doing what u love

1.) What do you really want? Sit down quietly and make a list… the juice starts flowing near the end and this is your goal.

2.) How do you want to feel? Visit + assist yourself in this, daily, even if it’s just a consideration

3.) What are you most grateful to have every day? This is your garden - water it, weed it, tend to it always. The garden that gives is the garden that has been taken care of, and as it sometimes goes with gardening… it’s not always easy.

4.) What do you do that fulfills you, even with no money involved? Develope, invest and dive in to this skill. Consider this your living work - how can you expand on this to support you?

5.) What does your cyclical mind have to say about that (that being: making a living doing something you love + working toward what you really want + feeling good)? Notice the dialogue - there are hints hidden in this conversation that speak to what holds you back in some way.

6.) With all this in mind + heart - what can you do today? Small or large, contribute. Tomorrow is here.

Quarantine ask game!

What’s your go to snack? chips

What’s a movie you could watch over and over? i don’t know so i’ll say bojack horseman instead of a movie

Favorite show to binge? bojack horseman lmao

5 songs that make you want to dance? let’s get married, the me & you together song, chain smoker

5 songs that make you feel less lonely? i don’t have a good answer rn

Favorite meal to cook yourself? my newest favorite is the taiwanese crepe with egg

How do you “treat yourself”? buying stuff lmao like ubers or uber eats or stuff online

Favorite thing to do when doing self care? umm sleeping i guess ?

Who have you been talking to the most? during this quarantine it’s been rachel actually i think

One thing you really miss right now? lorne :(( hanging out with people in person

If you could be self isolated with anyone who would it be? kevin tbh. if i had to choose someone else i think lorne or like alex my family is pretty good too tho

Do you have any pets? niu nai !!

Favorite videgames? dragon age origins

Favorite podcasts? hmm ive been listening to one called like city road podcasts about urban planning

Favorite YouTubers? don’t have one

Wake up time? 😭😭 i woke up at 6 pm today.. my sleep schedule is whack. normally it falls at like 12-1

Sleep time? been falling asleep at 7 am :( it’s getting messed up. during normal times it’ll be 1-3 am

If you could go anywhere right now where would it be? taiwan!! or lorne’s house lmao

What’s a change you want to keep when self isolation is over? umm honestly just the not being worried or jealous about what other people are doing

Have you learned something? not really but getting a bit better at alone time

Any new skills? no lmao

What’s a hobby you’d like to start learning? honestly i’d love to get into something hands on. otherwise i’d be interested in learning sign language

What’s something you’d like to get better at? mandarin for sure. i’m really hyped that i signed up for a class i hope it goes well!!

What food do you wish you had right now? chips tbh were all out :(

Your go to quarantine outfit? just my pyjamas which is a big shirt and either boxers or pyjama shorts or pyjama pants

What have you done today? hmm i listened to a lecture and other than that like literally nothing i don’t even know

Any plans for tomorrow? nope! but i’m actually gonna try to get my sources together and decide what i want to say for my essay and maybe watch the movie for it

What’s on your “to watch” list? nothing really i‘ce gotten bad at watching stuff on my own. definitely parasite actually lmao and i have to watch the truman show for my essay and i’d be down to rewatch bojack. otherwise, rocket man maybe and i want to eventually watch schitts creek but we’ll see if it happens

+ she-ra

Any musicians/bands you’ve discovered? bleachers isn’t bad but i only listen to two songs, same with megan thee stallion, mac miller is nice i should check out swimming

Post a selfie right now!!

Post pictures of your pets!

When was the last time you drank water? dinner

When was the last time you ate? an hour or two ago

When was the last time you got up and stretched? i walked from the kitchen to my bed does that count

Favorite song right now? hmm maybe me & you together song

Favorite social media to scroll through? tumblr

What’s the last thing you ate? instant noodles they were new ones i didn’t like them so much

What’s the weather like where you are? i think it’s nice out

Have you been playing animal crossing? no i don’t have a switch !!! but i want one

How are you feeling? pretty good actually i’m really happy with my new meds and i think my single state right now is SUCH an improvement over my past relationships... not necessarily blaming the exes, i wasn’t equipped to be in a relationship and there’s so many less ups and downs like i’m cruising rn it’s nice

Who’s the last person you texted? rachel i think!

What does your last text message say with no context? “also do you know who jane jacobs is?”

