Day 66- A preview for next week when MMM’s family finally gets to move home. I took a nap in the middle of the day which is probably not the best sign lol. It was actually a pretty nice nap, except for the fact the Phillies lost.

I’m almost finish with watching the Kdrama “Mad About You” after I watched Suzume this morning. There were some dropped thread plots for sure but the quest! I am in love with quests and the concept of earthquakes being cause by an otherworldly worm that most people can’t see when dropping to the Earth is such a cool concept of a natural disaster. We love to assign stoppable causes to things as humans. I wonder if there’s any Japanese mythology that’s similar or if it was more of an original plot. Also the key to closing the doors being the imprint of the people that used to be in the abandoned space hit me right in the heart (I cried with the last ones with all of the “see you soon” right before tsunami came through).

I texted MKM the same thing but I’m looking for a deeper romance I really should stick to the “average” looking guys in Kdramas- I do think it’s usually better acting and a more in depth plot to make it hit harder. Can’t just rely on being the hot ceo if you aren’t hot enough to pull it off.

Day 65- ugh I’m so sore after my workout today. Some normal sores, but it’s weird because It didn’t feel that intense but my calf still hurts and now my wrist and shoulder are in not great shape.

Spent a lot of the day helping MMM and GJM reorganizing and building some furniture to help ready for their movie in- T-minus a week give or take. Probably means lessening of MMM being featured in here. Had Red Robin (Yum) for lunch. Their chicken tenders are better than they should be.

We did finally get the mystery bad at Dairy Queen for funsies. I’ll be honest next time I go I might just get that for real. $6 for two ice creams at Dairy Queen is a steal.

MMM’s friends K&F came over for a couple hours at night. We also end up chatting about fitness and the big party K’s family used to throw yearly for most of it.

Day 64- A nice average day. Wish I had gone outside for a walk. Maybe tomorrow I will. So I don’t have much to say today. The most exciting things that happened today are me buying the Barbie PWHL sweatshirt and MMM’s friend GSH coming to visit. He came pretty late so not like we did that much. Just watching the Phillies.

I guess the only other interesting thing is how I woke up to a god awful cramp in my right calf this morning: and at 10:31 pm it doesn’t hurt exactly but it still doesn’t feel fully stretched out. I’m going to the gym tomorrow so let’s hope it’s ok by then. One day I’ll get to my ideal of 4 classes a week: 2 regular (weekend/weekday) and one strength/one tread (weekend weekday) but only once a good promotion to upgrade comes around lol.

Day 63- If I had known my mom was going to take 3 days at MPM’s house I would have just told her to take her minivan. Jk the thing does scare me when it comes to braking I’m not going more than 60 in that thing and people would road rage mom when she did the same. I thought I got in a car accident driving home from work today but it was just pots and pans knocking together in the back which I didn’t realize. Gave me a real scare. Funny enough I actually think it turns better than my car. Also terrified of the no back up camera lol.

Watching the Western Confernence NHL finals tonight- go Dallas. Although I wouldn’t be mad at 3/4 teams winning as long as it wasn’t the Rangers.

I found out a coworker is leaving today, and also realized I need to react to anxiety about change way better. This will barely affect me (our stuff doesn’t overlap and I doubt I’ll get much if anything changed). And yet, pit of my stomach feeling like I must be doing something wrong because I don’t want to leave. Idk how to fix that, it’s not like I outwardly did anything. I just felt stressful. Hopefully some of it is just because of my period.

Day 62- My sinus/eye/neck pain is back with a vengeance. :(

We did get a name VJH! Can’t wait to meet her. MMM is understandably frustrated that MPM took what she wanted to use as a middle for herself. I don’t remember the first time it happened but apparently it did. It’s rough because you can’t really “call” a name but she kind of did because she knew right away when she got pregnant. I should have shut my mouth and just supported her frustration. I believe all sentimentality should be kept to a middle name so I don’t think reusing a middle name is a huge deal, but she obviously does and it hurt that the name was taken away. And you can’t even really complain about it to other people because they probably just won’t get why it’s a big deal. So yeah I do get her frustration this time.

So lucky I wasn’t called in to meet the customer (not mine) today. But will need to meet them tomorrow which still stinks. At least I’ll be dressed appropriately and not in my ultimate period outfit lmao.

Day 61- MPM gave birth to a girl!!!!!!! My second niece 🥰. No name yet though, will probably hear tomorrow at some point. Hopefully. Wish I could be there as I love newborns. I wonder if we will get down to see her before too long. With all of the issues I’m not too sure. But now I just keep thinking about her cancer scan. It’s so scary…. It’s just not fair that I already had one sister die young from cancer.

My mom took my car to go visit MPM and now I’m stuck with her terrifying minivan that feels like it shouldn’t pass inspection. I’m going to stick in the right lanes for sure. Bests wishes to tomorrow me.

Day 60- I wish I could get my sinus to stop popping. It’s kind of freaking me out.

I went to the movies third wheeling ARM and her fiancé (don’t know his middle name so no initials for him lol). Saw Ezra which was about an autistic boy and his dad (mostly about his dad). Not a movie I would ever had gone to see but for $5 I’ll call it worth it. I have an obsession with spoilers but then I’m not as interested because I know the spoilers. ARM did correctly theorize what the movie was but that was way after she bought the ticket for me so I couldn’t back out.

Actually “packed” food for once- aka I brought the left over cheesesteak from lunch yesterday. It would be good to pack lunch but honestly I’m just so lazy. I don’t want to eat at work- I want to go home.

Day 59- I hate that the weekend is only two days. It never feels like long enough. My nap today actually felt pretty refreshing for once so I’m glad that worked out. I knew I would need one once I woke up at 6:45.

