Family #ImmortalSinners #FuturisticBDB

Mentions: (Direct & Indirect) All of Immortal Sinners RP

*I literally sprang up out of the chair I'd sat in by the window when the rap of knuckles beat against my door. I'd been mulling over everything and I do mean everything so the sudden harsh sound had startled me*

Breathe Cormia. Breathe.

*Quietly I whispered to myself while giving my trembling hands a shake. I inhaled once.. twice.. then made my way across the carpeted floor and took hold of the intricately designed handle. Turning the handle I pull the door open enough to see one of the doggen standing outside with her hands wringing each other like she was nervous beyond all comprehension and did not want to be delivering whatever news that she must.

My first thought was that #Aggie had been injured and was in the massive medical suite below ground, but as I opened the door to fully greet her it was her eyes that told me it wasn't my greatest fear. I could /not/ lose #Aggie. There just wasn't words to express that fact or what may happen should that night befall me. No I just couldn't. He was all I had physically left of #Phury. The loss of him had left a gaping void in this world and it would become a chasm none could ever fill should my son pass unto the Fade before me*

"Mistress, you have been summoned by the King."

*Her voice was so soft that it was barely audible, but when she mentioned I had been summoned by the King my heart literally stopped. I must have swayed because she reached out to steady me saying, "#Aggie is there as well."

I glanced into her sincere gaze, righting myself as I nod*

I shall be right down.

*Once she had walked off my mind went over everything that had been transpiring over the past few days.

"He knows!"

"But how... why?!"

"I have been cautious!"

All of these ran wild within my mind along with one more statement.

"Elian! I must warn Elian!"

Stopping just outside the dining hall I inhale a long, slow breath. That's when I heard other voices coming from within.

"Okay. This isn't about what I've been doing."

With that thought I walked calmly into the dining hall. Wrath was already seated at the head of the table with LW and Nalla seated on one side and everyone else..

Wait...

"Where's Rissa?!"

My gaze does another lap around the table. I saw Ehlena, Manny, Bella, Bitty, Z but there was no Rissa. She'd been excusing herself earlier and earlier. That had me worried and tonight I could see it had Wrath perplexed and agitated as V spoke directly near his ear. George made his way around to us all and with a nudge of his cool nose to my hand he got the response he wanted by my palm stroking between his ears. He quietly kept making his rounds then settled back down beside Wrath's leg watching everyone including me as I finally took a seat.

Finally the meeting began and the news Wrath delivered was like a sucker punch to the gut. "Rissa!", I mentally exclaimed wanting to rush to find her and protect her from this torment she was going to be asked to face, but all I could do, along with everyone else in the manse, was to be there for her when she needed us.

All appetite I may have had vanished so I excused myself and pushed away from the table as soon as the meeting was adjourned then walked gracefully to the door then out. Once the doors closed I pulled out my cell and found Rissa's number.

"Call me asap, Rissa."

Pressing send I closed my eyes and sent a silent prayer to the SV and every deity out there that might listen and asked for them all to watch over my beloved friend for this night and the many to come. She'd need help to make it through this.

I jumped when I felt #Aggie's familiar hand grip my shoulder. His eyes spoke everything my mind was racing with*

Scribe help us all!

*This news sent shockwaves throughout the manse and each of us needed all the help we could get*

V?! By the Scribe. He and Rissa both need all of our help.

*"Yes mahmen. We will all be here to help them and each other.", #Aggie sounded just like his father and I had to brush tears from my eyes before I looked at him*

Yes.. We are family. We shall always be here for each other.

*"No matter when or what happens.", I added in silently. This family never faltered and never would regardless of the when's, why's and what for's*

#Family

#SupportSpokenAndUnspoken

#ImmortalSinners

#FuturisticBDB

Destined To Fight #ImmortalSinners #ISBDB

#FuturisticBDB

(Mentions: @PureBredMthrFkr )

*I winced with every step I took. I'd been out at the Great Camp doing renovations and making sure upgrades had been made to the security system along with having the feed directly funnelled to the manse. Every one of my sisters/daughters had requests for a room to call their own and I was hell bent on seeing that it all got done before they came to this side.

I'd also been training on the side while at the Great Camp. I'd been sneaking off after giving the renovators their days orders to meet with my trainer, #Elian. A good male through and through. He'd bared witness to the horrors this war had wrought upon our city and its people. Human, Sympath and Vampire alike. None had been spared. #Elian had lost his mate and unborn child to the new breed of Lessers so a bond had forged between based upon our mutual losses. That bond hadn't been earned overnight as he'd caught me fighting off two Lessers who kept circling and chanting about who I was and what I might bring them. The thought sickened me as an image of #Lyric came to the forefront of my mind and I'd reacted... violently. I had no weapons and even less training outside the minimum #Phury had ever allowed and what I'd gleaned from watching sessions in the training center. All in all I wasn't a fighter, but in that moment I had the heart of one as I grab a rock in each hand and swung with all my might cracking the one closest to me in the temple splitting his whitewashed skin open so that his equally white hair stained with his disgusting blood. The scent had me tasting bile on my tongue as the need to retch rose quickly, but I shoved it down by focusing on my rage. I swung my arms wildly connecting with whatever part of them I could.