Post a meme that made you laugh recently!

Outdoor activity you’d like to do right now? i want to be good and motivated to play rugby :(

Something you’re looking forward to when quarantine is over? going to lorne’s house!!!!! right away

Someone you’d like to see when quarantine is over? lorne!!

Any new games coming out you want to play? i just wanna play divinity but lorne does not also i wanna play animal crossing but i think i’m gonna wait and play it on his switch LMAO

New shows you’ve discovered? nope

Most comfortable piece of clothing you have? honestly any old tshirt from someone i love and my pyjama pants and lorne’s old sweater is EMOTIONALLY comfy

Ask anything!!

Quarantine ask game!

What’s your go to snack?

What’s a movie you could watch over and over?

Favorite show to binge?

5 songs that make you want to dance?

5 songs that make you feel less lonely?

Favorite meal to cook yourself?

How do you “treat yourself”?

Favorite thing to do when doing self care?

Who have you been talking to the most?

One thing you really miss right now?

If you could be self isolated with anyone who would it be?

Do you have any pets?

Favorite videgames?

Favorite podcasts?

Favorite YouTubers?

Wake up time?

Sleep time?

If you could go anywhere right now where would it be?

What’s a change you want to keep when self isolation is over?

Have you learned something?

Any new skills?

What’s a hobby you’d like to start learning?

What’s something you’d like to get better at?

What food do you wish you had right now?

Your go to quarantine outfit?

What have you done today?

Any plans for tomorrow?

What’s on your “to watch” list?

Any musicians/bands you’ve discovered?

Post a selfie right now!!

Post pictures of your pets!

When was the last time you drank water?

When was the last time you ate?

When was the last time you got up and stretched?

Favorite song right now?

Favorite social media to scroll through?

What’s the last thing you ate?

What’s the weather like where you are?

Have you been playing animal crossing?

How are you feeling?

Who’s the last person you texted?

What does your last text message say with no context?

Post a meme that made you laugh recently!

Outdoor activity you’d like to do right now?

Something you’re looking forward to when quarantine is over?

Someone you’d like to see when quarantine is over?

Any new games coming out you want to play?

New shows you’ve discovered?

Most comfortable piece of clothing you have?

Ask anything!!

