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THIS IS MY FAVOURITE ONE OF MINE TOO SCREAMS TWINS
ur so sweet tysm for reading and showing ur love n support i love u !!!! stay safe n take careeeee
i quit drinking. ( lee juyeon )
itâs been a while since bad habits and hearts have been broken for you and juyeon. but who knew seeing him again at your friendâs wedding could hurt so bad youâd down that champagne flute if only he wasnât the reason you quit drinking. for full experience listen to âi quit drinkingâ by lany + kelsea ballerini
he sees you before youâve seen him. clad in a black suit, hair slicked back as he pats down his blazer. the chill autumn air of chanheeâs garden bites at the flash of his honey chest that peeks through the crisps of his white shirt. youâre sat down at a table a glass of champagne flute filled to the brim lying in front of you as your ring-less fingers find solace in a glass of water instead.
his heart stops at the sight of you sitting in a dress made of yellow mesh and flowers, flowers holding your hair in place. itâs short now he notices. the straight black strands falling just short of your ears that are adorned with dangling pearls. a leg of yours is exposed and crossed over the other as your tongue wets your watermelon lips. the daisy crown makes you look angelic under the string of lights above and the sight of you staring at the dance floor causes juyeonâs breathing to stumble.
you look gorgeous in this light, but you always have. and juyeon doesnât know what hurts more, the fact that you look better than him or the fact that you look better without him. each thought drops his heart to the floor as he walks over it slowly to make his way to you.
he should leave you alone, let you be especially after your last meeting consisted of shattering dishes and hearts. but he canât once again lee juyeon finds himself undeserving of the attraction thatâs pulling himself closer to you. he canât find it in him to lose you again.
the stars twinkling in the darkening sky blues guide him home to you at your table and heâs a second away before youngjae lands his hands on juyeonâs chests, blocking the flower path.
âhyung,â ericâs eyes meet juyeonâs and whilst his heart is racing, fuelled by adrenaline ericâs demeanour is a giant red light.
âeric, you look good,â a smile that doesnât reach juyeonâs eyes.
âhyung donât,â he ignores and pleas instead, red hair blurring juyeonâs vision.
âi need to,â juyeon bargains and ericâs grip on him is tighter.
âiâve seen her fall apart juyeon because she fell for you and i canât let her go through that again,â he shakes his head, gaze flickering to you whoâs now swirling the champagne but making no effort to take a sip.
âi promise iâm just going to say hi,â and juyeon lets his hands up as a sign of retreat to which eric sinks his teeth in his lip.
âhiâs always the start and it always ends with a goodbye, hyungâ eric releases his grip and lets out a sigh before hardening his icy glare back on the elder. âi mean it,â another pause and heâs standing straighter âyou ruined her and she deserves better.â
juyeonâs left with a heart heavier than the world at ericâs words once the red head is out of sight and laughing with hyunjae. part of him is begging him to turn around and act like heâs never seen you and tonightâs never happened but he refuses. juyeon doesnât believe in fate, he doesnât believe every single thing happens for a reason but heâs a firm believer that if a door opens, he should at least take his chances and peek a head through.
especially when that door is the owner of his favourite smile out of the seven billion souls that walk this earth, the owner of his heart even for the last two years heâs spent in your absence.
so juyeon takes the first step of forever towards you.
you donât even notice heâs there, youâre busy watching chanhee and changmin dance it out by the pool, the latter twirling chanhee again and again and again until youâve found yourself dizzy. a small smile slips on your lips as you chuckle softly to yourself.
youâve always wanted a garden wedding. thereâs nothing more intimate than a small gathering as you kiss forever in a home youâve made. and having dinner under the stars amongst flowers and friends youâve known a lifetime only made your admiration for a garden wedding grow more.
youâre so lost in your thoughts and soft smiles that the streams only broken once you feel a presence next to you. your gaze lifts off your friends and to the male beside you.
you swallow nervously, mouth unable to form the words as two years feel like two seconds since youâve last seen your ex-boyfriend.
