I need to study i have no energy and I didn’t even do anything

I told you not to make friends anymore cus how fucking sensitive u are and u did exactly that idiot never learn that you’re meant to be alone

Don’t be like her pls don’t turn it into that be distant but not too distant, time to take a break from having friends and finish all ur revision, only then are you allowed to be how you were before, be distant so she doesn’t get sick of u

It’s October thats why am so sad I want to do a ginny

I can’t sleep

My eyes are all cried out

Can’t anymore

I wonder how crystal is

I’m not deserving of her I made for a true friend now I have her Almd but it hurts cus I’m eighteen but never had this before so sucky cus I can’t be better

My heart feels so bad and heavy

I remembered a dream I had of u years ago and I was like wtf cus idek u then

My heads bl3333ding

⭐️ ving!

She’s so perfect

How do you say those things

Fuck you i hope destroying me fixed you

you ruined me and I was barely a 13 year old baby

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I’m so scared I’m so sad I’m gonna be so sad and lonely when school starts I don’t wanna go to school I wanna be at home forever and ever and ever I’m so tired everything’s gonna be so mean it’s gonna be the saddest loneliest year evaaaaa worse and it’s gonna be the last year i don’t want a future I wanna be alone locked up forever I don’t want a future i don’t want to go uni I want to be a child crying in the primary school playground i fucking hate this i don’t see a moment en mi vida that was worth living everything I do five secs later I think why tf did i do that wanting to rip tear leave my skin

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‘you got this’ no i don’t bro I’m dying

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i love su, fucked up af’s face, lost everyone, idc im happier now, mother walked into me smoking in the bathroom, she kinda believes me not talking to me still but idc fucking thief why is she taking my razors, shes the issue not dad, making me think he was all along, i see now n i fucking hate her sh relapse sounds delicious rn but ‘i dont do thar anymore’, im fucking exhausted, got geography 1 in 4hours, im so done. going on a mission to buy vapes after my paper, got 4 hours, then ill prob j go s’s house, i wanna go back to sleep but need to revise, its 5am, i wanna skip to the bit where i start 6th form rn, rara is the only thing keeping me going atp, fuck i hate everyone iml so much, : anki then case study flashcards then blurt, then monster when i get to school 

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between the last time i posted and now was the happiest time ever apart from year 7

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saddest biirthday ever, i want this school yr to be over so fast pls im so sick of everyone i want them all to go, now that i have her i kinda want her to go too i dont care aboout anyone at all i feel like the most heartless person ever rn, im so in love w the idea of not talking to anyone at all, waking up in the early morning to study and looking pretty i do not care i have never EVER been happier, 16.