I have to say I am honestly surprised so many of you are still here. I really didn’t mean to disappear, that was so unintentional, but I figured a lot of people would unfollow me and I wouldn’t have blamed them. regardless, I am still alive! as is az! I just got really caught up between school, work, and moving in with my boyfriend. all threads are still on hold, and I WILL be getting to them once school is over in only TWO MORE WEEKS! that’s not a long time, right?

I’m so sorry again, but I promise I will be back. if you guys wanna start up new threads or what not, or drop old ones, that’s a-okay too! I know it’s been awhile, and muses change and whatever else happens. don’t be afraid to say something!

in the mean time, these are the drafts I still have:

@thesinsofcain x2, @elasticisms, @porcelaindxncer, @crispyblonde, @waywardperegrination, @sonofshadow, @survivingthedemonsinside, @diedinomaha, @brokenmagxc, @vitiiosum, @sxldiercivilian, @thenovakmartyr x2, @i-am-made-of-stars, @cary-onmywaywardson​, and @sempiternalcadence.

still alive over here guys, still alive. just popping in for a second to say as much, yes I am nearly done with replies, and I'll be making a longer post about all this later tonight. stay tuned, and yhank you all for being patient with me!!!

hey guys, been a little while. I’m so sorry I haven’t had time to get to my mountain of drafts, but things have been really busy and hectic on my end. I’m either at school, at work, or trying to fit in something of a social life, so rping time has been drastically cut short.

I’m still here though! I’m working on things slowly, but as most of you know by now, I post all my replies at once. so once everything is done, then you’ll all get replies. until then, thank you all for being so patient.

and just to make sure you guys know which drafts I have, here’s the list: thenovakmartyr (x2), sempiternalcadence, cary-onmywaywardson, i-am-made-of-stars, sxldiercivilian, finiis, vitiiosum, thesinsofcain, brokenmagxc, porcelaindxncer, elasticisms, diedinomaha, ten4janai, survivingthedemonsinside, sonofshadow, waywardperegrination, and crispyblonde.

so yeah, I’ve got 18 drafts, most of which are multi-para and/or novella. I’m gonna get through these as quick as I can, but bear with me. you’re all so wonderful. I am actually considering dropping a few things, but I’m not sure yet. it’s very up in the air, so don’t worry about that.

anyway, I just wanted you all to know that I’m still here and I love you all and I hope you’re all doing well <3

hey guys, sorry for not being around much! I’ve been so busy with school starting, and work, and everything in between. I’m a little tired, but definitely still here! I am putting this blog on a school semi-hiatus though, which means I’ll only be on 1-2 times a week, maybe even 1-2 times every two weeks, it really depends.

regardless, I’m glad to see the quotation-mark fiasco is over, and of course it’s tumblr’s fault with another useless update.

in any case, I fixed some stuff in my recent previous replies, and the list of those threads is as follows: diedinomaha, omnipotenceisoverrated, ericfuckinnorthman, and sonofshadow. if I missed fixing stuff in our thread and you’d like me to go in and do that, just let me know!

the next list are drafts I have that I’m gonna start working on this weekend: thenovakmartyr x2, sempiternalcadence, cary-onmywaywardson, i-am-made-of-stars, sxldiercivilian, finiis, vitiiosum, thesinsofcain, and brokenmagxc.

fate's a hypocrite.

“I have never had the pleasure of meeting him and,” He said in a whisper that showed the thinness of his patience, “as long as it’s up to me I never will.” There were a lot of things that weren’t up to even a fate. The apparent controllers of all thing. Maybe that was something an angel could understand; as long as g-d allowed humans to have wills they would never be control. Not the absolute kind. Fates were nothing more than sheep boys keeping the sheep from consuming the wrong kind of grass and being consumed by the wrong kind of wolf. 

