  aĀ  mask ...Ā  soĀ  far,Ā  heĀ  believesĀ  heĀ  hasĀ  leftĀ  theĀ  captainĀ  disappointed,Ā Ā althoughĀ  hisĀ  effortsĀ  haveĀ  notĀ  beenĀ  completelyĀ  futile.Ā  theĀ  assetĀ  cannotĀ  denyĀ  theĀ  stirringsĀ  ofĀ  DEAD MEMORIES,Ā  kickedĀ  upĀ  likeĀ  dustĀ  aroundĀ  devastation.Ā  theĀ  whispersĀ  ofĀ  ghostsĀ  slippingĀ  throughĀ  theĀ  cracksĀ  ofĀ  his programming.Ā  sentimentĀ  -Ā  itsĀ  bearerĀ  longĀ  goneĀ  butĀ  theĀ  echoĀ  stillĀ  carrying.Ā  theĀ  remnantĀ  ofĀ  jamesĀ  barnesĀ  stillĀ  existsĀ  withinĀ  thisĀ  bodyĀ  ;;Ā  withinĀ  thisĀ  mind ...Ā  butĀ  itĀ  stillĀ  doesĀ  notĀ  makeĀ  himĀ  jamesĀ  barnes.Ā  Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  theĀ  captainĀ  remainsĀ  soĀ  hopeful.Ā  despiteĀ  theĀ  exhaustionĀ  agingĀ  hisĀ  face,Ā  theĀ  heartbreakĀ  &&Ā  anguishĀ  decayingĀ  theĀ  shineĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  eyesĀ  -Ā  heĀ  continuesĀ  toĀ  HOPE.Ā  Ā &&Ā  theĀ  assetĀ  knows,Ā  somehowĀ  heĀ  justĀ  knowsĀ  -Ā  theĀ  dumbĀ  foolĀ  willĀ  continueĀ  toĀ  hopeĀ  untilĀ  itĀ  DESTROYSĀ  him.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  š‡šŽšš„ šˆš’ šƒš€šš†š„š‘šŽš”š’.Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  itĀ  isĀ  aĀ  WARNING.Ā  Ā  (Ā  itĀ  isĀ  aĀ  pleaĀ  )Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€”ā€”Ā  Ā š˜›š˜š˜š˜š š˜žš˜š˜“š˜“ š˜’š˜š˜“š˜“ š˜ š˜–š˜œ š˜šš˜›š˜Œš˜š˜Œ š˜™š˜–š˜Žš˜Œš˜™š˜š.
Ā  Ā  š‡šŽšš„ šŠš„š„šš’ š”š’ š€š‹šˆš•š„.Ā  Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā theĀ  oneĀ  heĀ  callsĀ  buckĀ  staresĀ  backĀ  withĀ  eyes,Ā  emptyĀ  &&Ā  bleak.Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Ā Ā  ā€”Ā  howĀ  heĀ  knows.Ā  oh,Ā  butĀ  howĀ  heĀ  knows.Ā 
Ā  Ā  ā›Ā  forĀ  aĀ  while.Ā  āœĀ  Ā heĀ  drawsĀ  back.Ā  flat.Ā  emotionless.Ā  theĀ  soldierĀ  doesĀ  notĀ  know,Ā  butĀ  theĀ  remnantĀ  pieceĀ  ofĀ  jamesĀ  barnesĀ  does.Ā  hopeĀ  isĀ  whatĀ  keptĀ  himĀ  alive ...Ā  forĀ  years.Ā Ā 
Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā IT IS ALSO THE THING THAT DESTROYED HIM.Ā 
Ā  Ā  theĀ  memories ...Ā Ā floatĀ  closeĀ  toĀ  theĀ  surfaceĀ  -Ā  andĀ  theĀ  soldierĀ  pushesĀ  themĀ  away.Ā  forĀ  aĀ  briefĀ  momentĀ  though,Ā  aĀ  flickerĀ  ofĀ  griefĀ  -Ā  ofĀ  greatĀ  SORROWĀ  flashesĀ  inĀ  theĀ  voidĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  eyes,Ā  butĀ  itĀ  isĀ  quicklyĀ  doused.Ā  heĀ  blinksĀ  itĀ  awayĀ  andĀ  settlesĀ  backĀ  intoĀ  inertia.Ā  Ā Ā 
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Ā  Ā  ā›Ā  isĀ  thatĀ  whatĀ  keepsĀ  youĀ  alive,Ā  captain ?Ā  āœĀ  Ā  heĀ  asks,Ā  headĀ  tiltingĀ  slightly,Ā  eyesĀ  blankĀ  andĀ  voiceĀ  devoidĀ  ofĀ  anyĀ  emotion.Ā  Ā Ā  ā› Ā HOPEĀ ? Ā āœ
ā€œ Ā hope is dangerous. Ā ā€
