I'm putting this under a cut bc my brain is not working to remember tag warnings.

tw for uh. calorie and weight and eating disorder talk I guess. I'm not having eating disorder issues but just like Talking and I know that's too much for some ppl. this is largely just high rambling.

so this 3oz bag of spicy queso popcorners (highly recommend) has three fucking servings??? like girl who only eats 17 chips. I eat them until the bag tells me it's time to stop.

anyways. these fuckers obviously aren't healthy even though they've never been fried. But they're healthier than nacho cheese doritos. this is not the tangent I was meaning to go on.

the whole 3oz bag has 420 calories and that's clearly a sign to eat the whole bag if I wanted (and I did). and here's the weight talk. like yeah I'm clearly overweight but people are so fucking weird about it when others are overweight? I gained weight because I 1. became too disabled to easily exercise 2. was put on psychiatric meds (that I needed at the time!) that made me gain like 30lbs pretty fast and 3. am relatively recovered from some flavor of eating disorder (unspecified and directly influenced by other mental health issues. I have DID and it fluctuated between alters.). people (including doctors) get so fucking weird when you have Reasons for being overweight that are directly contradictory to being able to lose weight.

I'm glad that, while my relationship to food is not the greatest, it's not restrictive or influenced by my relationship with my body. I can handle someone asking me if I've lost weight (why the fuck would I care) without it damaging my recovery.

bodies simply want to have extra fat for keeping us safe and they just havent evolved enough from when we had to store weight when possible. they are trying their best and so many people demonize not being able to change how our bodies work.

anyways. being fat is normal and fine. spicy queso popcorners fuck so hard. please be nice to yourself and your body.

Ross Gay, “Catalog of Unabashed Gratitude” // Supernatural 13.04 “The Big Empty” // Supernatural 13.06 “Tombstone” and “Tombstone” script

Stackednatural- 264/327

Funeralia (13x19) April 19th, 2018

lines from the born again identity that make my brain WHIRRRRRRRRR

Castiel every day so often -- 6/139

Supernatural 4x10//Heaven and Hell

it's time

get your own @castielsprostate commission here or see his art blog here @sjonni33

There’s needing something to live, and then needing something because it’s good for your soul… 😆 I struggle when it comes to very cute things.

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here is the place where I love you

Do you find Jensen Ackles attractive?

The prismatic potential of happiness 🌈💡🎩

(A second take on this piece of mine from #suptober20)

hello edibles packaging. I don't need you to tell me your contents might be habit forming. I know I am a rat in a cage and not a park. I know I have unmedicated adhd. I know I have a family history of addiction on both sides. but thank you for following the law I guess.

real knives real glass real bees real choking im going fucking insane. every time i think about it all i go insane. how did they survive the show

Dean actually found Castiel in the empty after they defeated chuck and kissed him

look at my proof ⌄

Destiel have their house in the middle of nowhere and live happily ever after

through heaven and hell

watching a very supernatural christmas and in the flashbacks sam is only just now (at 8 years old) finding out about monsters. which means that for 7 1/2 years dean has been bearing the burden about worrying if their dad will come home from “work” alive or not ON HIS OWN. sam thinks john is some sort of travelling salesman (?) up until this point. and dean has to live with the fear that he’ll lose their dad as well as their mom while also not clueing sam into the fact that john is in danger. constantly. no one to confide in or get comfort from. and in fact he is the one doing the comforting! he consoles sam about their dad being gone and in 2x01 john even says then when he came home from hunts dean would put a hand on his shoulder and tell his dad that everything would be okay. EVERYTHING YOU DO HAS BEEN FOR LOVE. THEE MOST CARING MAN I HAVE EVER KNOWN. if you even care