“Crow, you’re not making this easy for me.”  Earned, why did that sound too honest for Nye’s liking, “Anyway, I told you, there is nothing that I can do for you. What you want you can’t have it.” There was no deal to be struck with the chips she was dishing out. Pushing him into a corner with her rage all because she wanted to hear a false promise one that would be able to fix her. Nye felt ashamed for her, that he could look at her and know all this because he had watched humans do the same. He thought Angels would play a smarter game at the very least. “That thread was cut the moment you became divine. Angels can’t attach to anyone, they can purify they can feel but they can’t tie themselves to another being especially not selfishly. Your fate is with g-d not me.” The problem was others could tie themselves to them like suckling pigs or leeches, a divine could only have parasites not lovers.

They were at a standstill, a stale mate that terminated after a few moves and then they would both lose. A draw couldn’t be an option. “All I can do to earn your word is with my own.” So Nye threw his cards down and folded. He took out a thin silver business card holder, there was only one slotted in between the constructed sheets of metal and as he held it out to her the cream coloured card appeared blank. Nye spun it around so it was slotted between his fingers showing a shimmer of what looked like writing, a number and a name perhaps. “When you have fixed your mess make one request and send it to this number. You are free to ask me anything but this is a tie I will have to you until it is completed. Don’t ask me for anything I cannot deliver Crow. If you do you will curse me to remain in your company for a very long time.“  g-d had done the fate wrong when he created the will and all he could do now was hope that his job here was done.

There was a sly sort of bitter smile on Azrael’s face as the Fate spoke of her boss, and she crossed her arms over her chest, her eyes still a livid, painful sort of blue. “Everyone meets him someday, there’s no avoiding that. Best be prepared for whenever it HAPPENS,” she remarked, or more warned than anything else. But this was neither the time nor place to start using Death as a threat --- though he was in fact the ULTIMATE threat when you really thought baout it --- regardless of how much the angel wanted to be done with this conversation.

She could have laughed then, if she wasn’t still so angry. “Sorry to disappoint,” she shrugged, dismissing the comment until he started speaking again. If Azrael had been angry before, the sudden drop in temperature, the ICE that crackled along the concrete, the swirling clouds that started to creep up ahead, and the gale of wind that picked up was enough to add to that anger, her eyes ALMOST glowing now.

“How dare you?” she said, her voice suddenly louder though she wasn’t really speaking above a casual tone. “How DARE you think that I would ever ask you for something like that? How dare you think so low of people who aren’t like you that you would assume I’d disrupt someone’s afterlife, JUST for my own selfish desires? I may be cruel and cold, but NEVER assume I would hurt someone I truly cared about. My word is solid, my loyalty is eternal. So think whatever the fuck you want of me, but don’t you EVER think I’d go that far.” There was a pause then, a moment for the cold in the air to fall away, at least a little, and for the sudden storm to blow past. “Besides, I never found his heaven. For all I know, he doesn’t have one. And I do blame my father. I never stopped blaming Him.”

There was still so much tension hanging in the air between them, enough to where Azrael’s expression visibly faltered to confusion when Nye pulled out what looked to be some sort of business card. But the explanation was more than enough for the angel, and a mischievous smile spread across her lips. Never mind the fact that she would have gone ahead and fixed her mess anyway, but the offer was nice. She gently took the card, examining it’s contents before nodding. “You have yourself a deal. I’ll fix this in the next couple of days so --- be ready be ready to deliver.”

eternal squad goals.

         “That could work as long as they weren’t worried about how confused they were by some of it. But honestly, I’m still confused about a lot of it that came out after 2005…” She even had the reference confusion too for those years. A lot of people would start a conversation with her and use terms she didn’t know or talk about some celebrity that she couldn’t even tell them what they were famous for most of the time. “Pretending seems to be a good mechanism to avoid all that awkwardness.” Laughing, she shook her head. “As long as Mr. Steakman can take care of himself. I don’t think we need two damsels in distress running around.”

             Though Jess had gotten much better, she still worried sometimes that she was going to mess up and be a burden on the angel when she needed saving. Surely, it hadn’t been easy to harbor a once dead Winchester fugitive that had almost gotten herself killed by a demon in an alley two weeks after she had been resurrected. One of the other angels or a demon, whoever brought her back, could be looking for her. Even if Ashley had made it very hard to find her, the thoughts were always in the back of her mind. “Oh, yeah, that’s what they are. Sorry, I forget sometimes that you can’t know everything that a lost of humans know about just yet.”