For a few minutes I held my own, but it hadn't been enough as from out of nowhere another Lesser emerged and hit the side of my head with a pipe. As the world did somersaults that's when #Elian had arrived though I knew naught his name. His growl and stature told me he was a warrior and I saw him strike down two Lessers before succumbing to the invading darkness.

When I awoke I'd found myself in a strange room filled with the aroma of healing candles and then face to face with a pair of midnight blue eyes. My instincts wanted me to shrink back, remember that I was a Chosen, but my pride had another plan entirely. I met that gaze with my own even as he spoke about me being crazy for fighting like that. He paced the wooden floor, positively wearing a deep divot in the material. I knew he'd wanted to shake some sense into me and rightfully so, but I'd face that when Wrath learned of this night's happenings. I didn't need to face it twice or thrice as I was berating my own self mentally for letting my emotions get the best of me*

I have my reasons for wanting to fight.. to protect those nearest me and even those who have no clue a war is going on right before their eyes. Please. Help me.

*As I said "please" I had laid my hands upon #Elian's and I felt his initial reaction to jerk away, but he must have seen in my eyes that my mind was clear and set upon my course.

#Elian mentioned that a female of worth and of my status shouldn't fight, but he didn't want me out wandering around seeking fights or someone of lesser character to teach me so eventually he'd agreed to help me.

This night I'd zigged when I should have zagged and had ended up injuring my leg. Hence my limp as I made my way cautiously and as quietly as possible up the back staircase to the second floor. I would stop and listen for sounds of voices or footsteps heading my direction before moving on. Finally I made it to my room and closed the door behind me with my ass pressed to the solid oak. I wanted to sink down to the carpet and nearly gave in until I breathe in, catching #Elian's scent wafting up from my clothes. It was an earthy mix of Patchouli and leather that had my head spinning, but before I could mull that feeling over I remembered that I was doing something the King hadn't authorized so I strip off my clothes and toss them in the hamper beneath a pile of towels. I didn't want trouble to bear down on #Elian or myself so I had to remain silent. Even if that meant more trouble in the future. I'd see my journey to the end and ensure that my sisters and family were safe and prepared for whatever came our way.

No matter who or what that might be*

#DestinedToFight

#ImmortalSinners

#ISBDB

New Beginnings

V: Parking the Escalade in front of the mansion by the fountain, I’d been out all night desperate for a fight but not one came. I sat where I was for some time thinking what had passed between Marissa and I. Fuck she was right I needed to feed. With a heavy sigh I got out of the SUV, climbing the steps to the vestibule, I was let in by the doggen. There in the foyer was Cormia, she looked lost, confused, sad. I came up to her “Cormia”

Cormia: *I was walking through the mansion like I was a robot. Each step was uneven and not my normal. My mind was everywhere else but right where I stood. My sisters were wanting to come home and I was worried about their safety so when I hear my name coming from V’s lips I am startled to say the least*

V? Umm yes what is up?

*I try to hide my sadness by focusing on the face before me and find an icy stare willing me to not look away*

V: “I need to feed are you willing to let me feed from you? I promise nothing will happen between us” But I wasn’t certain with that statement when I had said the words. I waited for your answer, my icy stare not leaving your eyes, I heard your thoughts. Sadness oozed out of your pores. That’s all there was these days sadness, I truly hated it. For once can there be happiness

Cormia: *I hear the request and the following words, but to have it asked so abruptly had my mind going blank. No thoughts whatsoever outside one and it came out via my voice*

I will service your needs. Chosen have a sacred duty as you well know and I will see you are fed.

*my eyes remain focused on yours feeling any sadness drop off my radar as purpose takes over and the fact that for the first time in a very long time I was meeting a male’s gaze head on, feeling my skin tingle in its stead*

V: You start to head off to the billiards room, no fucking way to many memories of the Cop was in there. I grab your arm taking you into the library “Sit down” You sit on the couch, I sit beside you. This is going to be fucking awkward, I smell your blood, my fangs descend. You’d already pulled your sleeve up and punctuated your vein with your fangs. I latch onto your vein like a leech, your blood rush into my mouth, my senses heightened but there was something else, a feeling that I hadn’t had for a long time. A stirring that has fired my belly. I wanted more of this, an odd thought hits me. Mine. Where the hell did that come from? I greedily take what you offer me, like the bastard I was I take without giving back

Cormia: *I had started walking towards the billiards room when a strong grip takes hold behind my elbow leading me towards the library. This was once a place I’d come to to read and draw in my sketch book, but that had changed. Once we were inside all the memories and desire to draw came flooding back then came your command for me to sit down on the couch. I pull up the sleeve of my top up my arm then scores my inner wrist with my fangs sending blood rushing to the surface. I was attracting the need to feed in the male beside me and he reacted as one would when they haven’t fed in a long time. I look over at you, wincing as your hold tightens on my arm while you continue to feed. I can feel every last pull from my vein as my life giving force flows into your mouth and down your throat. I swallow hard feeling weakness coming over me along with a warmth that pools directly between my thighs. This feeling was one I haven’t had come over me in… years… yet here I was feeling it*