âhi,â he tests the waters with a grin- the only thing heâs a thousand percent sure you used to love. but thatâs the past where you spent days under the covers, tangled in each otherâs arms and not with the duvet like the insomniac present.
âhi,â you whisper back, unable to trust your own voice and itâs almost pathetic how hard you do want to cry in this moment. itâs all overwhelming for you right now and juyeon senses your anxiety and is fussing for you.
âhere,â he slides the champagne flute in your direction and your hand clasps over his to stop it from reaching your lips. the skin on skin contact makes the caged butterflies dance euphorically in your heart. youâve missed the familiarity of the touch but it only hurts you more.
you abruptly let go, hands falling into your lap and the next words make you unable to meet his gaze, âi canât, iâm six months soberâ and a nervous smile stretches slowly across your lips again.
juyeonâs heart lurches for the millionth time this evening. itâs endearing the way youâre fumbling with your fingers as youâre proud of yourself, itâs adorable how youâre sitting patiently like a child, admirable at how youâre on the verge of tears yet pulling yourself together like the strong woman you are.
it also breaks at the thought of you turning to alcohol to feel something and he knows the feeling all too well. thinking you could stay drunk forever, the life of the party with ethanol and fake highs of life running through your veins. life of the party, bodies to bodies. dancing hard and waking up dizzy enough in the mornings to not notice the missing side of the bed- he only hopes you hadnât tried filling his side of the bed like he has tried before.
he can only nod in response feeling utterly stupid and useless. âcongratulations, thatâs incredible of you, iâm so proud,â he mumbles the last words afraid of how youâd take it but you smile gracefully again, bowing your head to say thanks. the sudden show of respect and manners draws the lines heâs trying to cross to reach you and he swallows once more.
âyou look amazing,â he breathes.
âi donât feel amazing,â you confess and he drops his shoulders to lean back.
âhow are you feeling?â he tries.
âpathetic,â you answer, not making eye contact with him instead opting to stare up at the navy swirls of the sky, moon glittering above. âmy ex boyfriend appears after two years and he doesnât look like he became an alcoholic or an actual loser after he left. he looks amazing, way better than i think he ever couldve with me and i want nothing more to down that whole champagne glass but all iâm going to taste is the feel of your lips and i canât do that to myself again,â you rush out through the shaky breaths and fingers that drum against your thigh.
âi really canât,â you shake your head and close your eyes wishing that this moment would just end and youâd be back to living the life without lee juyeon that utterly sucks but is better than the hole you were falling down a year ago.
juyeon stills before he takes your flute and downs it all, you stare at him for the first time that evening. eyes wide, mouth slightly open and he coughs a little after the last sip.
âheâs an ass,â his husky voice tries to clear itself but the hurt is taking over. âheâs a selfish prick that needed your attention and affection to thrive and become this person heâs not. he hasnât been doing awesome at all,â he confesses and notices that youâre hanging on to every word, eyes refusing to leave his view.
âiâve stopped going downtown because i know youâre not there anymore,â a tear slips out his chocolate cat eyes, âhe feels pathetic for even talking in third person but he really needs you to know that he regrets every moment heâs spent without you but then again youâre doing better without me and i canât let myself break you again,â his head hangs low in shame.
â i really canât,â he repeats with his own jittery fingers that want nothing more to hold your hands and never let go.
âju,â you whisper and he leans closer to you, afraid if he walks away heâll never have this chance again. the nickname causes a frenzy within him and he fights the stretching smile and peeking pearly whites.
âyes?â he faulters.
âwaking up sober would feel nice if only i could sleep at night,â a tear glistens as it rolls down your cheek. instinctively he reaches out to wipe it away yet his touch lingers and his palm finds itself at home, cupping your cheek. you lean closer into his touch, feeling the warmth of the love youâve been conditioned to miss.
ây/n,â and you both close your eyes.
