Behind closed doors #2

So I have this whole story finished. I just want to spread it out a little. But here’s the next part. 

The next few days of filming were filled with a tension unlike anything she had experienced before. While her and Jesse had tucked away the event that took place in her trailer, Tracy couldn’t help but replay it in her mind every time she saw him. And unfortunately they were together a lot for their scenes. They hadn’t discussed it further and instead just let it hang between them silently for now. But she could tell that he knew what she was thinking and the way his eyes would darken every time they shared a look told her he was feeling the exact same way. Luckily the crazy filming schedule didn’t leave her much time to let her mind wander even if Jesse's presence was a constant reminder. Despite her best efforts to keep herself composed around everyone including Jesse, she knew she would slip up sometimes. By staring at him too long or letting her eyes wander. The most obvious was probably the amount of times her cheeks would burn with a blush, usually after she caught him staring at her or little comments he would slip in here and there. 

To her surprise she made it through the rest of the filming week and was thankful for a weekend off. She locked herself in her apartment and focused on some alone time. Tracy stayed in sweats all weekend, finished a book she had been putting off for forever, took a bubble bath and drank more wine than she cared to admit. The weekend itself was perfect and Tracy had managed to almost forget all about the upcoming scene she would be filming tomorrow. Almost. But Monday morning came bright and early and she could feel the nerves simmering in her stomach as she made her way onto set. Quickly making it through wardrobe and make up both of which only added to her nerves as they equipped her with everything needed to film an almost nude scene. Of course, no one would really see anything but that didn’t make her feel any less exposed. After some thought though she realized it wasn’t all the crew that would be in the room with them that had her on edge it was Jesse. She would be almost fully exposed to him at some point and the thought made her skin burn. He also would be touching her and the memory of his fingers ghosting over her skin already had her on fire. She spent the rest of her morning in the trailer praying she could just get through this scene and then they could move on to whatever it was that came next both on the show and in real life. A knock on her door signaled it was time to head to set so Tracy took one last look in the mirror before heading out. 

Arriving on set Tracy had to force some deep breaths into her chest when she took in the set up. It didn’t seem any different then other sets they had been on but she knew this one would be different. She was managing to maintain her cool until Jesse walked in and then she felt her heartbeat start to race. The director coached them through a brief rehearsal pointing out certain angles but then basically told them to have at it. Tracy was happy for the dim lighting in the room as she knew her cheeks were a bright red. They made it through filming the scene in one take and once they finished she all but sprinted to her trailer. Inside the enclosed space she finally let herself take some time to process what had just happened. Of course it was just acting and most of what they had done was written in the script but that didn’t take away anything that she felt under his touch or the tingling in her lips after he had ravished hers. She sat on her couch feeling her body still flush with heat and jumped when there was a knock at her trailer door. She hesitantly opened it up and wasn’t shocked to see Jesse had made his way to her trailer. He stepped inside and pulled the door shut behind him. Tracy walked over to her small kitchen and stood at the sink feeling suddenly parched for water. She jumped a little when she felt him come to stand behind her and his hands found her waist. She focused on drinking the water and keeping her thoughts in check but when he pulled at her hips slightly and pressed her back against him she could feel his excitement pressing into her back. Her grip on the glass tightened so much it almost shattered when his lips drifted lightly over her neck placing soft kisses on the tender skin there. He pulled her back against him again and she could feel his excitement growing ever so slightly. 

“I just wanted you to know what you just did to me.” He whispered against her neck and she shivered when his hot breath rushed over her skin. He smirked against her neck when he felt her move and she knew the look would kill her. 

“Sorry about that.” She teased lightly letting out a chuckle when his hands gripped her tighter. 

“I’m not looking for an apology. I just wanted you to know.” He smiled against her neck and placed another kiss there. 

“Yeah well I’m not doing so hot myself.” She admitted leaning back into his touch. 