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feet shuffle in the darkness and thereā€™s something akin to holding up five hundred pounds on his shoulders (as if he were sickly and frail yet again) in the way he shrugs. for every day he moves toward the future, itā€™s another weight to add onto the metaphorical boulder heā€™s carrying up the hill, or perhaps itā€™s the howling voices in his head that donā€™t know how to quiet. remember when you failed him? your brother. your family.. you failed him.Ā itā€™s not the first time heā€™s been reminded, and he knows, just as much, that it wonā€™t be the last, either. teeth grind together as the muscles in his jaw work, clenching, cowl held between two hands as he stares down at the whiteĀ ā€˜Aā€™ painted across the forehead.
times have changed, heā€™s certainly aware of that. some things havenā€™t, such as the way the world loves him, the man who holds the shield and upholds the preach of justice and freedom. itā€™s everything he continually fights forā€“ā€“ everything he hopesĀ that the world could achieve one day (he knows, in the back of his head, that it wonā€™t ever turn out that way). he hopes there will be more people like him some day, stepping up onto the stage to be recognized for who they are instead of a label.
ā€œ hope keeps us alive, buck. ā€Ā  or so he thinks he knows what heā€™s talking about. ever since becoming captain americaā€“ā€“Ā not the clown punching a fake hitler on stage over a hundred timesā€“ā€“ heā€™s had to pick up the motivational speeches. to a degree, he never quite wantedĀ to be a leader, but it comes naturally, so itā€™s what he does. step into the shoes of a man, rogers. the people look at him as the hero, and there are days heā€™s not sure who theyā€™re talking about. (he knows they glorify captain america, not the man behind the shield.)Ā  ā€œ without hope, people canā€™t survive. theyā€™ll give up. and once you give upā€¦ ā€Ā  voice low, he trails off, thoughts rushing around in his mind. who am i? what am i worth?Ā he puts the cowl on, straps it, and stands up.Ā  ā€œ letā€™s just say that it doesnā€™t end happily ever after. ā€Ā Ā 
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā š˜Šš˜š˜ˆš˜™š˜ˆš˜Šš˜›š˜Œš˜™ š˜šš˜›š˜œš˜‹š˜  Ā  -Ā  Ā š˜—š˜™š˜Œš˜š˜Œš˜™š˜Œš˜•š˜Šš˜Œš˜š
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COFFEEĀ or tea
early bird or night owlĀ  INSOMNIAC
CHOCOLATEĀ or vanilla
SPRINGĀ or fall
silver or GOLD
pop or ALTERNATIVEĀ 
FRECKLESĀ or dimples
snakes or sharksĀ  ( no preference )
mountains or FIELDS ( traumaticĀ )
THUNDERSTORMĀ or lightningĀ Ā  ( traumatic )
EGYPTIANĀ or greek mythology
IVORYĀ or scarlet
FLUTEĀ or lyre
opal or DIAMOND
BUTTERFLIESĀ or honeybees
macarons or ECLAIRS
typewritten or HANDWRITTENĀ 
SECRET GARDENĀ or secret library
ROOFTOPĀ or balcony
SPICYĀ or mild
opera or balletĀ  neither - negative associations with both.Ā Ā 
london or PARIS
vincent van gogh or CLAUDE MONET
denim or LEATHERĀ 
potions or spellsĀ Ā  ( no preference )
OCEANĀ or desert
MERMAIDSĀ or sirens
MASQUERADE BALL or cocktail party
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