              She walked alongside the angel, waiting at the crosswalk along with her. “Hopefully not too many. I don’t really know how big nests can get though.” Maybe new vampires would be less knowledgeable about fighting a hunters, but they really couldn’t count on it she supposed. Starting off in the direction of the apartment when the sign changed, she shrugged her shoulders. “Like doing something normal together?” Maybe that would be a better break from the mess up in Heaven than continuing to deal with the supernatural would be for Ashley.

             “It’s really just memorization, but I guess it’s different for me. I’ve been able to really watch the way technology has moved, and it’s been booming the last decade or so. I think it’s pretty impressive what humans can do with a computer these days, and I know for a fact there was no supernatural influence that started that. The embellishments? Probably crossroads demons, but the computer was a totally human idea,” Az smiled, kind of happy she could share that little fun fact with Jess.

             The angel grinned then, shrugging almost apologetically. “Here I am talking about the birth of computers and you’ve gotta explain what a flip-book is to me. I’m just as bad as you are,” Az teased, nudging her friend in the arm playfully as they headed across when the sign changed. She couldn’t help but wonder what her brothers and sisters would think if they saw Az like this, not necessarily with just Jess, but just acting so human with someone who was just that. It wasn’t like her human sympathies were unknown, but Azrael doubted Heaven knew the extent.

             “Fairly extensive actually, but from the research I’ve been doing on the area, there doesn’t seem to be much of a network going on yet. I’m thinking about ten to fifteen tops, depending on how long they’ve been there,” the angel explained as the pair headed down the sidewalk. They were in view of the apartments now, though the garage was around back. Regardless, she looked back over at Jess when her friend spoke, and gave one of her genuine smiles. “Ya know, that sounds pretty good. I know this great beach in Spain we can go.”

meal ticket.

       “Something else? Then I guess it would really be wise not to             stick around if it got that many of them.”

Angels were probably one of the closest things to invincible, or so she had heard. Or at least they should be, given what they were made for. Obviously she was in way over her head, but delving back into hunting when she heard that Rufus had been killed by Bobby himself seemed like the only thing she could do. Getting versed in angels in case she had to seemed most appropriate. She hadn't considered it to be half this dangerous. Rethinking things was probably a good idea.

Shaking her head, she smiled at the woman a bit. Helping her find some food was a lot easier than mulling over what had happened back there.

           “The diner I ate at last night must have the best food in town.              I could take you there if you want.”

Raisa had been mostly alone since her return a few years ago and some company sounded nice, if even for a little while. The woman was mysterious but she did not feel threatened by her. The diner had popped into her mind instantly, since she hadn't been too impressed by the food she had tried out today before she had tracked down the angelic activity. She continued to walk toward her car anyway, assuming the answer would be yes.

The thought of food was definitely more than enough to get Ashley's mind off of her angel, at least for a little bit. If all went as it usually did, Azrael would be back in a few days. And the woman knew the angels had a couple of other vessels she used from time to time --- she'd once teased Az about cheating on her --- when the situation was unusually dangerous, so there was probably nothing to worry about.

Still, unlike most angel-vessel relationships, Ashley really worried about Azrael. Az had never made the experience painful for Ash, and while the vessel wasn't the biggest fan of seeing her body being torn up in fights, she knew the angel took care of her as best she could.

              “Si, that would be wonderful. I am assuming you have some               sort of car?”

She looked around then, hoping to spot the young woman's means of transportation. Then again, if the woman was a hunter like Ashley expected, the car might be some distance away. But Ash followed anyway, sending a silent prayer to Azrael that the angel would be okay.