“No?” His voice was low when he spoke and she shivered again. One hand left her waist and slid down to hover over the front of her jeans dipping just below the fabric there. She couldn’t respond with words as her breath caught in her throat so she merely shook her head back and forth slowly. Jesse’s fingers dipped lower under her waist band and she gripped the counter to keep herself upright. “Is this okay?” He asked softly and his tone made her weak in the knees. She nodded still unable to speak and then his hand pushed even lower to cup her through the thin fabric that was the only thing separating them. She couldn’t help but gasp when his fingers slowly pushed the fabric aside and he drew one finger through her center. His lips were on her neck again and he moaned when he felt her arousal for him. She could feel his own excitement pressing into her back and the sensation was overwhelming. Before they could take it any further though there was another knock on her door and someone called out her name to let her know it was time to head back to set. She did her best to keep her voice level as she called out a quick response despite the fact that his hand was still cupping her in her jeans. He slowly slid his hand out tapping his other fingers on her hip bone before he stepped away from her. She tentatively turned around to face him and could tell he was just as wrecked as she was. Not to mention the large bulge in the front of his jeans. His eyes watched hers as she trailed down his front before darting back up to meet his smirk. His cheeks were flushed just like hers and she wasn’t sure how to proceed. They needed to pull themselves together before they left but she wasn’t sure that was possible especially when he was standing in front of her looking like that. Tracy felt her throat tighten as she watched his hand slide down the front of his own jeans and shift his erection into a more manageable position. His other hand held his shirt lifted up just enough that when his hand came out from his jeans she could see the tip of him just above the waistline. Any hope of settling herself down vanished and she gulped hard watching him smirk as she did so. He had given her the glimpse intentionally and they both knew it. She was sure he had gotten exactly the response he was looking for too. They could hear more voices outside the trailer and she knew their time was up. She unfroze herself from her spot and tried to focus on pulling herself together. She knew it was going to be a long day after this and could only pray she would survive it. 

Behind closed doors

She knew it was coming, it was only a matter of time with all the build up for “Upstead” the network had been doing. But still Tracy found herself surprised when she received the script for the next episode. She had taken a quick flip through between the takes they were currently filming, but nothing had prepared her for the words she would catch glimpses of. Apparently, not only was “Upstead” happening, but they would be displaying the newfound relationship in a hot and heavy way. Her cheeks burned with a blush as she processed the words, quickly tucking the script away and resigning herself to read it later in the privacy of her trailer. Tracy had hoped no one would notice her reaction or draw any attention to the script itself, since they all would have received one, but when she stumbled over her lines and had to redo two takes she knew they could tell something was off. Jesse, her co-star, her partner on the show, and close friend in real life, sent her a soft and reassuring smile that did nothing to quell her nerves. If anything Tracy’s heart rate only increased the longer he looked at her until she forced herself to look away. 

Somehow, she made it through the rest of their shoot and was now safely tucked into the confines of her trailer. Letting out a huff of air she pulled the script from her bag and set it on the table before her. On the outside, it looked like any other script she had received. But Tracy knew under the covers of the first few pages would lie the description of a scene she felt totally unprepared to shoot. Of course sex scenes and illuded nudity came with the job and it certainly wouldn’t be the first time she had filmed something of the sort. Even on this show her character had been through a relationship that brought with it this type of scene. But that was Paddy and it just felt like another day on the job. But this time? With Jesse? It was different. Tracy let out a huff of air, running her hands through her hair and chastising herself for the reaction she was having. Sure, he was a great guy, an amazing actor, and one of her closest friends. He, as well as a few other of her co-stars, had helped her through her breakup a few months ago and she would be forever grateful to all of them. But lately her relationship with Jesse seemed to be taking a turn. Their playful banter and onset antics had turned almost flirty and there was a new tension between them she wasn’t sure he could even feel. Maybe it was all in her head and she was blowing this whole thing out of proportion. 

Before she could let her mind wander any further a knock on the door startled her back to the moment. She stood up from the couch and slowly made her way to open the door. Tracy found herself somewhat surprised when she pushed it open to see Jesse lingering awkwardly in front of her with his script in hand. She stepped back to let him in and forced a few deep breaths in with the hopes to halt her blushing cheeks in their tracks. 

“Hey.” He said quietly while giving her a sheeping smile. 

“Hey yourself.” She replied, returning his smile. 

They settled onto the couch each on an opposite end and an awkward silence fell between them. Tracy pulled at a loose string on her shirt wishing she could come up with something to say. 

“I thought maybe we could talk about this?” Jesse asked, waiving his rolled up script between them. She didn’t need for him to specify what he was talking about as she already knew why he was here. 

“Yeah. Probably a good idea.” She hated the way her cheeks burned, a tell tale sign she was feeling embarrassed and one that wouldn’t go unnoticed. But when she glanced up and that his cheeks also held a red tint...well, she wasn’t sure what to do with that. His eyes locked onto her holding her in such an intense gaze that she simply couldn’t look away. They sat like that for who knows how long before Jesse cleared his throat and broke the silence. 

“Have you read it yet?” He asked and nodded towards her script.

