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kahit ako rin naman napapagod at nahihirapan ako sa pagooverthink ko eh. kaya stop telling me na "wag ka na kasi mag-isip". kung ganun lang kadali yun edi sana matagal ko na ginawa!!!!!!!!

ayoko na rin. esp, i don't have my personal space sa apartment namin? i don't have someone to talk with. napapagod na ko. i want to cry, i want to scream but then... pati yun nawawalan na ko ng karapatan :(

“they’re not tears,

they’re not exactly anger,

they’re not hate,

they’re not love,

it’s just pain

it’s indescribable”

shoutout to everyone making progress that no one recognized because you never let anyone see your darkest moments. i see you and i am so, so proud of every little step you’re making in the right direction.

Why is it so dark like this This place without you It’s dangerous, my ruined appearance Save me, I can’t even catch myself ©                                           How you doin? I’m fine                                                                                                                       My sky is clear                                                                                                    All my pains, say goodbye                                                                                                                               Goodbye ©

Lumandi ka pag tayong dalawa magkausap, hindi pag kasama natin tropa natin para alam ko naman kung may aasahan ba talaga ko sayo o wala!!!

Sa dami kasi ng problema ko dumadagdag ka pa! Please, ano ba kasi tayo? Ano ba ko sayo? :(

Please, don't add up on my worries. If you don't like me. Say it!!!!

if i open this blog to public will they understand/help me or they will judge me?

Too many sleepless nights

i'm so scared when night comes and i'm alone on my bed wiping my own tears. ang bigat, ang hirap, ang sakit. pero bakit? ano? paano? too much pain! i can't take this anymore. i need help

absorber talaga ko ng pain ng friends ko. ako kaya? kailan ako mapipiga? kasi mabigat na rin eh :(

I NEED HELP

i might breakdown anytime, helpppp

But, this is my personality???

i want to escape. i'm using my defense rn. but, it's not working anymore

CAN SOMEONE HELP ME?

It hurts so much that i can't even breath

I've been restless. Naghahanap na naman ako ng kdrama. My escape. Dude, is this anxiety? depression? again? Please no :( Too much pressure and stress this past few days. I can't. Lord please help me. I want to be more dependent on You!!!! Help me to overcome again. Sobrang bigat. Sobrag hirap na Lord. As if I'm a ticking bomb that will explode anytime :(((((