V: After all this time I was getting that feeling in the pit of my stomach, there again it could be I needed to feed. But this was different this was like I had first met Jane. O fuck no, the dark rich spicy scent of the bonding scent was thick in the air. No, no, no this couldn’t be happening. I release my hold on your wrist, I was disgusting, wanting from you that I already had. Yeah right, Jane was too busy mending and stitching the Brothers, she always said her patients came first, my needs were put on hold. These last few months had seen an invisible barrier put up between us and now you was before me taking that barrier down. Fuck do I worship you or adore you for doing this, it was the first time I’d let anyone get close to me “What the fuck have you done to me?” The words were barely audible, more saying it to myself then to you.

Cormia: *every pull from my vein was like an invisible hand massaging that secret spot inside me that hadn’t been touched in so very long. That was when I inhaled and caught the rich, dark spice of your bonding scent and my pupils dilated. I was teetering on the edge of a release the likes of which I didn’t know was even possible… This was a feeding and yes I know one thing could lead to another, but why now? I had often fed JM or forced him to on my visits to the medical suite and nothing like this had ever happened in those moments. So why here and why now? Those were the questions racing in my mind before you pull away from my wrist. I’m left blinking my eyes at your words while sealing the wound on my wrist with a swipe of my tongue*

I hath done nothing.

*my voice was barely above a whisper and sounded foreign even to my own ears. I could still smell your bonding scent on my skin and that part inside of me that I’d thought lost, to never be touched again, came to life and it was because of you*

V: “What was that between us then? You stirred emotions I thought I wouldn’t be able to feel again, feel me?” I paced around the library, running my gloved hand through my hair. What was happening between us, fuck I’d already said that aloud but who gives two fucks about that. There was some connection between us, it must of been at the sanctuary that seemed a lifetime ago when I was supposed to become the Primale, before I fucked the bitch’s plan up. Here now that connection must of awakened again when I drank your blood. I knew Phury would want the Brothers to look after you but I’d never thought it would be like this. I stop in front of you, looking down at you, my eyes showing no emotion

Cormia: I…. I’m not sure what just happened. I mean I know the scent but the why..

*yes I was dumbfounded and when Phury died I’d been named as the one to take his place as guardian of the Chosen. Ages ago I had promised to the Primale and then it had been Vishous whom the Scribe had chosen to bear the title. That hasn’t came to pass due to Phury taking it upon himself and the rest is history. So here and now stirring that natural instinct inside you.. that need to bond and to mark me as his domain… it was bewildering to say the least. I’d oft heard that things come around to how it should be given enough time like a huge circle and here we were back to the beginning or an altered beginning. One where I bear the title you despised. He implications were limitless though there was one other individual in the mix and her name is Jane. My eyes lock on yours and it’s like I’m truly seeing them for the first time. That part inside me beats once more demanding that I listen and I rise to my full stature never once moving my gaze away*

V: Your eyes never leaving mine I hear your thoughts about Jane “Don’t think of her, we are miles apart even though we’re close but not physical, true” well they did say every rose had its thorn. I knelt down before you “If we do this there be no going back” Before you can answer me I press my lips against yours, I quickly get back to my feet heading for the door. Coward. That’s all I heard in my head. Coward. I stopped in the doorway of the library, if you wanted me the same way I wanted you, you be at my side now

Cormia: *any words that could have formed were silenced the second you pressed your lips to mine. The effect has electric waves zinging through my body in response to you then as suddenly as you kissed me you were on your feet heading towards the door. I was moving without truly thinking about it when you stopped and I find myself stopping directly beside you. Whatever was happening… Whatever /this/ was between us… We would face together.  Together was the one word on repeat in my brain as I lightly touch your arm and we walk out of the library side by side.. /together/* #NewBeginnings

New Beginnings #ISBDB #ImmortalSinners

(@SonOfADeity and @BereavedBeauty)

V:

Parking the Escalade in front of the mansion by the fountain, I'd been out all night desperate for a fight but not one came. I sat where I was for some time thinking what had passed between Marissa and I. Fuck she was right I needed to feed. With a heavy sigh I got out of the SUV, climbing the steps to the vestibule, I was let in by the doggen. There in the foyer was Cormia, she looked lost, confused, sad. I came up to her “Cormia”

Cormia: *I was walking through the mansion like I was a robot. Each step was uneven and not my normal. My mind was everywhere else but right where I stood. My sisters were wanting to come home and I was worried about their safety so when I hear my name coming from V’s lips I am startled to say the least*

V? Umm yes what is up?

*I try to hide my sadness by focusing on the face before me and find an icy stare willing me to not look away*

V:

“I need to feed are you willing to let me feed from you? I promise nothing will happen between us” But I wasn't certain with that statement when I had said the words. I waited for your answer, my icy stare not leaving your eyes, I heard your thoughts. Sadness oozed out of your pores. That's all there was these days sadness, I truly hated it. For once can there be happiness

Cormia: *I hear the request and the following words, but to have it asked so abruptly had my mind going blank. No thoughts whatsoever outside one and it came out via my voice*

I will service your needs. Chosen have a sacred duty as you well know and I will see you are fed.

