literally one of my favorite tweets ever

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

Clarice Lispector, from "Miss Algrave", Soulstorm: Stories

Tshirt idea I had

sometimes i just wanna change everything about my life. but just for like. a couple months

“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”

— Unknown

why must we network. isn't my kindness and willingness to try to be better everyday enough?

do it for her (your thirteen year old self)

jobs for girls who can't focus and are tired all the time and aren't rlly that good looking and get startled easily

there are calcified layers of shame in my soul that you could carbon date like rock strata

So true

remembering all the times i spent money

reject booktok culture. go to the library and get a weird little novel you’ve never heard of in your life and read it all in 2 days like god intended.

Kat Lyons (American, 1991) - You Can't Get Lost When You're Only Keeping Up (n.d.)