“Parts of it.” She replied quietly. And she knew that he could tell exactly what parts. 

“How do you feel about it?” His eyes held hers while he waited for an answer. 

“Um..kinda nervous I guess.” Tracy replied deciding honesty would be the best policy here. She watched as the corner of his mouth tugged into a smile and it only made her cheeks burn more. 

“Why nervous?” He pushed causing her to let out a nervous chuckle.

“I don’t know.” She gave another honest answer watching as he slowly nodded. 

“Because there’s a kiss?” He smirked when he finished and she couldn’t help but duck her head in embarrassment. It sounded stupid when it was said so simply and now she felt like an even bigger fool. “Do you not want to kiss me?” His words sent a fire to her face and she quickly looked back up at him with panic in her eyes. 

“No no, I do!” She spoke the words without thinking them through and once again he was grinning at her. 

“So you’re nervous because you want to kiss me?” His tone was teasing but his eyes had gone darker, a fact that sent heat right through her core. 

“I..well I don’t know what to even say here..” Tracy stumbled over her words struggling to find a way to not dig herself into a hole here. 

“Would it help if I said I felt the same way?” Tracy froze at his words, the only thing moving was her heart hammering away in her chest. Her eyes locked onto his once again and she was sure he would be able to hear her heartbeat. She couldn’t find any words to respond to him and his intense stare wasn’t helping whatsoever. Jesse stood from the couch and reached a hand down to pull her up. Once on her feet she realized just how close she was standing to him and the proximity made her sway. She couldn’t move as she watched his hand come up beside her face and tuck away a loose strand of hair. His palm lingered there, just above her cheek and she could feel his heat radiating into her. His eyes trailed down her face, landing on her lips for just a moment before they found hers once again. She gave a subtle nod to let him know this was okay and almost instantly his lips were on hers. Heat exploded within her and she eagerly leaned up into the kiss. His hands cupped her face and held her steady as he deepened the kiss. Tracy let her hands tentatively move up his chest and appreciated the way his toned muscles felt underneath them. His hands moved down to her waist and pulled her against him before they dipped under her shirt. Jesse pulled back slightly from the kiss to whisper against her lips. 

“Is this okay?” He asked as his hands ran over her waist and around to her lower back. All she could do was nod as her body was to overcome with sensation to speak. Jesse leaned down and kissed along her jawline as his hands moved further up her torso. “How about this?” He asked against her neck causing her to shiver as his hot breath rushed across her skin. She nodded again and his hands went further, his fingers now dancing just below the edge of her bra. She leaned into his touch and tilted her head to the side to grant him more access to the skin of her neck. Tracy pushed against his chest and turned them back towards the couch. Jesse sat down and pulled her with him so she was straddling his lap. His mouth was on her neck and the sensation was driving her insane. When his hands slipped under the fabric of her bra she rolled her hips into him before she could stop herself and felt him instantly harden beneath her. The realization of what they were doing seemed to hit both of them at the same time because they each pulled back a little and met the others eyes. 

“I’m not saying I don’t want to..” Jesse breathed out biting his lower lip a little before he continued. “But if we do this...if you let me see you and touch you like this...I’m never going to be able to film that scene.” He shifted himself up slightly, pushing his obvious erection up into her core for emphasis and she knew he was right. She nodded slowly and let out a small chuckle. Her hands were still around his shoulders and her fingers were toying with the small hairs on the back of his head. If she was being honest all she wanted to do was continue what they had started, to feel him against her and inside her, to get the release she was so desperately craving. But she knew they had to wait. Now wasn’t the right time to do this and especially not in a trailer surrounded by their friends and coworkers. Tracy slid herself off of him and straightened out her shirt. Her eyes caught a glimpse of Jesse, adjusting himself through his jeans and her core was instantly on fire once again. She swallowed hard when she met his eyes and knew they were both thinking the same thing. Jesse stood from the couch, somewhat awkwardly as he was dealing with his own predicament and stood in front of her although kept his distance. 

“I should go for now.” He spoke quietly and nodded down towards the front of his jeans. “But we’ll uh...talk about this more later?” He raised his eyebrows waiting for a response. Tracy gave him a quick smile and nodded. 

“Yeah for sure.” She watched him return her smile and then walk out of her trailer. Once he was gone she let out a huff of air and collapsed onto the couch they had just been on. She struggled to pull herself together and glanced at the clock, realizing they would have to go back to filming soon and she wasn’t sure she would be able to look at him without melting on the spot.