*my eyes remain focused on yours feeling any sadness drop off my radar as purpose takes over and the fact that for the first time in a very long time I was meeting a male’s gaze head on, feeling my skin tingle in its stead*

V:

You start to head off to the billiards room, no fucking way to many memories of the Cop was in there. I grab your arm taking you into the library “Sit down” You sit on the couch, I sit beside you. This is going to be fucking awkward, I smell your blood, my fangs descend. You'd already pulled your sleeve up and punctuated your vein with your fangs. I latch onto your vein like a leech, your blood rush into my mouth, my senses heightened but there was something else, a feeling that I hadn't had for a long time. A stirring that has fired my belly. I wanted more of this, an odd thought hits me. Mine. Where the hell did that come from? I greedily take what you offer me, like the bastard I was I take without giving back

Cormia:

*I had started walking towards the billiards room when a strong grip takes hold behind my elbow leading me towards the library. This was once a place I'd come to to read and draw in my sketch book, but that had changed. Once we were inside all the memories and desire to draw came flooding back then came your command for me to sit down on the couch. I pull up the sleeve of my top up my arm then scores my inner wrist with my fangs sending blood rushing to the surface. I was attracting the need to feed in the male beside me and he reacted as one would when they haven't fed in a long time.

I look over at you, wincing as your hold tightens on my arm while you continue to feed. I can feel every last pull from my vein as my life giving force flows into your mouth and down your throat. I swallow hard feeling weakness coming over me along with a warmth that pools directly between my thighs. This feeling was one I haven't had come over me in… years… yet here I was feeling it*

V:

After all this time I was getting that feeling in the pit of my stomach, there again it could be I needed to feed. But this was different this was like I had first met Jane. O fuck no, the dark rich spicy scent of the bonding scent was thick in the air. No, no, no this couldn't be happening. I release my hold on your wrist, I was disgusting, wanting from you that I already had. Yeah right, Jane was too busy mending and stitching the Brothers, she always said her patients came first, my needs were put on hold. These last few months had seen an invisible barrier put up between us and now you was before me taking that barrier down. Fuck do I worship you or adore you for doing this, it was the first time I'd let anyone get close to me “What the fuck have you done to me?” The words were barely audible, more saying it to myself then to you.

Cormia:

*every pull from my vein was like an invisible hand massaging that secret spot inside me that hadn't been touched in so very long. That was when I inhaled and caught the rich, dark spice of your bonding scent and my pupils dilated. I was teetering on the edge of a release the likes of which I didn't know was even possible… This was a feeding and yes I know one thing could lead to another, but why now? I had often fed JM or forced him to on my visits to the medical suite and nothing like this had ever happened in those moments. So why here and why now? Those were the questions racing in my mind before you pull away from my wrist. I'm left blinking my eyes at your words while sealing the wound on my wrist with a swipe of my tongue*

I hath done nothing.

*my voice was barely above a whisper and sounded foreign even to my own ears. I could still smell your bonding scent on my skin and that part inside of me that I'd thought lost, to never be touched again, came to life and it was because of you*

V:

“What was that between us then? You stirred emotions I thought I wouldn't be able to feel again, feel me?” I paced around the library, running my gloved hand through my hair. What was happening between us, fuck I'd already said that aloud but who gives two fucks about that. There was some connection between us, it must of been at the sanctuary that seemed a lifetime ago when I was supposed to become the Primale, before I fucked the bitch’s plan up. Here now that connection must of awakened again when I drank your blood. I knew Phury would want the Brothers to look after you but I'd never thought it would be like this. I stop in front of you, looking down at you, my eyes showing no emotion

Cormia:

I…. I'm not sure what just happened. I mean I know the scent but the why..

*yes I was dumbfounded and when Phury died I'd been named as the one to take his place as guardian of the Chosen. Ages ago I had promised to the Primale and then it had been Vishous whom the Scribe had chosen to bear the title. That hasn't came to pass due to Phury taking it upon himself and the rest is history. So here and now stirring that natural instinct inside you.. that need to bond and to mark me as his domain… it was bewildering to say the least. I'd oft heard that things come around to how it should be given enough time like a huge circle and here we were back to the beginning or an altered beginning. One where I bear the title you despised. He implications were limitless though there was one other individual in the mix and her name is Jane. My eyes lock on yours and it's like I'm truly seeing them for the first time. That part inside me beats once more demanding that I listen and I rise to my full stature never once moving my gaze away*

V:

Your eyes never leaving mine I hear your thoughts about Jane “Don't think of her, we are miles apart even though we’re close but not physical, true” well they did say every rose had its thorn. I knelt down before you “If we do this there be no going back” Before you can answer me I press my lips against yours, I quickly get back to my feet heading for the door. Coward. That's all I heard in my head. Coward. I stopped in the doorway of the library, if you wanted me the same way I wanted you, you be at my side now

Cormia:

*any words that could have formed were silenced the second you pressed your lips to mine. The effect has electric waves zinging through my body in response to you then as suddenly as you kissed me you were on your feet heading towards the door. I was moving without truly thinking about it when you stopped and I find myself stopping directly beside you. Whatever was happening… Whatever /this/ was between us… We would face together.

