Valentines day

Happy valentines day beautiful!  So haha lets catch up. I’ve got my exam on the 15 of Feb, basically tomorrow FML not ready for property law. Then Civil Lit (18th) and Crim (19th), Business (22nd) but i’m not attending going to the doctors and will defer it until August 27th 2019. FML mum and dad will be mad at me. Lastly, PCR on the 25th.  Oh i got a part-time job :) pays well and is at a cute cafe near my station. 10 min bus ride from my house. Its been 3 days only, i started on 6 Feb. Haha procrastination is REALL! I’ve got some cute co-workers, ones a model. He’s mad cute. But hopefully i’ll work hard and save up enough cash to travel <3  Guess Ayse and i will continue our tradition and get buy one get one free subs huh haha. Honestly, thinking about deleting my dating apps and stuff. Just not feeling it anymore. on the 20th i’m getting the IUD in yay lol i’m scared shitless tho but at least i can do it without condoms i guess.  Kinda wanna start reading more books, and working out, and going to my part time job! Kinda over men. At least i’ve got JJ and he’s cute and funny <3 Anyway wish me luck hoe, hope you don’t repeat anything. 

2019 is starting of trash

Honestly i think i’m going to take a break from men for a long time. I am just tired tbh.  So pedro posted a pic of his new girlfriend last week and honestly that’s fucked me up a little. Just when i thought i was over him, but i guess i’m happy for him in a way... at least someone is making happier than i ever could. Met up with the japanese guy and boy was that terrible. I couldn’t stay over at the bloomsburg with him, bought him a Micheal kors tie, chocolates and calvin klein perfume= 40 pounds for him just to kick me out and unfriend me off of instagram. Oh and then theres fucking swiss cottage JJ guy, haha fucking douche bag kicked me out as well urgggg still no text for fucking 5 days now. Honestly, original JJ from chalk farm has been the only one that’s been ok. Note to self never repeat one off thing. Was so much better the first time with the japanese guy. Wonder if JJ swiss cottage and Japanese guy will ever text... Fucking exams are around the corner and i’m fucked. Clearly, since i’m typing on tumblr that how fucked i am. What revision... Men are really fucking me up. Honestly, the one good thing about 2019 is that I booked tickets to swizterland and barcelona tbh!  I’m just looking for that fairy tale romance just like ever girl out there. Coz honestly, I am losing faith in all men. But then there Lucas and John from my first semester and they really show me that there are good loving men out there. So i still have hope! I’ll keep you posted.  Don’t get me started on how many failed dates i’ve gone on haha. Asian men

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2019

Hey bitchessss haha i’m back! Wow so 2018 was really my year huh, so much has happened to me it’s insane. Haha 2017 was rough huh, like honestly my ex did me dirty haha what an ass but that’s ok we are now both “being young” and honestly i’m loving it. Like ari said, thank you next am i right ladies haha.  So 2019 was off to a great start, when on a really nice date on the 31st (aqua man was a good movie) and i think i really like this guy haha we hung out at my place all night and day. If you could see me now i’m smiling so much. I’ve been on some dates but this guy is really nice, haha i’m smiling so much and i honestly can’t wait to see him soon. Guess i just wanna journal now haha all the shit i wrote before was so that my Ex would one day read it and know how i felt, but fuck that shit i honestly don’t care what he thinks. So that’s why that all in the past. I am such a different person now it’s insane in the best way possible and i really hope 2019 is even better for me. I have honestly, never been so happy. Man i went through a lot and it makes me cry thinking about how much severe depression and hurting i went through but i’m in such a good place and i hope i never go back to that state again. I love my friends, my family and all the beautifully new people i meet everyday. Here’s to 2019, may it be a year full of adventures, love, joy, growth, transitions and happiness. 

Finding someone you can really connect with is like winning the lottery — It happens basically never, but if it does, you really shouldn’t blow it.

Jessica Verdi, What You Left Behind (via perrfectly)

“This photograph is my proof. There was that afternoon, when things were still good between us, and she embraced me, and we were so happy. It did happen. She did love me. Look for yourself.” This is my proof, Duane Michals, 1974