I hope good memories comeback when everything is too late

I loved you. I love you with everything I had, you were my happiness, you were my sunshine, my happiness, MY EVERYTHING. I bared the fact that I was slowly losing you, you were slowly unloving me, leaving me, leaving the promises we made together, the dreams we built together. All those times we were happy. Building it so high only to see it fall. You were my definition of love. It's just crazy how you treating like a stranger now after everything. It took me a lot of violence just to achieve the peace I have now but still the pain remains. I thought time would heal me but it only made me get use to it. All I can do now and just wish you happiness and love you from a far. It still hurts. You were my always and that won't change. I wanna see you again one last time and just admire how beautiful you are. I wanna see that smile one last time like seeing a sunrise before death

It's happening again. Slowly fading away. Why did I even bother to hope.

I knew it. It's the same shit. It was stupid of me to assume that this is one was gonna be different. I don't know what's gonna happen next but I'll probably never try again. I'm sorry dad if I can't give a grandson or even just a girl that you can meet as my wife.

I think I'm not capable of loving someone again. I found it once but I think it's just for me to experience but not meant to have one for life. It's like life saying "I'm gonna give you something good then take it away from you and make you realize you're not gonna have this again for the rest of your life go fuck yourself". I'll just make sure i've fully done my responsibilities as the eldest to my family, make sure they have a happy life and then bam just everything. I should buy a gun and use that as my way out. I want it fast.

Tokyo Ghoul (2017)

I was having a decent day aaaannnndddd poof why am I even born. Fuck my life. Just somebody shoot me

I should be the one dead instead of you ma. I'm a fucking disgrace

Wish I was still the reason behind your smile

I thought you were the one. All those dreams we've made together, goals and fantasies. I can't even see myself still alive the next day yet I you've made me look forward about my future, with you of course. Life was worth living because of you. I have this gift because of you, the gift of wanting to be alive. It's been a long time but up until now I still think of us. How we loved each other, how we dance slowly on the afternoon, how we fought and how we became better every time we got thru it. It's so scary and sad that after all that were strangers again. I hope you a good and happy life. You will always have a place in my heart and in my life 💛

I wish she did

Can't picture myself alive 5 years from now

It doesn't fade away through time. It stay with you all through out. You just learn how to with it better. I use to be so dramatic of wanting to die, now it's just a normal thought process.

Feeling my pig out bod

I dreamt of you. It was so good seeing you even tho I wasn't real. I miss you so bad