Together was the one word on repeat in my brain as I lightly touch your arm and we walk out of the library side by side.. /together/*

#NewBeginnings

Finding Purpose #ImmortalSinners #FutureBDB *forcing my body to roll up out of bed was one hurdle the next was to put one foot in front of the other. My body felt weak... weaker than it had ever felt and had Lassiter not been there I'm afraid that I might have hit the floor in a heap not to get back up. Every step I took he was chiding me for giving so much blood to JM without either finding a male to feed from or coming to the Sanctuary to rejuvenate. I half heard all that he said, but when the bright flash of light surrounded me I knew the decision had been made. Had I agreed to it? Mayhap my head had nodded or had it been the way I gripped the angel's forearm? Whichever it had been he had opened the portal and led me through to the Otherside where I was met with familiar sounds and smells along with a few new ones too. He'd refurbished the Sanctuary to better fit his personality, but had maintained the soul of the place and what it stood for. As I fight for my footing before Lassiter places me on one of the white, pristine benches with etchings in gold highlighting the dips and curves before it sank down to the base. One of my sisters steps forward and with a bowed head she helps me remove the slippers from my feet. I reach out a hand, curling slim fingers beneath her chin and smiles the best that I can at the moment* Sabine, mine sister. Thank you. *her eyes light up at my words and no words need be spoken between us as she helps me up once more and we make our way to the healing bath located in the middle of the room. I'm glad that Lassiter had left the chamber as I let the white robe I have on glide down my arms to fall on the marble floor before I gingerly take one step then another into the warmth of the scented bath. Lavender... the scent that the Scribe herself smelled of... was in the water along with other healing herbs and I could literally feel my body soaking it up. The color and vibrancy returning to my features, eyes and hair until I felt as though I was glowing from within. I let my eyes drift around the chamber itself catching colors I hadn't seen when I'd first arrived then heard the soft voices of my sisters who'd returned to the Sanctuary when the new Lesser threat became known. Each one stepping forward to speak to me in soft whispers and for every question I had an answer up to the one about them returning to the Great Camp. Then they asked about Blaylock. My face dropped and they could read the pain of loss evident in my features and tone as I told them about him being taken unto the Fade. Another brave warrior, a loyal friend and protector was gone far too soon. The anguish washed over each of us as each sister came closer laying a gentle hand on my shoulders and hair, anywhere they could touch that was above water. Their belief and strength fueled my own resolve to bring those that wanted to come back to the Great Camp. I needed a plan since I was now the one in charge of their safety. But who... who could I reach out to? Then a single name came to mind "Vishous". He was the tech savvy genius needed to shore up the defenses at the Great Camp. He may have lost his best friend and comrade in arms, Butch, but this would give him a project to help him. Now if only he would accept the task and help me to help my sisters. We all had a place in the grand scheme of things now we just had to take the bull by the horns and run with it. The bull I was to be facing had my stomach lurching as fear took root. "What if he won't help?", the question that had feared pinging through my system. No.. I won't think negatively. Not when my sisters need me as much as I need them. My purpose was clear and I knew the first step I had to take* #FindingPurpose #ImmortalSinners #FutureBDB

Plan For The Chosen #ISBDB #ImmortalSinners

*As I make my way back to my room from the medical suite my feet falter mid-step causing me to lean against the wall. The world around me felt like it was circling me causing a feeling of claustrophobia to settle over me. Then the spiraling mass seemed to elongate and deepen before my bewildered eyes*

Remember to breathe. In and out.

*I whispered the words before I took a slow breath in and let it out twice as slowly. I did that breathing method for a few minutes until finally the world stopped spiraling into a vortex and opened back up letting light and sound back in so that I push off the wall and start walking towards the ornate staircase situated across the way from the pool room. I didn't hear movement or the sounds of pool balls being racked like V and Butch always had. That was before all the death that had taken place. Butch had been among those we had lost. When his face blazed to the forefront of my mind I thought of Marissa and had to rub the heel of my hand over my chest where my heart seemed to ache. V and Marissa had lost someone important to their well being. That feeling I understood oh so well and then came the heart stopping pain that came with memories of Phury.

My free hand grips the rail of the stairwell with a deathlike grasp and I feel my knees threaten to go out from beneath me. Phury, one half of the golden eyed twins, had been my other half from the moment we had first met. I was the Primale's First Mate.. his /only/ mate once the decision had been made and laid down that he would have but one mate and the other Chosen would be under his protection and mine. Those that chose to come to this side became daughters to me in a way and with that came all the worries that happened with being a sister/mother*

Who would have thought I'd be here without you?

