"Everything will be alright in the end, so if it is not alright, it is not the end."

30/05/2023

Went out to the British library to study and then we went to Hyde park after for a walk! Managed to get a little chemistry done but not as much as I would’ve liked.. especially with exams coming up.

Time will tell, I suppose, or at least, these pages will.

02.08.23

I studied for 6 hours today. It feels so good to study. I wish for academia to take over my life and consume me. I want to be a workaholic.

something about the arrangement of these spines is really doing it for me <3

frohe mitternacht (ish) btw! 🌙

Since I've indulged a little and bought a few books in the last two months you might be seeing a few titles on my page now

Saturday, the 17th of December

I was up early today and am now comfortably seated on my couch working on some emails, my dog spread out next to me with her legs in the air. It's a good day so far. It has been a good week, really. I've studied and worked a lot, I reconnected with some friends and run into others by accident. Seeing their faces was important. It reminded me of how much I've grown to love this place in the last two years, what great people I've met. It also plays a part in my upcoming decision to leave this university behind soon. I don't think I am ready yet. Finally, I found a place where I feel totally at home. Now I am supposed to leave it behind already? I have the impression I'd sacrifice a lot by moving abroad and looking at my dog (who is quite particular about whom she likes) I am anxious we won't be able to manage on our own with everyone so far away, not even knowing if I'd find a suitable place. I've put it off for so long - deciding on whether I am ready to leave yet that now it needs to be done.

Studying

Write to professors for papers

Cultural Studies text

Read three chapters for Linguistics

Read Floating City

Finish at least 3 exam simulations

Practice Russian

12.19.21 | a reflection on my first semester as a med student

herdrafts Lately I got drawn into writing after an intricate dream I had, because I always dream what I write or sketch, except for some characters I’ve found fascinating when I am reading a book. I am really trying hard to put some words down, I deliberately took some days off from socials to focus more on my drafts (also because I feel dizzy all day thanks to my wisdom teeth). I want to take this slow; waking up early completely wrapped in the fresh autumn breeze, having a steamy cup of coffee and looking outside the window, realizing I have all the time in the world. 🍁 Just a small reminder to not rush things that need time to grow.

my new desk set-up has got me feeling very productive.

half a year ago, i was considering making a life change that was, frankly, absolutely terrifying to me.

i gave up on being premed in my sophomore year of undergrad for a variety of reasons, the main one being feelings of inadequacy. i never considered the path i'd have to take until it was staring me in the face, and i abandoned my goals out of fear.

fast forward through two years of undergrad, a pandemic graduation, my first adult™ job in the medical field, and a complete re-evaluation of my priorities and what i'm capable of, and... i am proud to say that i am back on a premed track.

this time around, i have a much better idea of what steps i must take, how hard i must work, and how long the path will be. i won't say i'm not afraid anymore. challenging myself is scary. but i've made it this far, and i have so much farther to go.

i'm documenting my non-traditional premed journey, starting with my applications to postbaccalaureate premedical programs. i'd love to hear your stories as well. let's freaking do this thing!

hoping this coffee fixes my headache and my writing block

sending emails but sniffling and whimpering after typing each word

Letters my grandpa sent to my grandma when they were in a long distance relationship

[270821] Summer must-haves; iced coffees and loafers

You can take breaks as long as you don't give up ✨

Molalar verebilirsin yeterki pes etme ✨