âwe shouldnât do this,â your whisper is the first to break the silence and it shatters his glass heart even more because he knows itâs true. the stars disappear in the evening darkness and the buzz of the wedding is slowly dying down. guests are leaving and goodbyes are already filling the air. soon enough juyeon and you are going to be heading back to the lives you lived before each other and juyeon wants to cry with his entire being.
heâs just got you, he canât let you slip away again.
âlet me take you home?â he asks hopeful, heart resting when you nod and let him lead you to his car.
it cracks slowly from the moment eric kisses your cheek goodbye to when you type your new address in his gps that feels world away from his apartment that used to be the safe haven for lazy sundays to when he walks you to the door and you say your goodbyes.
âwait!â he calls out a second before youâre about to shut the door on his once more.
âwould you ever give it another go?â with me.
you press your lips together and your gaze flickers as you think carefully.
âmaybe one day when iâm mentally sober and clean too,â you smile. âbut thank you for breaking my heart and the bad habits,â you chuckle lightly.
and lee juyeon clings to your words all the ride home and the rest of his life. just maybe.
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HI YOUVE JUST MADE ME NOTICE SOMETHING THAT HALF THE BEGINNING OF THIS FIC IS MISSING??? OH MY HOW DO I LIKE FIND IT NO THATS SO ANNOYING
BUT NONETHELESS THIS MADE ME SMILE SO HARD TYSM FOR READING !!!!!!!!!!! YOURE BEING ABSOLUTELY SO SWEET TO ME AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AHHHHHHHHH STAY SAFE AND TAKE CARE LOVE U :))))
what happens in vegas stays in vegas. ( kim sunwoo )
everything except the fact that heâs married his best friendâs sister at said best friendâs bachelor party, oh fuck.
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just how hard did he drink last night? sunwooâs too dizzy as he traces back the roaring alcohol fusing in his bloodstream that he almost misses the sight of you next to him if it were not for your arm lazily swatting him away.
âyn?â his heart drops to his ass. it races in his chest, crashing against the rib cage that holds it captive. and soon enough the blood is in his ears, your heartbeat is in his ears. a string if curses hang from his lips in incoherent mumbles and he heaves out another breath, begging for the air to not feel as heavy as his head.
âyn?â his heart drops to his ass. it races in his chest, crashing against the rib cage that holds it captive. and soon enough the blood is in his ears, your heartbeat is in his ears. a string if curses hang from his lips in incoherent mumbles and he heaves out another breath, begging for the air to not feel as heavy as his head.
âgo away,â you mutter under your breath and you roll over, taking most of the duvet with you that the breeze bites at his naked skin. his teeth sink into his watermelon lips so hard he can taste the blood under the forming bruise he knows is going to dry up for days.
âno baby no,â his own eyes widen at the sudden pet name and sunwoo grows another head once he sees the sight of a massive diamond on your ring finger. âwhat fucking mortgage did i take out for that?â he gasps and grabs your own hand that youâre trying to tug away from him. oh no, oh god no. having feelings for his best friendâs little sister was one thing, but getting married to her in vegas is another fucking thing. if the bro code was a room, then kim sunwoo sent a wrecking ball straight through and destroyed the room.
he lets out a yell and you turn over angrily at the sudden raise of his voice and noise levels, a messy pout plastered on your swollen lips. bed hair sticking out and brows furrowed and sunwoo feels his heart fly and plummet, its so scary how all he can see is changmin when he looks at your face.
fuck, changmin. how was sunwoo going to explain this all to your brother? his mind casts back to last night and changminâs bachelor party and you in your golden dress glory kissing sunwoo under the neon lights in a forgotten corner that blurred the lines of a secret friendship and something more. he remembers your tumbling bodies crashing into his hotel door, hands on your hips, tasting the champagne off your tongue and then the sudden blur of vegas at two am in a jewellery store somewhere that will forever mean something so much more. he remembers your dazzling smile and the chills down his spine as you lay together.
his mind is lost in the memories and his body drowning in the duvet covers and softness of the mattress. he doesnât remember sleeping or ever telling you heâs been in love with you since he was seven and your brother invited him over. he doesnât even remember the sex and the only thing that brings him out of his hollowed heaven is the knock that breaks through the wood.