✞ { LEDAN }

             [ He gave her a slight 'fair enough' nod, to signal              that he understood where she was coming from.              Sometimes,  even with  the hex,  he forgot  how              much  some of the angels had been affected  by              being stuck on earth.  He counted himself lucky              that, wherever his powers came from, it was not              heaven,  and he wasn't  cut off from them.  Even              if they  were  never  really  as potent.  He had  to              admit,  with the hex still in play  it wouldn't  have              been the best idea to heal her.. ]

      ❝ ------ SURE, of course. ❞

             [ Ledan   took  the  bandages  back  from  her  and              carefully wrapping the bandages over the, actually,              pretty gruesome wound;  as he did so,  he tried his              best  not   to  catch  anything   or  cause  any  pain.              Though, of course, a little bit was unavoidable. ]

            { Well at the very least, he didn't throw it in her face                that she should've just asked in the first place. It                seemed like whenever she was around other angels                --- or those who fell along the lines --- there was                nothing but arrogance and sarcasm thrown around.                Not to say Leda wasn't sarcastic, but it seemed like                he understood where the line was. Az appreciated                that much, and she appreciated him going ahead                and starting to help dress the wound. }

      ❝ Ya know, I sometimes miss the old days. At least then I          could heal myself without running out of JUICE. This is           just annoying now. ❞

            { She winced then, but did her best not to move. A human                would be crying or passed out from the pain by now, but                Az could take it. That didn't mean it didn't hurt. }

      ❝ ------ what were you doing all the way out there anyway? I          mean, I'm GLAD you were, but I'm curious. ❞

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do tell.

&lduo;Considering I don't suck at either of my jobs, I can't help you.”

He refrains from telling her she smells funny --- like ugly ashes or burning buildings.  Something on fire.   Brimstone.  He can't be certain ---.

Eric is also curious as to why he always seems to be the hub for weird people in bars approaching him for conversation.  Does he have that approachable look about him?  That look that says, ‘yes, stranger!  Tell me about your problems!’

Does he?

      “I also hire the right people in the event I need a job done.                 It is hard to find good help but when you do,         pay an assload for it and call it a day.”

There's plenty of times when a remark like that would make Az a bit agitated. But in all honesty, she's a little too tired at that moment to do anything other than sigh and shrug.

             “It was worth a shot. What do you recommend anyway?”

Regardless, she gives the man a closer look this time, realizing he isn't at all human. Not that the angel isn't aware she was basically in the heart of vampire country, but Azrael being exhausted from work made her observational skills a bit non-existent. It also made her talkative for some reason.

             “And that actually works?”

It's a genuine question, one laced in curiosity as she tilts her head at him.

               “Honestly, I'd probably get my ass handed to me by my                boss if I did that but --- I guess what he doesn' know                won't hurt him.”

death paperwork club.

The angel did have a point, but unless she was willing to do the mission shirtless, he simply had no interest. A reaper always had better things to do; if ‘better things’ referred to sorting files & dealing with obnoxious relatives.

          ❝ It's too much of a risk, I'd rather not get involved.              Don't you have anyone else to ask, anyway? ❞

She just sighed, running a hand through her chocolate-brown locks. She didn't understand why the ‘Death-system’ ( as she liked to call it ) was so difficult to work around anymore these days.

              ❝ Well Hades and Osiris only talk to Death, and Anubis                won't return any of my calls. I also have no idea where                Hel is, so --- no, not really. But come on, I really doubt                you're doing anything that can't be saved for later. ❞

That much she knew from personal experience. Az may not have been a Reaper, but she knew her and Thanatos were roped in with them anyway, and thus, were dealt similar work-loads.

the boss.

❝This is hardly something you would             want to be involved with, Azrael.                        Take my word on that.❞

❝You're no fun, Death.  All I get to do all day is work.❞

hey guys, just popping in to say that I'm not dead, just really really busy with school and work right now. I've been working on drafts, and they'll be done by monday. I'll have more of an update then. I love you all!

in which I have no muse other than: Az is horny and I have no way to help her with that

oh god, the new semester starts on monday??!!!1?!???111??11!!?!

how many centuries deep is your wound?

Adonis, from “Unintended Worship,” If Only the Sea Could Sleep (Green Integer, 2003)