Control is addictive.
Saying NO is addictive. Having your brainpower over your hunger & body desires is addictive.
Let the world spiral & unravel. But MY body stays under MY control.
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So you’re feeling suicidal…
I’m not going to sugar coat it; it happens, especially for those of us suffering from BPD, Depression, and other mood and anxiety disorders.
And sometimes, it’s really fucking scary
So here’s my unsolicited advice to you; take it or leave it
*Personally, when I get really suicidal, like the “shit the rope is around my neck” or “the pills are in my hand just fucking take them” the last thing on my mind is “how can I save myself”, so…
Step 1: fight the urge. Survive the near attempt. Find a fucking ounce of hope that convinces you to live
*this can be anything, ie: because I love fuzzy sweaters, or because there is so much art I haven’t done
Step 2: ok, so you survived the near attempt, or very scary serious thoughts. Chances are, you’re still feeling pretty agitated, depressed, suicidal, or an impossibly infinite number of emotions. For me, the next step is to focus on something other than myself
*I use an app called “Calm Harm”. It is intended for self harm, but works equally as well for suicidal urges. It gives you suggestions and different tools to help pass the urge to self-destruct. Some are distractors, expressive outlets, or meditative techniques.
Step 2.5: if the urge does not pass, remove yourself from the unsafe environment. I cannot stress the importance or genuine effectiveness of this tool. Go to the library. Take a walk. Do what you have to do.
Step 3: When I manage to ride the wave, pass the urge, I am almost always left feeling numb, emotionless, and terrified of my own mind-more often than not, this makes me want to self harm.
If you are left feeling like you want to self harm, return to step 2: ride the wave, wait for the urge to pass.
If you do self harm- don’t beat yourself up about it. It happens, and usually it’s not the end of the world. However, if you do self harm, please take care of yourself afterwords
Step 4: if you’re feeling like you are able to, or if the option is feasible, remove the dangerous objects from your room; ie. pills, ropes, knives, razor blades, etc.
This can be a difficult step to take. Push yourself to take it, but make sure you take baby steps. Removing all coping mechanisms (such as cutting) can make things worse in the long run. So take it slow. Start with putting your pills in the bathroom so that they aren’t there to temp you, or moving the ropes to the garage. You’ll get there, but give yourself time.
Step 5: Self Care. Whether that is cleaning the wounds, making some tea, curling up with a good book or taking a nap, self care is key. You made it. You can do this. This is not the end of your story.
Being suicidal is no easy feat, and each and every time you get through that battle, you are one step closer to winning this war.
I’m proud of you for making it through those feelings and this post.
You are strong.
You are important.
You have an amazing future.
You just have to do is survive long to find it 🖤
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THIGH GAP WORKOUT (works well atleast for me!)
make sure to drink water and stay hydrated 🤍
I did it for 21 days until I had a thigh gap
https://youtu.be/dk3w8vcewEU
this is the results from a person who tried it
this is the workout
https://youtu.be/90a-Tf2jrVQ
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🐝This is the drink water bee
Every time you see it on your dash, you need to go and drink one glass of water!
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I've been on here for a while, but I haven't seen anyone mention this:
Vitamin water. Zero calories. Packed with electrolytes and vitamins that everyone here needs in order to function. And it actually tastes good! There are so many different flavors to choose from, and this has definitely kept me alive through fasts and stuff. I definitely recommend this over diet sodas or other drinks because 1) it tastes better and 2) it isn't literal battery acid. It's vitamins. Please try this, you won't regret it!
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Here is a little duck, i thought about you when I saw it, idk but I wanted you to see it
<3 look how cute this little duck is 🥺
HE IS PRECOUS OMFG SO CUTEEEEEEEEE
i love that u thought about me when u saw this precious little thing im screaming
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