âsunwoo!â the voice that calls his name drags him through to hell and back. call him melodramatic but all sunwoo can see is the darkness heâs slipping into. the darkness a punch from ji changmin will send him into an abyss of love and a life without you. âhave you seen my sister?â changminâs voice calls out again, banging on his door. âjesus you wouldnât think i was the one getting married, look at you with all the time on your hands open this fucking door,â he groans and sunwoo chokes out his next words that may be his last.
âjust a second hyung!â the broken stutter of a honoruific feels like sin spilling from his lips and he turns back to you in a frenzy. nudging you gently but urgently to wake you up from the land of dreams. âsweetheart as much as iâd love to stay here forever i really need you to move,â he whispers harshly. âi need you to wake up and hide right now,â his voice is desperate, pleading with all his might but you simply. open an eye at him, confused with all your might and you muster whatever morning strength you have to lazily place a peck on his cheek. âwoo, go back to bed.â
as much as he wants to relish in how soft your lips feel on his skin, heâs really screwed and youâre cute as hell but youâre really going to be the death of him. his arms are flailing as he motions to you that he will die as soon as that door opens but your eyes are shut again and he thinks jesus did he marry a bear?
marry. oh fuck, it gets even scarier at every mention of it. this isnât how he planned it, he hasnât even taken you on a proper date and shown you off as his. he hasnât asked for you familyâs approval (inc. your menace of a brother bonded by blood) he hasnât taken you out to dinner or asked you to be his girlfriend never mind his wife. who knew stolen shy glances, saucy snapchat messages and secret visits to the nearby playground to make out would lead to a fucking proposal in vegas.
âsunwoo!! have you seen my sister??âthe knocks alert his attention once more and he groans, legs tangled in the sheets as he races to the door and opens it with a little gap to peek his head through. but changmin isnât staring at sunwooâs head but more so his bare all on display. sunwooâs eyes pop out of his head so rapidly he slams the door shut in the elderâs face and scrambles around for his boxers.
a minute later he opens the door with a rapid âno, have a good dayâ and the door is slammed shut again once more. the sight of ji changminâs narrowed eyes and furrowed brows disappears and sunwoo waits till he can hear the footsteps clattering away before his bare back slides against the wooden frame.
âfuck yn, that was so close,â he breathes.
âYN?â changminâs voice hollers and sunwoo jumps to his feet, cursing the heavens above for making ji changmin to be such an annoying little shit and praying that heâll at least make it out of this alive to one day propose to you properly.
sunwoo turns the handle and changminâs already pushing it forward to open it with such force that sunwooâs sure as hell that heâs going to fly out that window. he closes his eyes, shutting them tightly to seep into that darkness before surrendering his hands and heaving his confession.
âhyung, iâm in love with your sister.â he winces, bracing the impact of any blows but they do not come. instead, changminâs just staring at him and then at you and sunwoo thinks that just maybe it will all be okay, but there always is a calm before the storm and honey, he curses your words that hit like a hurricane.
âso in love with me he forgot that he married me,â you sleepily mumble in the silence just loud enough for changmin to catch it and harden. sunwoo doesnât even try to hide the tear that glistens and falls from his chocolate eyes.