*my eyes cut upwards to the paintings of cherubs sitting on ivory pillars on the ceiling and I feel the gentle brush of a warm breeze against my cheek. It was Phury reminding me that no matter what he would always be there or so I took it and that strength pushed me to take the stairs that led up to the various bedrooms. Mine was midways down on the left and once I was inside my right hand brushed the inner wrist of the left. JM had been feeding from me, alternating arms and tonight had been the left arms turn. He was still critical and had a long way to go so I'd had to coax him into feeding by scoring my wrist with my fangs and allowing a few drops to drip onto his lips before pressing the bleeding area close. The response was instantaneous and had stung when his fangs elongated and sank into my tender flesh. If it hadn't been for Manny being present tonight, JM would have taken too much.

I kick off my flats and as I'm striving to get undressed so that I could take a warm bath the world suddenly shifts and everything closes in, the darkness overwhelms me and I land in a heap on the floor at the end of my bed with a loud thud.

"Cormia?! Come on C wake up. Let me see those eyes of yours!" The voice seems far away for a while but the more the words get repeated the louder and more insistent they become. Slowly my lashes flutter and I find myself staring into Lassiter's whiteout gaze*

Lassiter? Wh.. What happened? How.. Did you...?

*the Angel is unable to mask the worry as my words come out low and jumbled to an extent like my tongue was thick and wouldn't cooperate with my thought process, but somehow he knew what I'd asked. He tells me that I had passed out from giving too much blood without replenishing it and that he had picked me up off the floor, placing me onto my bed. His brows draw together into a tight, tense line before he tells me that he won't let it happen again. I try to lift my left hand to wave off his complaint, but it simply falls back to the bed with a soft pfft sound as darkness creeps back in. This time it was slumber taking hold leaving Lassiter to play guard for the time being and me not knowing that he had a plan forming to get me to feed or how soon he was planning on setting it all into motion*

#PlanForTheChosen

Facing My Fears #ISBDB #ImmortalSinners

*The entire journey from my room to the medical suite went without incident until I reached the long corridor that led to the entryway. Once there my eyes start darting from one side to the other, my footsteps growing shorter and shorter much like my ability to breathe. Then the corridor began to close in around me with its whitewashed walls like some great snake constricting on its prey. I couldn't breathe... my heart was thundering in my ears as it fought for nutrients I wasn't capable of providing, but yet it and my lungs demanded more. I just couldn't. It was physically impossible as my peripheral vision began to blur before all sound and color started to dissipate as well.

I slam my back to the closest wall and clench at my chest literally gasping for any breath I could get while the Angel kept yammering on about people, places and events I couldn't focus on. Lassiter stops mid-stride and looks around when he hears me fighting to breathe then runs over grabbing hold of my shoulders to keep me from sliding down to the hard concrete floor beneath our feet.

"Stay with me, C. You just listen to my voice and breathe with me."

His whiteout eyes locked on mine forcing me to not look away while he breathes in and out slowly showing me how I needed to do and he didn't stop until I was breathing in tandem with him.

"That's it. Don't you stop doing that right there. They need you. /I/ need you. You hear me?"

Lassiter went on about it being a panic attack and knowing damn well why. I had heard of panic attacks in all my studying, but now I was living proof that it could happen to one of us. I just experienced it and never wanted to again.

-- Mortality --

That one word struck home and made me claw my way back up from the edge I was teetering on. Aggie needed me to live. The Angel needed me though I know not why. The Brothers need me. Mine sisters need me. As I look into Lassiter's eyes I nod my head slowly letting my inner thoughts wash over and through me*

I am well and not going anywhere.

*Lassiter flashes one of his smiles, patting my shoulders then moves to let me push myself off the cool wall. I give my shoulders a roll mustering up the courage once more to face the place where I had been told that my Hellren, Phury, had died protecting those he loved. This place where I hadn't been back to since that night when I was met by Wrath and the Brothers. Their eyes all held the pain they'd felt at the loss and had it not been for Butch I would have beaten upon Wrath's chest demanding him to be wrong. Butch's words still stuck in my head even now, "He's always with us true." The sentiment had been echoed by all but Z who had stayed back and away from where I was. I didn't do any better when I looked at Phury's twin and a hatred was forged in my gut. I knew I shouldn't but why was Phury gone? Why must our son grow up and train without his father? All things that to this day still haunt me and as Lassiter and I walk through the doorway of the medical suite all of that gets shut away. My eyes first falling on Wrath with his back pressed to a wall and his face showing all the emotion he wouldn't speak of. Then I searched for Aggie amid the bodies to find him assisting bringing gurneys in and helping any way that he could. Finally the drone of machines and voices faded out so I could focus on each step I took*

Let me help. I'm here when needed.

*I saw eyes glance my way as I called out towards V, Jane, and all the medical staff. A Chosen was here offering her blood when it was needed and she'd give it all to ensure her friends.. her family.. survived*

#FacingMyFears

#WillToSurvive

Along Comes Lassiter #ISBDB #ImmortalSinners

*I wasn't sure how long I had been in the tub but it was when the water cooled that I came awake. I stretched and rubbed my eyes with the palms of my hands then felt the air chill my skin and shivered*

Oh.. Time to get out.

