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dangerousblackbird · 3 years

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I am going to tell a little about my past from cosplaying, my hobby, where my heart belong. 💙 I bet some of you might have experienced the same! Thanks for reading!

Let me know if you could relate to this!

I've been cosplaying since 2012 but I really started at 2017.. Two years later at 2019 I took a break from social media with one account and different contents, I lost 1500 followers and a lot of friends. I had a lot to deal with at that moment (we all can relate), and needed a break. (Not knowing you could pause IG instead of deleting it).

So when I had one account for both contents, while I actually wasn't happy about, I wanted to separate them but no sure how.

It was really frustrating me.. I felt the pressure to post on time to make the followers happy, I posted more about one subject then all sort of different cosplays and people wanted to see more differences.. And of course that's not how it works.. I couldn't handle the stress of losing followers for not posting enough or not having the content they expected me to show them.

As well the negativity and hate towards people and the community. It really surprised me! Things I've seen people do to others and how they talk people down. I never expected to see something like this in a happy community where we should only supporting each other, right? (I thought!).

My mom who also didn't liked the hobby was glad that I decided to quit it.. And it took me a week to make the big step. Of course I felt relieved.. I had no stress anymore for posting and cosplaying.. I also saved up a lot of money as this was an expensive hobby. Still it felt a bit weird.

After 6 month's, when I felt better, I decided to try to pick up my hobby again! Eventhough I sold all my cosplays back then, and it took a while before I found all my friends.. My mom wasn't happy to hear this and kept saying: "You quited remember?"

When I restarted, I felt an overwhelming feeling of happiness and love, my friends where super happy and glad I was back, I felt so damn great, I can't describe the feeling! But it felt REALLY REALLY good!❤

For me this was a moment to realize how much I loved this and questioned myself: "Why would I ever quit it for someone else or any pressure?" In these months I really could think about it clearly in a better way. As well had the same energy to cosplay and shoot as the very beginning, I again understood why I loved it that much.

So I restarted with a fresh and new beginning, and I started to work on two different accounts. I thought it might be hard, but it isn't ! One is for my biggest obsession, love and passion.. Vocaloid! The other one is for different contents and for being myself.😊

This actually really worked! I never got my 1500 followers back and that's fine! I have all my friends back and some of them become really good, real and close friends I never want to lose again. After a year I still see the fun in my hobby, no more stress about the followers or their opinions. We do this for ourselves.💕

So to all of us:

We loved our hobbies before we shared it on social media, we worked hard for it, before others liked it or expected us to do shit. We know our worth and love for it, we do this for ourselves after all.

It's amazing how people support each other, and how we share our proud of work! But keep in mind: If you ever feel shit, not enough, not worth it, it could be better.. Remember.. to breathe, think, and take a break! A break from social media, to clear your mind, to breathe your heart. And when you feel like things are better, try to go on.

Let it rest for a moment and give yourself the rest you need.. Go for a walk, visit some friends, have a drink and watch a movie, take a napp and relax.. Maybe you get even more or new inspiration for your artwork!

As long as you remember why you started, and why you love doing it. As long as you are happy with it, that's the key to keep going!

Do what you love fellas, Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Don't put hate on others for not being good enough, we all start low and we all practice to get better, we all get there! Let's keep supporting and loving each other, because that's how we keep it a happy place and we all need some love and support these days.💜

#cosplaying #cosplaystress #supporteachother #cosplaystruggle #hobbies #dowhatyoulove

My friends from left to right: Christy, Valentine and myself.

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