âwhat happens in vegas stays in vegas?â sunwoo lets a sheepish grin overtake his plump limps as he nervously scratches his neck thatâs adorned with purple hues.
well, oh fuck.
minnieâs note: its midnight here but have some fluff or whatever this is to make up for the recent angst mwah i love u && thank you for reading <3
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update ; just somethings id like to say , feel free to ignore or not but little disclaimer.
hi, hope youâre all doing fabulously well && taking care of yourselves. the sweetest of sweetest messages left in my inbox and i havenât the chance to reply back or itâs been insanely overdue iâm sorry but i see them and iâm eternally grateful for them n you, tysm for having so much patience with me and wishing me nothing but the best and i hope the same energy youve given me is received back on your end :) i love you !
just wanted to say i am legal now so i donât intend to interact with anyone whoâs 15 or below. itâs uncomfortable on my part and i would hate myself if it made you uncomfortable on yours too. this is still a safe place, and i definitely have no intentions of writing any smut or adult content either so its still sfw my loves, just wanted to say that properly :)
i have a ton of unfinished works/overdue collabs that i am extremely sorry for the delay. so much has happened and i havenât really been into kpop or tbz as hardcore as i was when i left for this break. that isnt to say ive left the fandom! iâd break my knees for blue haired changmin its embarrassing but please bear with me until the summer when i have much more time on my hands to work with and not post anything in haste. but something will come soon i promise !
lifeâs been tricky and iâm working on myself still but thats not to say i havenât been happy, itâs always a joy popping in here to see how you all are and the works youre proud of and posting and the little messages i see. i love u all <33
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what the bell i was off tumblr since my exams were going on and i come here and see you on my tl and ydk how it urged to scream at 3:33 in the morning IM CONVINCED IM A LOSWE. i missed youuu
<333333 :))))) hi anvi !!!!!! :))))) <33333
hi pretty !! hi omg :) its been a while since ive spoken to my favourite person on this little app i hope youre doing wonderful gorgeous and these exams havent tired you out !! that youre still taking care of yourself and remembering that a set of exams does not prove your worth and keep your chin up chickie !! hope it all went awesomely well and im proud of you !! YOURE NOT A LOSER I MISSED YOU MORE i cant even remember being on here. lifeâs been a little tricky im still working on myself and school and if all goes well im off to uni in september which i really hope it all goes well so i just pop in occassionally like last month and today and idk when next but ill be back in the summer around july hopefully? how have you been precious ! ?
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOML, YOU DESERVE LOVR AND HAPPINESS AND JUST THE BEDT JUST FOR YOU, YOU'RE AN ETERNAL SWEETHEART AND OH GOD I MISS YOU SO MUCH BUT ANYWAY BABYLOVE, I LOVE YOU AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MATTY YOURE SUCH AN INCREDIBLE SWEETHEART AND I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY FIBRE IN MY BEING AND YOU GIVE ME THE BEST EACH AND EVERY TIME IM HERE I LOVE YOU MORE AND TY FOR JUST BEINT YOU BAE
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wait wait wait it's your birthday?????
NO MY LOVE THEYRE FROM LAST MONTH AND I ONLY SAW THEM NOW OH MY GOD SORRY EVERYONE
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HAPPY BDAY MINNIE !! hope you have the best day today đđ hope hyunjae posts today so he can be your present đ đ
(đđ hehe get it ? bc hyunjae's name means present đ in korean)
OH MY GOD THATS SO CLEVER WTF AHH TYSM BAE TY FOR DROPPING BY AND FOR YOUR SWEET WISHES IM SO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY LOVE IT FEELS LIKE YOURE MY PRESENT INSTEAD SCREAMS
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU cha cha cha HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU cha cha cha HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRETTY MINNIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE cha .... cha .... cha ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!!
THE PITTLE CHA CHA CHAS YOU ARE WOTHOUT A DOUBT THE CUTEST I CANNOT BELIEVE OH MY GOD TYSM FOR DROPPING BY A MONTH AGO IM SO SORRY ITS LIKE IVE ONLY SEEN THIS NOW BUT IT FEELS LIKE MY BIRTHDAY AGAIN LMAO OMG TY MY LOVE TYYYY
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! i hope you have an amazing day đ¤đ¤đ¤
THE SWEETEST OF UOU TO DROP BY AHAIN SORRY FOR THE EXTREMELY LATE RESPONDE I LOGE YOU AND I APPRECIATE YOUR WISHES AHH
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i know you wonât see this for some time but, happy birthday!
i hope you feel extra special and laugh a lot today!
