sorry for freaking out the other day. im being beaten over the head every day by some evil god that likes to laugh at me and a world that doesnt want me but the thing is vash the stampede personally came to my house (real and true) and told me im not allowed to die or he'll be so mad and sad and he'll start crying so here i am

its like im this gods fucking jester humiliating myself over and over by thinking i could make things better for once and then immediately making myself look like a stupid fucking fool when he pulls the rug out from under me

ive mentioned multiple times how theres just gotta be some god out there trying to kill me and once again im proven right cause how do i lose my health insurance immediately after getting out of the psych hospital, immediately after finally, FINALLY getting things set up to get the help ive desperately wanted and needed, and not chalk it up to just the most fucked up malicious divine intervention. like what am i supposed to think when these things keep happening to me over and over and over again? what else could keep tearing things apart every single time i start to think things could change in a good way for me? what is so determined to kill me and why? these things just keep happening to me consistently. every time. every time. what else am i supposed to believe when im trying so fucking hard to help myself, to make things better, and just by chance something happens to fuck me over every single time? every single fucking time i feel some sort hope. like im not supposed to feel it. like im not allowed to have it. like im not supposed to be happy, or not supposed to fix myself

load bearing picture of wolfwood i keep open at all times for my health

FUCK WORK!!!! but at least im feeling forward inertia instead of backward, and thats the best feeling i can say ive experienced the past few years

you go through some of the worst shit of your life which could have ended so so so badly and a week later you have to go back to work

i think the funniest thing about the psych hospital was how much they emphasized going outside and exercising to improve mental health while we were all locked inside a single dimly lit floor of the building not allowed to leave

guess who just experienced his first inpatient stay at a

love you guys. youve all been so kind to me, much more than i ever could have possibly deserved, and im really truly grateful for that

The CDC just banned skinny white dudes

this website was created a month before trimax ended

vash the stampede has been crawling around on this website probably since its inception and i just didnt even notice him until now.

this website was here before badlands rumble

vash the stampede has been crawling around on this website probably since its inception and i just didnt even notice him until now.

vash the stampede has been crawling around on this website probably since its inception and i just didnt even notice him until now.

Smooching notes~!

So the people on Twitter seemed to find my notes very useful, So I am sharing them to you guys as well

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stupid longass sponsored books post that im not allowed to report. kill thine self

i HATES my chores