I just looked up if periods make you gain weight and it says that it's normal to gain 3 to 5 pounds which is nearly 1.4 to 2.4 kg. I'm gonna kms. So I'm gonna loss the little progress I've made because god decided to put me in a female body. I was finally starting to feel happy about myself that I was finally gonna be doing something but now I have to wait a week to see if the scale will go down. Why can't I just be a boy. 😭

I let myself go for half of this week, I binged a lot, but now it’s time to get back on track and strike for my goal weight, I am going to be good, I’m going to be perfect

Body check? Kinda? Idk I just felt really good and I looked really boyish

I just want to get all of this weight off

I was so excited because I thought I lost my period and in my meta day I got it 💀💀

So we’re all binging right now? 😭

I’m going to have a meta day because I have been stuck at the same weight for a whole week :(

After today I’m going to exercise a lot and ⭐️ve as much as I can

I hope my plan works because I want to reach my goal weight already :(

Now I think that a normal size meal it’s too much

ME OMG

Bro this ed has not been eding lately

I binged

Then I purged, but was only able to get some out

I feel fat

I don’t deserve anything

I just was stuck at the same weight all this week , and when I was finally a little bit down, I felt entitled to food, like a stupid child who doesn’t know how to control himself

I’m going to be better, I’m going to be perfect, I’m going to be a perfect beautiful boy

The more weight I loose, the more boyish I look, it feels so good to finally see a boy in the mirror, a pretty boy who might be capable of being loved, a boy who looks good in a lot of clothes, and a boy who other men can fancy.

It feels good to finally be able to feel somewhat at peace with my body, not completely but idk I’m kinda happy

“You never say no to hot dogs”

Yeah, but I’m finally getting to my goal weight and I’m not about to fuck it up just because of some hot dogs

I love that my art is the one thing that can take my mind off food, I love that I still have something that tells me that everything is going to be okay and that I have a future, that I don’t have to be stuck in my head all day thinking about calories and weight.

I just pick up a pencil, take out my sketchbook and everything is okay

Why does every outing have to include eating food?!?!?!

It is true that your Ed makes you lose on family time, I didn’t want to go out for ice cream with my family for my mom’s birthday because I could possibly eat something, and now I’m in my bed looking through tumblr and being depressed

Mental hunger is the worst kind there is, I’m just so fucking hungry

I’m very confused, I was 41.9 just one day ago and Idk if it’s because I ate a little more than usual, or because my body is retaining water or whatever, but now I’m at 42.5 kg?!?! Like wtf does my body really hate me?!

GUYS I AM 41.9 KG OMFG I AM SO CLOSE TO MY GOAL WEIGHT I CAN BELIEVE IT

Fuck…my parents are getting suspicious