CRYING TYSM MY LOVE IM SUPER SORRY FOR THE INCREDIBLY LATE RESPONSE BUT IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME AHH YAYYYY TYYY
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY OMG??!?!
WAIT ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY RIGHT :0
OH MY GOD CAN I JUSY APOLOGISE FOR THE AWFUL LIKE INACTIVITY LIFE HAS JUST BEEN SO BUSY??
i feel awful that my birthday was last month and im only just seeing this now but TYTYTYTYYYY it was my birthday anon and i spent it in egypt for two weeks and did not touch my phone once and had the most magical of times tysm tysm tYSM ANON I LOVE YOU
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BABEEEEEE!!!!!!! HOW ARE YOUUU :(((( SORRY I FORGOT TO INTERACT FOR A WHILE GOSH IM SO STUPID NVM TwT I HOPE YOURE DOING AMAZING <3333 ILYYYSMM <3333
GORGEOUS BBY HI , ive been okay!! wonderful, even hehe OH NO OH MY DONT APOLOGISE ITS OKAY as long as youve been taking care n prioritising yourself i have no worries, how have you been precious?? NO YOURE NOT STUPID YOURE ADORABLE AND I LOVE YOU OKAY we need to fr catch up oh my beautiful !! sending loads of love <3
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hello min â(Â´â˘ Ď â˘`â) how are you!!! itâs been quite awhile since weâve talked :(( i miss you lots, just checking in to see if youâre doing okay! make sure to get plenty of sleep and prioritise yourself over everything else, okay? love u ă˝(ｼâｼ)ďž
hi leona!! iâm doing really good thank u for asking, how are you gorgeous?? ive just had a vanilla latte and my body cannot take caffeine so a massive mistake so tmi but im a random oversharer and whilst i am feeling great but my tummy is not :/ it has been a while !! i miss speaking to you !! tysm for ur kindest of words and i wish the very same if not much more for you too my love, stay healthy and happy yeah? much love, min. <33
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i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i love you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you so much i hope you're doing well :(
hold my teacup whilst i cry what is it with everyone trying to make me cry?? h8ers. no kidding, i seriously absolutely and completely miss you more. i miss you i miss you i miss youuu how are you vaebae? iâm doing well, iâve got a greater appreciation for myself and life so im really proud i didnt just answer with an âim decentâ no, im well. im doing really well actually :)) and i can only hope that you are feeling the same and if not even more well, love you <3
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UR NEW THEME IS IMMACULATE!!! my tbz bias is sunwoo (surprise surprise) but i also adore sangyeon + changmin!! (but all of them ofc theyâre all so cute n funny) like i could honestly go on and on about the. but iâll spare you JDBJSN n e ways i stan too many other groups but my mains are itzy (ot5 but you didnât hear it from me), skz (jisung + seungmin) + stayc! (seeun loml) i also love twice, txt + weki meki <333 - anon 20
hi my gorgeous anon 20, its been a while and i hope youre doing wonderfully my love !! are you taking care of yourself?? eating enough, sleeping enough, smiling enough :))) ?? i hope you are !! <33
tysm !! i might change it again because its been a hot minute and im a little bored of it mhm ahh a sunwoo bias !! love to see it !! but they areee genuinely oh my i go through so many phases with each member but i always come back to changmin?? hes fr got me in a chokehold but saying that, i havent watched any tbz content in a while?? or any kpop, ive been binge watching reply 1998 and like keeping up to date with my studies i just havent had the time to watch only like listen to their music if that makes sense? no dont spare me!! rant all u want id love to hear what you want to say about your faves go for it love!!!
itzy skz yesss !!! my itzy bias is lia and my skz bias is hyunjin my god dont get me started on them!!! twice n txt yes yes yes the taste is immaculateeee i havent heard any weki meki songs, rec me some?? n let me know how youre doing too i miss you!!!
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