*I pulled the drain stopper up and pushed up out of the water. I knew that the chill of both the water and the air had turned my nipples into hardened peaks, but I was alone so that fact didn't bother me as I hurried to grab a towel to pat my skin dry. It was as I stepped in front of the open bathroom door that I heard a thump and rattling noise that had me poking my head around the door frame to see what had made the noise. My hand patted my chest to try to calm myself when I saw the bedside lamp shade shifting*

Who's there?

*I called out and felt foolish the second the words passed between my lips as I quietly pad across the bedroom floor searching for signs of any intruder. Of course there were no signs beyond the lamp shade and my pounding heart beat to remind me that I had heard and seen what I had, but no answer as to the /why/ I had witnessed it. I dart my eyes side to side while walking over to the dresser to gather my undergarments and as I am about to put them on there's a thunderous knock on the door. The unexpected sound had me screaming in surprise and clutching the towel and unmentionables to my chest*

{Oh... Damn... Sorry but... I knocked... you screamed...}, the voice of Lassiter had me spinning around putting backside to the dresser as his stammered words came along with the sight of his face. Did I see shock? Or was it awe? Either way my cheeks grew hot with embarrassment while clutching the sole things closer to me as a barrier of some sort*

LASSITER!

*screaming out with the angel waving his hands in front of him in panic. {No. No. I didn't see a thing. Well... maybe.} The feathered pain wasn't helping his case at all as I dart back into the bathroom and slams the door shut behind me. I was enraged and utterly embarrassed as I put on my undergarments with Lassiter apologizing through the door. {I came to get you. There's wounded incoming and you are going to be needed down in the medical suite.}

I peek out around the door that I'm hiding behind then points at the wardrobe across the room*

Get a shirt and jeans for me.

*thankfully he does as he is asked and I finish getting ready then comes out putting on my keds then grabs the handle to the bedroom door*

You... *points to Lassiter* Come with and tell me what you know. Leave nothing out. And I do mean nothing. *He doesn't complain but walks out with me filling me in on Lyric being found and the fact of who was lost along with the fact that JM is in serious condition. I nod every so often as I take in the information given and vow to help in any way that I can as we hurry down to the medical suite*

ALL HANDS ON DECK

It had been hours of wearing the oriental rug in my office down to bare bones, as I waited for word, from someone, anyone, about how the mission was going or went. I hated that I couldn’t be out there, fighting alongside my brethren. But, I had made a promise, along time ago, that I would stick the ruling end of my job, for the sake of my family, for the sake of Beth and LW. I had snuck out a couple of times over the years but, I had a close call once, and Beth had put her foot down. She told me, the race needed me as their King not a warrior, that there were plenty of fights to be had as authority over the race. But, what drove the point home hard was when she mentioned having to raise LW alone. She said she wouldn’t have it, that I had more than myself to think about now, and if I wouldn’t do it for her, then do it for him. I had told her not to be so dramatic but, upon reflection, I finally apologized and promised not to take the fight to the streets, again. That was almost 80 years ago, now… and look who ended up alone.

Abruptly, my phone blared on the desk. It was against my ear in one short stride. “What happened?”

It was V. Things had gone on the side of fucked. Blaylock, Rehv, Novo, and three of our best trainees didn’t make it through the fight. From what I was told, if it weren’t for Rhage and his beast, there would have been a lot more casualties. I took the first thing within reaching distance and flung it across the room. It turned out to be a glass of Lag that one of the doggen had brought me earlier in the evening. It shattered loudly against the wall but, somehow it wasn’t satisfying enough.

V continued. They had Lyric, she was in the ambulance with JM on their way home. JM was bad off. They were doing everything they could just to get him home. But, he was touch-and-go. There were no guarantees with him. There were seven others seriously wounded. Make sure that Jane is ready to go the second they arrive, and before it had time to register, V had hung up.

Swiftly I clicked down and up the hangup button on the phone before dialing down to the medical center. One of Jane’s nurses answered. “All hands on deck! Wounded incoming. Estimated arrival, about 10 minutes!”

#AllHandsOnDeck #ISBDB

Remember To Breathe #ISBDB

*I tossed and turned in bed but sleep was being elusive. My mind just wouldn't shut off.

"Would they find Lyric?"

"Will they all return to us?"

These two questions kept repeating until I groan in frustration and sit up in bed. The shutters are locked tight but I can feel the sun's rays outside wanting to char my skin*

Mayhap a nice, long bath will help relax me.

*I push the sheet off my body and swing my legs off to one side. As I get out of bed I look over to the easel sitting in the corner. The portrait Phury had drawn encased in a simple, but elegant frame situated in the grasps.

I lay a hand over my heart which seems to have skipped a few beats as I study his work of art. He'd been nervous that day when I'd asked him to draw me, but he'd agreed to it. Once he had finished I got to see it. Phury had that look of worry in his eyes as I stepped around to see it. He hadn't wanted to shock me with the sexual undertone of his work, but I wasn't in shock I was in awe that he saw me that way.