Make me admit stuff? 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? last person i text messaged was callie so noooo haha
2. You talked to an ex today, correct? i have not. i haven't spoken to him in a week
3. Have you taken someones virginity? nope
4. Is trust a big issue for you? honestly, no. i feel like at this point it should be, especially since felix poured all my secrets out to my mom, but it isn't really lmao
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? i have a crush on literally everyone so like yeah
6. What are you excited for? im excited to go to john abbott
7. What happened tonight? uhh last night i hung out with michael and went to mount royal and had an amazing time, and tonight i'm planning to go to acoustic
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? nah, i dig it and i relate and i wanna be them, only thing is don't be a burden on other people and be safe
9. Is confidence cute? yes lmao i'm kinda into cockiness too
10. What is the last beverage you had? milk
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? uhhh quite a bit. michael, lorne, matteo, brandon, felix still to an extent lmao well actually like no not really 
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? ya 
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? i have no clue. probably not much
14. What are you going to spend money on next? beer lol
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? nope but i'm sleeping over at his place again tonight lol
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? yeah of course. i plan to become happier and to be productive and idk to mature and grow and get over some things
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? annie definitely
18. The last time you felt broken? like yesterday lmao all the time
19. Have you had sex today? no but i'm planning to
20. Are you starting to realize anything? yeah i'm starting to realize that felix wasn't perfect and did a lot of shitty things and also idk that the people who want to be around will be and that you can love someone with all your heart but still be ready and willing to get over them
21. Are you in a good mood? yeah and i'm definitely trying to be
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? no lmao i'm not even a good swimmer
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? nope his are blue mine are brown 
24. What do you want right this second? idk maybe to be hanging out with a friend, maybe for lucas to message me so i can get hyped for tonight and feel better about it all
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? "that's fair" (lmao it would probably be felix and it wouldn't hurt too much tbh i don't think it would change how he feels about me and i've kissed my fair share since the break up)
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? at the top of my head yes at the bottom no it's more red ish 
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? like everyone can make me laugh cause when they find something funny and are being all cute it makes me laugh but i've definitely dated guys with diff senses of humour before like todd wasn't that funny imo but i still laughed
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? probably michael's family they're so funny
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? not in this exact moment but i do miss felix quite a bit 
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? not everyone. like sometimes they really do deserve it but i'd say also a lot of the time it's your own decision whether you want to give them a second chance, it's not something they innately deserve
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? idk if this means talking like just talking or romantically but either way no
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? i dont really know that i have feelings for anyone i guess the closest is still felix and i think he knows i love him
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? definitely not haha
34. Listening to? music but i paused it so nothing rn
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? ya but usually led pencil
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? probably in my old apartment tbh but i don't know for a fact
37. Do you believe in love at first sight? no lmao
38. Who did you last call? michael !!
39. Who was the last person you danced with? danced? i guess like at the club probably matthew westernoff lmao or david
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
idk i wanted to and it was a good time 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? i have no clue
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? no but i will !!
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? im sure i have i just can't think of anything
44. Do you tan in the nude? nah
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? no haha
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? uhh i texted annie till i fell asleep
47. Who was the last person to call you? my distant education school to tell me my exam mark 
48. Do you sing in the shower? i do if im home alone
49. Do you dance in the car? YES definitely haha
50. Ever used a bow and arrow? nope
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? maybe never ? unless like family photos by family friends count but that's like not professional and that's years ago
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? they can be but it's good shit !!
53. Is Christmas stressful? like it can be but it doesn't have to be
54. Ever eat a pierogi? like one that my mom made so defs more asian than not. or frozen ones haha
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? probably apple
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? singer hahaha
57. Do you believe in ghosts? no
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? yeah i get it a lot and it freaks me out
59. Take a vitamin daily? nope
60. Wear slippers? no
61. Wear a bath robe? no
62. What do you wear to bed? usually a big shirt and underwear 
63. First concert? hilary duff hahaha
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? eh walmart i guess
65. Nike or Adidas? both are good
66. Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos i guess ?
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? peanuts cause i'm shit at eating sunflower seeds lmao
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? i love a bunch of them
69. Ever take dance lessons? ya i used to do ballet and tap and jazz. favorite was ballet. 
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? no clue lmao
71. Can you curl your tongue? ya
72. Ever won a spelling bee? nope 
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? i THINK i have but not sure 
74. What is your favorite book? no clue lol
75. Do you study better with or without music? definitely better without music but i listen anyway
76. Regularly burn incense? no
77. Ever been in love? yeah !! i just was haha
78. Who would you like to see in concert? the front bottoms 
79. What was the last concert you saw? the lumineers !! so good
80. Hot tea or cold tea? hot tea lmao you wildin
81. Tea or coffee? coffee
82. Favorite type of cookie? chocolate chip i guess
83. Can you swim well? like i can swim but i don't think well but like i won't drown in a pool
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? ya
85. Are you patient? nooooo omg me and annie talk constantly about how impatient we are
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? uhhh i think band is more romantic but lbr a dj probably sounds better
87. Ever won a contest? yeah i think so. ok ya that national flag thing and probably others
88. Ever have plastic surgery? nope
89. Which are better black or green olives? fuck an olive i love myself
90. Opinions on sex before marriage? pretty good imo lmao 
91. Best room for a fireplace? like living room i guess ? i don't understand 
92. Do you want to get married? yes !!! it'll be lit

Ask me things

1. What’s your middle name? 

2. What are you listening to right now? 

3. What was the last thing you ate? 

4. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? 

5. Do you drink? 

6. Do you smoke? 

7. What is the first thing you noticed in someone? 

8. What is your hair color? 

9. What is your eye color? 

10. Do you wear contacts/glasses? 

11. Dogs or cats? 

12. What’s your favorite animal? 

13. What’s your favorite television show? 

14. What’s your favorite movie? 

15. What’s your favorite band/singer? 

16. How old are you? 

17. Do you have a crush on anyone? 

18. What’s your sexual orientation? 

19. What’s your favorite color? 

20. What was your most embarrassing moment? 

 21. Do you ever wish you were someone else? 

 22. What were you like when you were a kid? 

23. What would your dream house be like? 

24. What last made you laugh? 

25. What is your favorite word? 

26. What is your least favorite word? 

27. What turns you on? 

28. What turns you off? 

29. What is your star sign? 

30. What are your favorite books? 

31. Do you have any siblings? 

32. Do you like to dance?

33. What is your definition of cheating? 

34. Have you ever cheated on someone? 

35. Do you regret anything? 

36. Do you have any phobias? 

37. Ever broken any bones? 

38. Ever come close to death? 

39. What is your religion, if any? 

40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? 