I watched game 1 of the PWHL finals tonight. I hope this league makes it and the athletes make a solid wage. (Do athletes make a ton of money yeah but it is a short career and not all of them are making multiple millions).

MPM is soon to give birth which means it’s almost time for her cancer scan… and I pray to god it’s all ok. I’m so scared though, I can’t even imagine how scared she is. Thought of it today because everyone was discussing pregnancies. Seems highly counterproductive to being it up at this point that’s why it’s going here. Also scared for my Dad’s cancer scan- it’s not like we can be surprised if he has lung cancer but it’s still going to be hard. They don’t just send people for scans because they don’t think something is there.

Day 58- I went to a casino for the first time ever (beyond the one incident I shall not talk about), and I lost $100. I blame MMM :(

I told her on the drive home this is all I was going to write in my diary tonight, so writing a short one today.

Day 57- Shoulder/neck pain and sinus pressure still here.

I did 0 work from home today. I’m capable of working from home today I just never want to do it. Stops me from getting a headache but only if I get out of bed which is hard to do because I don’t want to be embarrassed by showing everyone in the house how little work I do. Love the use of circular logic here but it is what it is.

I think the guy I went on a date with is at least interested in keeping up a conversation with me. I’ll see how it goes.

Day 56- just finished another date. I should delete hinge. I do nothing but embarrass myself. I talked about insurance!!!! Insurance!!!! We will see if I tricked this man somehow. We have similar interests I think. When it doesn’t work out I’m deleting hinge. I give up I’m a huge loser. So glad it worked out on a day no one would even think to ask and that we was willing to come so early now no one in the family even has to know, so at least that’s a win. It’s a loss that I forgot the other half of my Alfredo pasta at the restaurant :(

I feel the pressure in my right sinus still all the time. It’s not even a pain exactly it’s more like I just can’t get it to relax ever. Dr. Google tells me it might be a migraine but it’s been so long I can’t believe that’s true.

Day 55- I’ve fallen asleep and just now woken up and remembered I forgot to write today. It was my only (currently) married sister’s anniversary on May 15th. Her husband is a funny guy, he’s a pretty stereotypical man but isn’t afraid to verbally declare his love (and I know drunk people speaking “truths” isn’t exactly real but his default is to get more even more demonstrative when drunk). I’m glad my sister found him, he’s a good guy and they balance each other out.

I’m glad I went to the gym today. I think it broke me out of my work haze. Idk why it was a particularly terrible day where I was bored out here my mind counting down every second but it was. Weirdly enough I think I did the best lunges of my life. My legs felt stronger with much less bottom of the feet pain- I’m not sure why. Hopefully it doesn’t mean I did something wrong today.

Day 54- I wish I had been better at the dentist to talk about more than just my sensitivity and brought up my jaw issues too. I feel like I need a mouth guard but the dentist shot me down last time and I was too cowardly to bring it up again.

I need to find a primary care doctor. Do my own research and not let perfection be my enemy.

Had a fairly productive but boring day at work.

I set up another date for Thursday with a different guy. Hope I don’t back out this time.

Day 53- Face check in is my shoulder and neck are noticeably hurting but the rest of my face is ok rn. Hopefully when I stop typing and settle in a can get the pain to subside a little.

My sister’s sister in law had her baby today. I find that to be wonderful I love babies and families. It was funny to find out the new intern’s birthday is today- what are the chances?

I’m not really a practicing Catholic but I wonder if lying about a family emergency to get out of a date I no longer felt like going to would be considered a sin? I’d crack up telling that to a priest. After going out for lunch, having stomach issues after, and not really being that into the guy I just didn’t feel like it.

Still did the first half of my plan to hang out at the bookstore for a bit. I bought 4 books one of them a sequel to a book I own and the other three I bought based off the covers. I’ll be honest buying books based on covers hasn’t really let me down before so I’m excited to give these a try. I finished “10,000 stitches” in one afternoon I was so engrossed. The author did a good job balancing the seriousness of the topic without making it bleak. I’m so used to having both perspectives when reading a romance book wish I had it here too. This is not a criticism because the book isn’t missing it- I just wish I got to see it.

Day 52- I slept in “late” today. By that I mean 8:30. Otf was fairly brutal today. I tried to wear my very soft Mickey pants but they are so big (not because I lost weight they’re just huge) and long. It’s a good thing I didn’t leave the house today.

Hate when I waste the day in a nap and don’t even get a good internal story out of it. I never really settled down on one.

Watching Fire Island with my mom is a unique experience for sure. I’ve found all I need to believe sexual tension is for people to look each other in the eyes lol. I can’t believe it took me however long to figure out Cooper was the Caroline equivalent until it slapped me in the face :(

Day 51- can’t believe I scared myself if my own hat pick. I should have realized this movie (Talk to Me) could send me into an extensional crisis. Oh well I will just have to hope I fall asleep before the end of this hockey game. I hope Dallas claws their way to win the Stanley cup. After having to go through VGK and now the Avalanche (if they make it) it would only be fair.

Finished Fairy Tail today! I should have waited until after this movie exact opposite vibes lol. It’s ok because there’s a sequel I was on the fence about reading because it’s not complete but I might as well.

Have one (potentially two) dates lineup up. I want this but I think my problem is how much I don’t really want to life change. I’m trying though so I can only hope one day it clicks with someone.

Day 50- I can’t believe I missed the big 50 post. Well all I did was read Fairy Tail actually getting to the part I had never read before.

Phillies have been off to a fast start unlike the past few years so that’s exciting. Maybe this is the year? Won easily 8-2 last night against the Marlins and Ranger is still in beast mode.

We still didn’t get to watch a hat movie even though we were all here. That’s so disappointing :(