/{Is that... who I am?}, I'd asked with awe lacing my voice.

"It's how I see you.", came Phury's simple but heartfelt reply.

{You think I'm beautiful}, I spoke after a brief silence. Astonishment was evident as I moved my eyes from the portrait to his face. /

It was then I feel the hot tears sliding down cheeks. I close my eyes and slowly inhale a breath counting slowly to 5 as I exhale while wiping my cheeks off with my fingertips*

You may not be physically here with me but I feel you everywhere I look, Phury.

*my chest tightens like an invisible vise has been placed around me as I whisper to the room. It's as I start to open my eyes I feel a gentle brush against my cheek. "I am always near. Just remember to breathe and live for me.", the words are soft but undeniably they are Phury's. So much in fact that my eyes fly open and I touch the spot on my cheek he'd just touched*

I will. I give you my word.

*my vow was made and I could finally take a deep breath. I let my hand slide off my cheek as I turn towards the bathroom and walk the short distance inside. Fixing the stopper in the drain before turning the water on to fill the tub after placing a scoop of bath salts in to scent the water gently.

I slip out of my shorty pajamas, placing them on the stool by the tub then turns off the faucet before I step in. Slowly I slide down beneath the scented foam and let's the aroma relax my knotted muscles while calming my frayed nerves. My eyes drift closed as I keep telling myself to breathe and survive*

#RememberToBreathe

#ImmortalSinners

V sat back on his heels, crossed his arms, and continued to look down at the little bag of vampire. And what do you know. That infant sonofabitch glared right back at him. Vishous started to smile. He couldn’t help it. You had to admire that kind of strength- and it obviously came from breeding. How else could you explain why something that was barely a month old was ready to take on a grown-ass male who was heavily armed and really fucking cranky. ‘My man,’ V said as he put his good hand out. ‘Gimme five.’ Rhamp didn’t know from high-fiving anything, but he did grab onto what was right in front of his face, and oh, how he squeezed. V laughed deep in his throat. ‘Yeah, you can fight with me in the field when you’re grown. And soon as you’re big enough to hold a dagger… I’ll make one for you. Forge it myself. You’re gonna be just like your dad, one helluva a fighter. Just like him…’

The Chosen (J.R Ward)

A precious moment between V and Rhampage.

#SurvivalAmidChaos #ISBDB #ImmortalSinners

*I made my way up the stairs to the second floor, but when I reached the top I looked back at the way I had just come from. Aghony, Auggie as most everyone called him, was still in the weight room doing squats.

"It's leg day, mahmen.", he'd said when I walked in dressed in my workout gear and had done my warmup on the treadmill before doing every lower body exercise known to mankind and then some I am sure none have ever heard of*

You want to keep me in shape.

*softly whispering when I catch sight of Auggie coming out of the gym. He glances up and smiles at me before he heads to the locker room to shower and change. He had grown into a fine male of worth just like his father, Phury, had been.

At the mere thought of my fallen hellren I clench at my chest due to the pain that I feel. It had been 91 years since his death, but it felt like yesterday for me.

I run the rest of the way to my room and slam the door shut behind me. Once I am alone I slide to the floor and draw my knees up to my chest as I cry. I had always kept this away from Auggie. I never wanted him to worry and had chosen to always shove my pain down into a little corner inside my soul where no one could see it, but when it was just me I could let it out. Just like I was doing tonight. I cried so hard that my head started hurting much as it had done that night when I was told of my hellren's death.

The words "supposed" and "mayhap" had been thrown in there to explain the loss of Phury, Qhuinn, Layla and Lyric. And I had clung to those words thinking that each time the door opened that my beloved would come through it. Mayhap he would be wounded, dirty and tired, but he'd be alive. Sadly though that never happened and realization set in that he was indeed in the Fade. That night had been the first time I had cried and wished I could rip my very heart from my chest if it would only bring him back to me. As that despair set in I heard his voice whisper like a beacon in an endless darkness, "Be strong, my Cormia. Our son needs you just as you need him. Teach him to be strong. Teach him to be all I never could be." Those words became a silent mantra for me to repeat when I felt down. From that night forward I did as Phury would have wanted. I focused on our son and raised him with the full knowledge of who his father is and was.

I leaned my head back against the door and wiped my eyes. Last meal would be coming soon and I needed to bathe and get freshened up before heading down to meet Auggie and the others. I never looked forward to seeing Zsadist at any meal or to even pass him in the halls. A deep part of me cringed at the very idea. Zsadist, my fallen hellren's twin, looked so much like his brother and with that made me remember that Phury wasn't here with us. I'd successfully avoided any conversation with Z and never made eye contact. I blamed him in a way for Phury's death. Even though Zsadist hadn't been there I still held that grudge that if he'd been there things might have turned out differently*

No one will ever be able to answer that for me.

*softly mumbles to myself as I push my body up off the floor and rise to my feet. I had to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I had to survive and to keep teaching my son how to be all he can ever be*

#SurvivalAmidChaos

#ISBDB

#ImmortalSinners

#FutureBDB

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