41. Are looks important in a relationship? 

42. Are you more like your mom or your dad? 

43. What is your favorite season? 

44. Do you have any tattoos? 

45. Do you have any piercings? 

46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 

47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? 

48. Who is your celebrity crush? 

49. Are you a virgin? 

50. Do you get jealous easily? 

51. What is your favorite type of food? 

52. Do you ever want to get married?

53. Who was your first kiss with? 

54. Have you ever been cheated on? 

55. What is your idea of the perfect date? 

56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? 

57. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? 

58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with?

59. What is your saddest memory? 

60. Do you believe in love at first sight? 

61. Do you believe in soul mates?

62. Have you ever dyed your hair? 

63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?

64. Would you go against your moral code for money?

65. What are three things most people don’t know about you? 

66. Who are you jealous of?

67. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?

68. How long was your longest relationship? 

69. Is the glass half empty or half full?

70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? 

71. Who is your most loyal friend? 

72. Are you in a relationship?

73. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? 

74. Are you a bad person? 

75. Are you a lover or a fighter? 

76. What did you do on your last birthday? 

77. What is your favorite quote and why? 

78. If your best friend died, what would you do? 

79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? 

80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? 

81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? 

82. Are you happier single or in a relationship? 

83. Who were you in a past life? 

84. What is your happiest childhood memory?

85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? 

86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend? 

87. If you were the president, what would you do? 

88. What is your ideal career? 

89. What is your political affiliation? 

90. Are you conservative or liberal? 

91. Is the male or female body closest to perfection?

92. Do you like kissing in public? 

93. If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? 

94. Where would you like to live? 

95. Where would you go on your dream vacation?

96. Describe yourself in one word.

97. Describe yourself in one sentence. 

You are in a café with me, what tea do you order?

1. Rosehip tea: Which book did you love when you were younger? 2. Oolong tea: Which book series could you read again? 3. Rooibos: What is one of you favourite books? 4. Strawberry tea: Tell me about your first kiss, if you had one. 5. Apple tea: Tell me about your first break up, if you had one. 6. Earl Grey: Which countries have you visited? 7. Chai: Where do you want to travel next? 8. Darjeeling: What languages do you speak? 9. Hop tea: Do you have a favourite tea? Which one? 10. Herbal tea: Which person would you chose to travel the world with? 11. Nettle tea: Are you jealous on a person? Why? 12. Ice tea: Do you miss somebody? Why? 13. Yellow tea: What shampoo do you use? 14. Peppermint tea: What is your favourite gif at the moment? 15. Ceylon tea: Do you have a song you like, but have bad memories with? 16. Hibiscus tea: What is a song you can always hear? 17. Flowering tea: What is a movie you can always watch? 18. Pu-erh tea: What is a book you can recommend to others? 19. Turkish tea: What is your favourite cake? 20. Green tea: What was the first movie you saw in a cinema? 21. Blueberry-Muffin tea: Tell me a memory, which makes you smile. 22. Panda tea: Do you have pets? Which one? 23. Butter tea: Show / Tell me about one thing i your room you find awesome. 24. Hot chocolate: Do you have (a) stuffed animal(s) sitting in your room? Which one(s)? 25. 24 flavors: What is your favourite word? 26. Jasmin tea: Can you draw / paint? Wanna show me something? 27. Kombucha: What do you order on a pizza? 28. Cloud tea: Which movie do you want to watch next? 29. Gunpowder tea: If you had the chance: would you go to space? 30. Matcha: Bonus question of you choice! I might answer…

why did you kiss me? (revised)

July 2014- for the story 
January 2015- I was there 
July 2015- we were drunk 
August 2015- you liked me 
May 2016- we were drunk (but i think we had something) September 2016- a mutual friend September 2016- we were drunk and i was funny September 2016- we were drunk and you were dancing September 2016- i was drunk and flirty and you were easy September 2016- initiation 
September 2016- we were drunk (but we definitely had something)

why did you kiss me?

July 2014- for the story January 2015- I was there July 2015- we were drunk August 2015- you liked me May 2016- we were drunk (but i think we had something) September 2016- we were drunk (but we definitely had something)