Feeling down so u wanna cvt but being too down to actually cvt is so annoying

when I experience "bad" emotions its so pathetic. why be angry or sad, it doesn't help me at all? it makes my relationships with my family worse. when I get angry I yell and scream and blame others for my own actions. I should experience these emotions. they're useless.

am I at least weird and off putting in a pretty way?

isnt it weird that literally everything is made up

it hurts

lost in you - three days grace